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Player Information

Name: Seek
Age: 17
AIM SN: anathematisation, goodjobself as an alternate
email: goodjobself@gmail.com
Have you played in an LJ based game before? Yup!
Bonus: How did you hear about Siren's Pull? kindasortaish enabled by Pana, who was enabled by Z. :|b

Character Information

General
Canon Source: DOGS: Bullets & Carnage
Canon Format: Manga
Character's Name: Nill
Character's Age: 15

What form will your character's NV take? Nill's NV will take the form of an Archos 5, with phone, video, and camera capabilities.

Abilities
Character's Canon Abilities: NONE WHATSOEVER. She was learning how to sew, and she has since learned to cook a bit and make half-burned cookies. That's as good as it gets with this one. She has slightly better stamina than the next person, but next to no physical strength.

If your character has no superhuman canon abilities, what dormant ability will you give them?

Nill's dormant ability will take the form of telepathy; that is, she'll be able to "communicate" with others without speaking, using her mind. She will also be able to communicate with people over a distance of a few miles, and have base mind-reading abilities in that she can "hear" whatever they might reply to her if they do not verbally offer one. This ability can also be used in rather formidable ways if Nill were to ever think to use it as such; unless the character has a canon ability to block mind reading or keep their mind off limits in general, they will not be able to keep her "voice" out of their heads. It's very likely that she could overwhelm someone with an onslaught of thought, and in addition to this, she could essentially be used as a mass communications device that cannot be picked up by radars of any kind. However, overuse of this ability can cause disorientation, nosebleeds, and eventually knock her out if she really overuses it.

Weapons: None.

History/Personality/Plans/etc.
Character History:

If anyone remembered what year it was, no one said so; the apocalypse had come and gone, brought about by (as expected, as foretold) man’s golden age of technology, and it had taken the seasons with it when it left. The world was unchanging, with the same gray weather and cold temperatures every day no matter where you went, and because we’re such a damned resilient race, humanity survived. It rebuilt its cities, rebuilt its crime and cars and pollution, and it continued as though nothing ever happened, even though everyone now lives as the lowest of the low, and the only people with enough money to really get by are mob bosses. No one ever learns.

It was this world—a place almost completely devoid of kindness and caring—that Nill was born into; her parents were genetically modified humans, remnants from that Golden Age, and as such she was born similarly, with little stumps on her back; Nill has no memories of her parents. The same day she began to talk, the scientists ripped out her vocal chords and began giving her treatments (which felt more like acid running through her veins than the ‘medicine’ they claimed it to be, but really, how was she to know the difference?) to make the stumps on her back grow, and eventually, those odd little bumps grew into small, delicate wings. The treatments lasted a good three years, day in and day out, and the wings didn’t finish fully developing and growing until she was seven years old. She was marked off as an incomplete experiment after that and sent off to live in some corner of the labs with other incompletes, while the next experiment was started on another child in her place.

None of the young ones—not unlike Nill herself—ever complained or cried out, because this was life to them, and all they had ever known. The walls surrounding them, the rooms they slept in, that was as far as the world extended, and no one questioned the finality of such laws. A few of the older ones, they’d gotten to live for a few years on the outside before the scientists came for them. Every child lost something in return for the ‘gifts’ they were given, and most of the older children lost their memories of home, but their subconscious and their bodies remembered enough to fabricate dreams and tales of a world outside the walls that confined them. Nill was just another one of the happily naïve children that listened without any sort of doubt, like a child believes in Santa, because wouldn’t it be beautiful if such a thing really existed, wouldn’t it be amazing? But years came and went, and no sign of the tales ever having been true came until the day that the lab exploded. Nill was fourteen.

The fact they their world—all they had ever really known—had been destroyed, that didn’t matter to most of the children. The fact that almost one-fourth of all of the children were dead, that wouldn’t truly hit them until hours, days, even weeks later. The only thing that mattered, really and truly, was the fact that there was a huge hole in the wall, and for the first time ever, their world had been expanded. Most of the children were either stupid enough, curious enough, or brave enough to leave their ‘world’, while some of them stayed behind, either too hurt or frightened to follow along. If there was still staff in the building, they didn’t show up to stop them; and the children continued throughout the building in silence until they reached a huge door. And of course, because they were children who had not been taught ‘you should not do this’, they simply walked right through. On the other side of the door was a tunnel, and at the end of the tunnel there were no walls, no doctors, just light and sky and fresh air. Some of the children, they went back to where they had come from, back into the underground and the darkness and the destruction. Most of them, however, ran. Another fourth of them died trying to get away; none of the children that went back underground were seen again.

Nill, well, she was just one of the lucky ones.

And she was free for a few weeks, surviving off the kindness and mercy of the few good souls left in that particular city. Almost everyone gave her food, though whether out of kindness, pity, or their own motives it was impossible to tell, but at least one of them was most certainly not a kind person. He drugged the food he gave her, and while she was asleep, he sold her to the highest bidder. The highest bidder was a man that sold the bodies of young girls and women for money, making sure to train them himself before hand. A pimp, for lack of a better word, and just like that Nill’s future was sold. But she had seen enough in her time on the outside to know that the life she’d led before leaving was not a good one, and she didn’t want to go back to that, didn’t want to go back to being just another caged person in a small, small world.

The first chance she got, Nill ran again, and that’s how she met Haine.

Haine wasn’t like anyone else that Nill had met before; his hair was white, his eyes were red, and without any more reason than ‘you’re like me’, he saved her. Took her to a place where she could get a hot shower, where she could relax for a few moments, and he even caught on to the fact that she couldn’t speak. He went on to say that they were alike; that when artificial life forms are created and things are added to them, that something is usually changed or removed, and that occasionally, in order not to create something better than normal beings, artificial limits are intentionally created.

Haine was a far more troubled person than Nill could ever be, haunted by more demons than she could have imagined. The minute she tried to touch him, comfort him in the only way that she could, he shouted, told her not to touch him—and then, the men came, and they shot Haine full of lead and pushed him out a window. And they took Nill with them when they left.

For the first time that she could remember, Nill was mad; the man before her, this awful, awful person had just killed the only being that had ever truly tried to help her. And he was trying to do those things to her again. Why, why was this man so cruel? Thankfully, oh so thankfully, the sound of gunfire began to ring through the halls, and the minute his grip loosened even a little bit Nill bolted yet again, being the fast little thing that she was.

She didn’t expect to see Haine there in the hallway, guns blazing and perfectly intact. Perfectly alive.

He filled the pimp with holes without so much as blinking. “No matter how many shots I put in ya... why won’t you die..?” The words of a dying man; Haine wasn’t much better off, but still standing, bleeding all over the place. “What, you drink some magic potion or something?” ”Yeah, something like that.” Haine said in return, spitting out a mouthful of bullets as he did. ”A cheap potion.” And then the dying man pointed out the iron collar around Haine’s neck, and he died, calling Nill’s savior a monster; Haine couldn’t disagree.

”Now you’re afraid… of me.” He had said, and Nill could only smile at him.

Nill was taken away by Haine after that, to an old gothic church and the man that ran the place, and she was put in his care. (Bishop, he was called, and nothing more than that.) He was blind, and he liked frilly dresses and short skirts, constantly telling her how cute she was in them even though he couldn’t see; and she lived with him from that day on in the church, waiting for the days when Haine would come to visit her. She was content, though, very content. On the days he would visit, Haine often brought Badou with him, the strange red-haired man that apparently had a hand in her rescue. They were all strange, they were all broken, and Nill... well, she couldn’t have been happier.

Even when a strange woman with short black hair and a sword ended up spending her time at the church (saving Nill from being kidnapped on her very first visit) things only got better; Haine would avoid the girl, Naoto, and Badou would make his odd little comments about them both, and the Bishop would scold them if they broke his rules.

As far as Nill knew, it was a very nice, simple sort of life, even if it wasn’t anywhere near perfect; she seemed to be the only one without demons, but it was better that way.

Point in Canon: End of chapter 22, but she has spent over a year in NeoGenesis since then. More below.

Brief summary of previous RP history:

Nill was four-years-old when her parents sold her to the Alpha Omega Research Facility, and five when they started giving her the treatments that took her voice and gave her wings. The escape that came all those years later; that never happened. (What, you thought it had? Wrong, lil’ angel, you’d never be so lucky.) She was labeled as a failed project in her thirteenth year of life, and sent off to be ‘put down’, like the lab rat that she was. One of the less loyal scientists however, he didn’t like that idea at all. Nill was a pretty little thing after all, and what would be the use in killing something like her? He smuggled her out of the lab and sold her to the highest bidder; there were no few weeks of freedom, no nights under the sky, just the movement from one prison to another. (The man that had sold her, someone without a face or a name, was ‘taken care of’ soon after for allowing one of the rats to leave.)

It was the same after that; Nill was sold to the same, awful man, and she ran again, as soon as she could, though it took her a few months to get away. But she was never caught, and Nill was never saved by a man with too-white hair too-red eyes; she never became friends with another man that only had one eye; and she never came to live in the church of a blind priest that liked frills just a little bit too much. No, instead Nill started living on the streets of Abyss, hiding from the men that were after her and maybe even the lab that arranged her death penalty.

Not long after Nill escaped from the brothel she was sold into she met a man named Spanner in the junkyard in Abyss, and he took pity on her; she suspected at least once or twice that he liked her in part because she couldn't actually speak and so reminded him of the very large "toys" he always had around, but that didn't matter much to her. It was he closest thing she ever had to a happy home, and she adored Spanner, who was like a brother to her. But at some point or another Spanner joined the ranks of those lost to the city, another face to disappear forever, and without a proper guardian to look after her (she'd been intent on waiting for Spanner to come back) Nill was taken in by her senpai, Yosuke Hanamura. She lived with him in an apartment for a time, and eventually her other senpai, a boy Yosuke's age by the name of Shikamaru Nara, joined them in the apartment as well. They became a strange family unit, supporting and helping each other more than any normal family ever would.

But at some point Nill realized that while everyone around her was strong and getting stronger, she was completely useless; made to be fragile, Nill was a failed experiment left over by the labs in Abyss, made for beauty and durability rather than strength. Her only useful skill was hiding well and surviving, but any child of Abyss knew how to do that. So Nill watched in her eternal silence as Yosuke and Shika moved further and further away from her, with no way of catching up to them.

Eventually Nill found herself in a horrible competition called Battle Royale, where the contestants were forced to kill each other until only one was left standing. Nill recognized more of the contestants than aonyone would ever want to find in a competition like that; Kazama Souji, Yosuke's senpai and someone that had saved her in the past; Mello and Matt, two of her oldest companions and dear friends; Belial, the person behind the competition, and someone that Nill shared a dark past with; Hidan, Shikamaru's brother; Shikamaru, Yosuke, her classmate Kanji, and so many others. She outlived a few people, using the skills she'd learned from being in Abyss to run and hide, but inevitably Nill was found by a man named Mello, who brought her out of hiding. She decided to stay with him for a time and met with Matt, but the three were ambushed. Nill was told to run, and because she knew she'd be a burden if she stayed, she did as Mello told her; barely a few halls down from where she had left her two companions, however, Nill was brutally killed by someone called Genkaku. Nothing was ever the same after Battle Royale, not for any of the competitors, not her family... No one.

Months went by; Yosuke became more unstable and Shika more withdrawn, and Nill found herself spending time with Itachi Uchiha, (a recent addition to their little family unit and Shika's sensei) searching Abyss for their missing companion and friend Kazama. Itachi could read her lips as easily as if she were talking, and despite the setting most of their conversations took place in, it was the closest she ever got to having a normal conversation with anyone. Nill came to adore Itachi.

When Kazama finally resurfaced in the world - even though neither Nill nor Itachi had ever expected to see him again, not really - the city took Mello away instead, Nill's object of affection. And slowly, even with Kazama having been returned, Nill watched her family fall apart around her.

More time went by, until the city became over run with strange intruders from other worlds, people that claimed to know the current residents of the city and the lives they supposedly led. And one of the very people to show up there was Shikamaru himself; a different Shikamaru, one that Nill did not know or care about no matter how similar they seemed. Shika took the people that arrived from his home somewhere else while Yosuke tried to help the people from his world. No one came for Nill, and the people that arrived for Yosuke and Shika were all killed by agents of the city.

Things got worse and worse until one day Shika finally told her the truth; that their memories were fake and that they had never belonged in that city to begin with, that every resident had been stolen from another place and time, and that for all they knew, they - their family, friends, everyone in the city - had only been there for a matter of months, and that everything they knew about each other had been fabricated. And Nill realized that if that were true, any hope she'd held out on for a better future had been completely worthless, and nothing would ever get better.

She did her best, though. Smiled when she needed to, tried to set Yosuke's mind at ease... And when Shika decided they were going to leave the city and go to his world, with Naruto and Yosuke and her if she wanted, Nill went with them. It wasn't that she wanted to leave Itachi behind, or Mello, who had shown up again, not Matt or Spanner or any of the people she had ever cared about... No, never.

But home was Yosuke. Home was with her two strange senpai, and as useless as she was, Nill had decided she wasn't letting them keep her in the dark anymore a long time ago.

She couldn't fight, but Nill could run; and she had no intention of letting them stay ahead of her for long.

They were her family, after all.

Character Personality:

Nill is - for all intents and purposes - a fairly young girl, and despite her background she makes no attempt to act otherwise; she gets teary-eyed easily but smiles just as readily, and is very eager to help whenever and however she can despite her clumsiness. Likewise, with this youth comes Naïvete, and though Nill understands very well the things that Haine and Badou do for a living and the danger they're always in, she just doesn't totally grasp that they regularly kill people. Death means little to her, and the fact that Haine and Badou kill people doesn't bother her because it isn't a concept that hits home to her. Badou is untouchable and Haine is like mist, and the world cannot take them from her. Besides, the people that go missing on the streets every day are strangers. And if she would stop to think about it she'd think that it's terrible, awful, and that the world is really a cruel cruel place, but it hasn't taken Haine from her yet, hasn't left Badou bleeding out in a gutter, and so the world is kind and beautiful and Nill is content not to think about it.

She's a happy and caring person, always able to offer someone a smile or try to cheer them up in some way or another if she can; but if smiles and small acts of kindness aren't enough she'll do her best to soothe, even if she has no voice to do so with. She's considerably more physical than one would expect, more than open to reaching out to place a hand on the face of a stranger or hug someone in need of one. Nill doesn't always catch on when something is wrong, of course, but more often than not she's perceptive enough to be able to tell when someone is upset, and isn't the world filled with enough unhappiness, enough sorrow? If she can manage to make someone happy, then it's all she feels she needs to do.

Nill is an optimist. No matter what awful thing happens, no matter what might come her way, she has absolute confidence that tomorrow will be a much happier day, and that the world will be right again. Of course, this is a somewhat naive outlook on the world, but someone needs to have hope for something better, don't they?

It takes quite a lot to manage it, but once Nill is actually mad at someone she will never really stop being mad at them; and it's very obvious when she is mad, as she rarely tries to hide her disapproval of someone and her wings will flare out behind her back like a cat with its fur on end. Unless they have done something redeemable in her eyes, it's very likely that anyone she is mad at will receive a similar reaction to that every time they run into her.

Despite all her happiness and smiles, Nill does have her own little set of demons, but they rarely cross her mind. She sees little point to dwelling on a past that can't be changed and refuses to let prior bad experiences interfere with her daily life; she’s more of an “I’m happy now” than an “I was unhappy then” sort of person.

Personality development in previous game:

Nill has grown to be less naive than she used to be; having seen so many horrible things and being kept in the dark about so many others has made her come to a point where instead of trying to stay happy and oblivious she now uses deductive reasoning to figure things out and discover why people lie to her when they do. She's a bit less trusting of strangers, but anyone that treats her kindly will still get an automatic gold star in her book. She also has a bit of an inferiority complex from being around ninjas and Persona users and other ridiculously overpowered people. Death also has a much greater impact on her than it used to, and she knows that her friends, the people that she loves have killed others, but because she loves them she overlooks it - not in an attempt to block it out, but because if the people she cares for live then it's fine if a few other people don't make it back home at the end of the day.

Having so many loved ones has made her fearful for their safety and selfish for their lives, but perhaps she had always been like that in one way or another.

Character Plans:

More character development. I'd love to see how Nill will react to basically having two sets of memories and being in a city that's potentially just as bad, if not worse, than the one she was in before arriving there. I'd also like to see how she'll react to her new abilities once she discovers them. She'll likely try to use it to help people in some way or another. The war going on between AGI and SERO won't matter much to her; she'll probably end up loyal to whatever side the people she deems kind are loyal to, and if they're neutral then she'll probably go that route as well. She'll do her best to get by without causing anyone much fuss, but she'll probably need some help along the way.

Appearance/PB: [icons]


Writing Samples

First Person Sample

[there's no actual voice to accompany the sounds being played over the waves today; just some slight shifting, soft, unhappy sniffles, the light padding of shoes against ground, and the strangely close sound of fluttering wings. there is, however, text to accompany those sounds.]

I... I don't recognize this place. It looks a little like Abyss-- [the font stops, and for a few seconds the fluttering noise comes to a halt. how could she be sure this wasn't NeoGenesis? or maybe Yosuke's world...]

I think I lost my way trying to get home. Could someone... please tell me where I am?

...The signs here-- are they jokes?

Third Person Sample

She would have just followed after the rest of them, really; two in front and at least one behind, just to make sure it was safe, and to make sure she wasn't the last one to go, wasn't left behind. She'd agreed of course, because how could she not? Her companions, her friends, her family, they were very protective of her, and she wouldn't upset them by refusing to be protected. So she went third.

Or at least, the plan had been for her to go third. After Shika - had it been Shika? thinking back, she wasn't really sure at all, if it had been him or one of the others - after the door had been opened everything was sort of odd, the memories not connecting properly beyond the ache in her skull, and Nill couldn't remember just how it was that she had gotten to the place she was in now. It felt like she had crash landed, but there were no memories to back up that theory and so she couldn't trust it as reliable; even if waking up on her back to look up at a sky that she didn't recognize could certainly attest to that fact.

It wasn't supposed to be like this. No matter where they went, no matter what world they popped up in, she wasn't supposed to wake up alone.

Wincing, Nill sat up, pulling her knees to her chest, the wings on her back fluttering unhappily before folding in to rest against her body. She was dizzy, everything hurt a little bit, and the one person she knew intelligent enough to figure out what was going on wasn't there. Yosuke wouldn't have any clue, neither would Naruto. And Haine and Badou would just waltz through the place like they owned it, one laughing past tar-filled lungs and the other staring through blood red eyes as they filled the city with lead.

The girls bottom lip trembled as her forehead fell down against her knees, and she curled further in on herself, whimpering silently. When was the last time she had even thought of Haine, or that silly, strange man that always seemed to be with him? (when was the last time she'd been able to?) Nill didn't know. But for all the different her friends "worlds" were from NeoGenesis, for all the good they could remember... Nill's wasn't really very different. Better, but not different. How much had the city truly hidden from her? It had only given her new friends, a different start, and a slightly darker past.

...That wasn't important right now, though. Right now there were things that needed to be done; she wasn't sure where she was, but maybe... maybe she wasn't the only one. The others would be perfectly fine on their own - she was the weak link, the one that always needed to be saved. If they were there then she needed to stay safe and give them one less thing to worry about, and if they weren't... then Nill needed to take care of herself, because this place - wherever it was - wasn't NeoGenesis, wasn't her world, probably wasn't even Shika's. And that could prove dangerous on a dozen different levels. So - though a bit shakily - Nill pushed herself into a standing position, before picking up the odd device she'd woken up with. She was scared, of course, but that didn't mean she'd sit back and wait for the worst to come get her.

When she found her "family" again, she would much rather be able to tell them that she was the one to go after the worst.