friends only
(nearly)

Since I created this journal when I was thirteen, my old entries were really, really dumb. I left those public for the longest time, even after I began flocking, because I was (and still am) too lazy and stubborn to buy paid time for the mass edit function. So when I finally got around to finishing the job, I decided to make a new friends only post. This one.

I'm making a big effort to be less constipated about me+society, so I'm trying to make public posts occasionally or something.

Comments are screened because last time I thought about this post it sounded like a nice idea for some reason.

I know you agree with me that the image for Terror is a mustache on a very narrow lightbulb.

Which brings me to my most exciting point. TV Asahi has a real cast page for W! It's not as fun and exciting as Kiva's, mostly because it's not in flash, but I love cast pages so much. Because I'm silly.

Would anyone on my flist happen to recognize this image? Thanks! I'm being silly.

Yesterday I managed to watch Double twice, which I guess is kind of funny, but I didn't think of it that way last night. I was just full of adrenaline or something for some reason.

I really enjoyed it. It's not nearly as fan appeasing as Decade, but that isn't a bad thing. It has charm all by itself. The feel of it is a little weird so far, but I think I'll be able to get used to it. Shotaro is fun, and Phillip Interests me. With a capital I. I knew he would, being the information/research/genius half of the equation, but his interaction with Akiko gave me real hope he'll be the kind of character I can get into. A real character, despite being weird and distant.

Mostly I just need a Smeargle. Oh well.

A thin tablet with a Kindle-like screen with computer functionality and the ability to load whatever I want on it. I don't want a device to read books I can have a hard copy of. I like physical books, but I read lots of things on screens too, and I get horrible eyestrain sometimes.

I've found myself really eager for Double. Part of it is how disappointed I am with Decade, I think. I don't dislike it or anything. I enjoy it, actually. But whenever I really get into a plot point, it's already over and whatever caught my interest probably never gets mentioned again. How can a series where nothing changes support itself? It's really amazing I've been able to stick with it. I don't usually have patience for these sorts of things. It's my love of beginnings of storylines, I know. But they never resolve in any kind of satisfactory way. The series just keeps throwing me bones that amount to nothing.

Besides that, I'm eager for Double because I'm a sucker for gimmicks. This is why dramas and whatnot rarely appeal to me. This is why I go for this sort of children's show. The gimmicks! What is the story behind them? This is very important. How can I resist mysterious magical flash memory?

Oh, and here's an article about the importance of guilt in child development. Completely off-topic, but it's interesting and I don't want to forget it.

I'll be alone for a week starting tomorrow. If you're on my flist, I assume you know what that means. I get really anxious when I'm alone overnight. I've been doing a lot better, of course, but the problem stands. And since this is not really an entry about my problems, I'll get down to business.

continuingordeal is an AIM account. It's an alt of mine. I hate posting screen names publicly, but I think it could be helpful while I'm alone, because I hate to depend solely on a few particular people to keep me in contact with the world. They have lives of their own, after all. It's not fair to them.

If you're able, you can IM me there at any time for the next week. It doesn't have to be a conversation or anything. Just a hello or something. I do get messages sent when I'm offline, by the way, and I promise I won't bug anyone who sends me a message, and if you can't or don't want to, that's fine. I won't blame you or anything. I'm just trying to set up something that might help.

I have officially caught up on Shinkenger. How did you motivate yourself to do that, you might ask. You fall behind on all kinds of things you like. Why Shinkenger?

Childhood friends, quite simply. It's one of my major weaknesses.

I still like Takeru a lot. He could easily take over the show entirely, but he doesn't. Not usually. I like characters who are crazy intense and serious, and Takeru hits that spot brilliantly.
I'm annoyed by Ryuunosuke less, probably because he hasn't been the gag character for a bit. Not that he isn't silly, just that I like seeing his serious rule bound side.
I like Mako. I can't relate to the desire to be a normal housewife and it bothers me anyway, but I guess I can understand the desire for normalcy. That's how I can get a grip on it, anyway.
Chiaki is the stubborn teenager in a situation he doesn't want to be in except he finds meaning and depth and purpose in it. I think everyone's a stubborn teenager sometimes. I was one yesterday, in fact, if you're taking teenager to mean behavior patterns and not specific age range.
I really don't know what to say about Kotoha. I can relate to her too, but it's not the kind of relating I'm comfortable admitting to.
I'm weak to additional heroes as a rule, so naturally I like Genta a lot. I'm happy to see a silly character who's incredibly smart and talented on the side. His intelligence is not the focus of his character, but other characters do acknowledge it. He has no ambition to a smart person career. He's just the silly one. Usually silly characters are unbelievably dumb for comedic reasons.

I want to be a kuroko in my next life. What does this say about my self-esteem?