Above my home last night the sparrows gathering and grouping, preparing. Magical and mesmerising to me.
Not sure if I can add video but I plan to film them tonight and show on here if possible just in case you have not seen this before. The collective ‘whoosh’ noise and down draft is amazing!
Have you witnessed this phenomenon ? What do you think? Any and all comments welcomed.
Maybe someone can tell me if videos are allowed on here?
BUT I beat it again. Days and days it was tightening its grip because I was weak, vulnerable due to life suffocating me with things I could not face but I did not run, I walked oh so slowly and little by little I hit the negative thoughts with positivity and now the day after I am not sure how exactly but that is of little importance to me right now. The fact is I did.
How lovely is this 
More lovely to me as this area has so much importance personally from 37 years ago to now. Now, now that I live minutes from here, the place where ‘it’ all started, but thats another story!
Suffice to say, today I have mind fucked my mind (ha ha Sues) and its working. Right now its working ~ victory for now at least.
Stuck again
but the panic left
via the drain
maybe?
Dreaded done
awful place
still frowning
still scared
still can’t do
what i need
Strength where did you go
take more pills
they did the trick
didn’t they?
Still, yes still
cannot do
stuck but still
have to move
be calm
be wise
be you
the real you
but still?
Thank you 🙂
Turn it up! And don’t forget to sing along! (DesperateRamblings, thinking of you.)
Go raibh mile maith agat, grazie, Domo arrigato, Kamsa hamaida, gratias agimus, Waybale, Nandri, Kiaora Koe, Na gode, miigwetch, Muito Obrigado, sulpáy, Va multumim frumos, Spasiba, Dakujem, Te pasastes, Hatur Nuhun, Salamat, Khop Khun Mak, Bahut Shukria, Kam ouen, Nkosi, A dank, Hvala, Go raibh mile maith agat and Meur ras.
(Hopefully I have covered everyone of you ~ please forgive me if not and let me know of course please!)
I find it hard to believe but I now have 52….yes 52 followers!!!!!! Thank you all. I hope to bring you enjoyable content and will be back on the ball again real soon, just having a blip confused few days at the moment, head is mushed.
Before I go though, heres a thought for the day ~ Spending a large amount of time with someone literally causes you to pick up their habits. Choose your friends wisely.
Have a great trouble free day if you can 🙂 🙂
No relevance to text but my Eric just looking so content 🙂 ha ha
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Choices ~ Crossroads ~ Publish
I had a meeting with my work bosses yesterday and finally I have a direction. It may not be a direction many would like, they may even fear and in truth I am rather fearful for sure! Now is the time my ‘new world’ will be waiting. Waiting for me to put in practice all or at least some of the things I have thought and said I would like or can possibly do. The final decision is out of my control and I have to wait for unknown persons to review me and decide. Decide what the basis of my life will be!!!! Please make it the best it can be in view of my circumstances whoever you are.
I am no longer to be employed in a role I have done for almost 15 years. I soon will not have an employer as such. It is so weird and I do not think I can take to in properly yet. I now have to wait to see if I can get the best deal from it all and that seems to be ill health early retirement. I am just (relative to some I realise) 53yrs old so I do at least, health limitations allowing, a chance to make something of myself. By that I mean make something I want to be and not what others expect and or need me to be. Oh and argh and eek! Even as I write, its starting to scare me just that little bit more.
On good days I feel I could rule the country but on bad days I couldn’t even squash a tomato or fight my way out of a paper bag lets be honest. There lies my problem, my ‘issues’ are so variable so this just adds a complexity I would rather not have but I do have it so, Anne ( yes I talk to myself ALL the time) you have to make some decisions, you need to earn money to be able to live. How the heck???!!!!
Life’s crossroads and choices, they define us as they will lead us onwards. Whether the path they take us down are right or wrong or will help or hinder us, that is what none of us know. All we can do is make the best of them and have the strength to alter then yet again if they end up not working out.
Well this seems to be a proper right on ramble from me. I have just let my mind and fingers (that are good today ~ yay, yippee!) type away in what I hope is not a load of nonsense but then if this is, thats my head so I have to accept this.
Ah yes, it seems my body is good today so maybe the opposite of that is that my mind is extra mush ~ ha ha ~ who knows? Only your comments will tell me that I guess. Of course if there are no comments then that also tells me something!!
Have a great day, evening or night guys and I will be back later or in the morning and at this moment I have no idea what I will publish but then…………maybe that curiosity helps? Not even checking what I have typed now as I know I will only go back change a lot or even worse case scenario not publish, so here goes…….I am about to hit that oh so scary PUBLISH button ~ ha ha ~ here goes 🙂
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