to do, perhaps

some days all i can do is make a list. i won't use "having aphasia" as a label, but it's enormously refreshing to stamp a Fuck This label on each moment. i hopepraychantwish that it is temporary, because fighting it is a bad idea.

how about you start eating again. check the to-do app. get on it with them veggies. just gnaw on carrots. you're fine.

2026 chess championship. see if your mind can handle 'how do i get real good at chess real fast'. go back to Red's notes and see what you can pull from there.

netflix — wednesday — blacklist — stranger things — maybe illusionist, maybe not, because J liked that and just ugh my heart ain't down for that yet

SSI? SSDI? do i start with a lawyer?

keep sleeping. it's okay.

enjoy ALL the fiction you're chewing through right now.

how's chad? (IMBYL title — that's one of my many books. chad's the main. )

just because you're not, doesn't mean you can't. you won't.

ice skating. public session $20 ea. GET A HELMET, WEAR THE HELMET. get the gloves and the wrist braces. WEAR THEM. don't fall. if you fall, at least these can help you a bit.

what's yoga? you ready to do anything about that with others? you gonna stream or write or ??????

you need a big fat ugly cry, is what you need.

hey, where did you drop that piece of rice? she says, as she bumps her fork against the bowl of rice and then flips a forkful everywhere.

organize one cubby

find that calendar.

DMV: realID, car reg. fuck the DMVtriarchy.

you ready to hold your bass again and see if it makes any sense at all? reading music is not a possibility right now, but holding the bass is. plus: hand exercises.

what the fuck are you gonna do about CALE? you want to start reading a bit on friday? is TODAY friday?!?!?!  what the fuck.

add to as needed.