she's the one you see

So it's nearly Christmas - this makes me immeasurably happy. It's my favourite holiday in the world, mainly because I love giving presents to people. I really can't wait!

In other news, my post-grad isn't going too bad. I have a 93% average so far but I have an exam on the 16th that I'm hoping won't bring it down too much. I also work for my University now too as a Student Advocate, basically going into schools to try and encourage kids into further education and teaching taster sessions in science.

I've also taken up private tutoring which is going pretty good too. I keep thinking about what I might be like as a science teacher though and regardless of everything I keep coming back to wanting to be like Mr Poole from Sabrina.
 
Oh dear.

Anywho, I know it may have been a while ago now (and certainly feels it) but I went on holiday in August and, well, you know. 

( Here are some lovely pictures! :)Collapse )

Now I've finished my degree (technically) I might finally be able to start posting again. Apologies for the small break I took from the internet that turned into a sort of MASSIVE one - I don't even know how that happened to be honest. I've still been reading if that's any consolation and I do still keep up to date with all of your lives and whatnot because I miss you guys♥

Anywho, I finished university at the end of April and have been volunteering at two secondary schools since then for something to do really that could help people. One is an all girls school and the other is a school for kids with behavioural or emotional problems meaning they can't be in and/or got kicked out of state schools. The classes are tiny and a lot of them are in care, it's challenging a lot of the time but it's amazing and I love it so much. We made propulsion rockets last week and went on a trip to an lrc to let the kids make shakespeare cartoons. I spent most of the time messing about with their computers - brand new high-def macs with dual-boot systems. It felt dirty loading windows, but it was so good.

As of next week though, or after half-term anyway I'm starting a two-week placement as a TA which pays really well! No idea where it's at yet as I find out during training but we will have to see. Then it's all about finding a job of some sort.

I DO have a holiday booked for the end of august though which I actually can't wait for. And graduation in July. Gahhh. SO MUCH STUFF. I've been reading a lot though, mainly old books like the Lioness Quartet, Secret Circle and the like but I have started Divergent which is absolutely amazing and I highly recommend♥

One thing that has been hard though, I guess, is that even though it's been nearly two years now since my dad died sometimes, somewhere in the back of my head something makes me forget and I go to tell him something or ask to speak to him and it's all there again. Fresh and horrible and difficult. I'm graduating soon and I guess I always sort of just took it for granted that he'd be there, smiling in the front row with a camera he can't quite work right and the idea that he won't be, that it's not going to be like that - well, it hits again and again but won't quite sink in. I miss him so much all the time and it's impossible to make people understand that it's not something that is going to just go away. I feel a bit alone in all of it to be honest but I'm trying. I'm trying so hard to make it seem normal that most of the time I'm okay. Most of the time.

Alas, depressing part over. ONWARDS, HO!

Y'all should start watching Fringe like, right now. Just saying. Alternate universes with a doorway between them, shapeshifters that are part mechanical, drug-induced communications with a dead person, a bomb that can only be stopped by turning off the power with the mind....it's just amazing. Trust me. I know it might sound a bit crazy but just watch it. That and Eureka. Nothing I say about Eureka will do it any justice, all time favourite show ever - FACT♥

SO GUYS. What about you? What's been happening? What have you been reading/watching?♥

To get me into the swing of using this again I've decided to steal this from the lovely blood_noir. I'm pretty sure I will be terrible at it but I figured I'd give it a go. Wish me luck!

Day 01 - Introduce yourself
Day 02 – Your first love
Day 03 – Your parents
Day 04 – What you ate today
Day 05 – Your definition of love
Day 06 – Your day
Day 07 – Your best friend
Day 08 – A moment
Day 09 – Your beliefs
Day 10 – What you wore today
Day 11 – Your siblings
Day 12 – What’s in your bag
Day 13 – This week
Day 14 – What you wore today
Day 15 – Your dreams
Day 16 – Your first kiss
Day 17 – Your favorite memory
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
Day 19 – Something you regret
Day 20 – This month
Day 21 – Another moment
Day 22 – Something that upsets you
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
Day 25 – A first
Day 26 – Your fears
Day 27 – Your favorite place
Day 28 – Something that you miss
Day 29 – Your aspirations
Day 30 – One last moment

i haven't actually been on here in forever - not through avoidance or anything, just lack of opportunity. urgh. despite university being done for summer months ago everything is still ridiculously busy.
so. i have a summer job. it started off kind of casual hours but they keep adding more and more. from an initial contract of 23p/w i'm now somewhere nearer the thirty mark. it's not bad, i guess, just incredibly draining and leaves me with little time for anything else. i mean, it's not exactly difficult work by all means and they're not long shifts but it's just there's never really an 'off' period for me.
i work wednesday - sunday, 8am starts and never get home until gone midnight on a weekend.
nothing i can't handle but mondays i have to clean the house and pretty much cram in everything i need to do because tuesdays i have to go to the hospice with my daddy.
i'm usually pretty knackered by the time wednesday comes around again.

anyway. enough of that. i'm still recovering from swine flu. talk about a bitch - and a pain in the arse.
because i'm terribly anaemic and am rather susceptible to the epstein-barr virus when sick, i classified for two accounts of "high alert".
DON'T GET IT. PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE DON'T GET IT. you don't want it.
i was in isolation for five days and missed my birthday. woooe.
i had an allergy to the pills too which made me throw up something terrible but since there is/was no alternative i was informed to still take them and "make do".
i'm not infectious anymore, since yesterday and my last dose - but i'm quite far from "better". i still get the nausea, dizziness, palpitations, stomach cramps, chest pain, difficult breathing and all the rest.
REALLY.
DO NOT GET INFECTED.

• 02:14 @billbeckett GAH ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT. whywhywhy did they cancel you T__T #
• 02:17 gears of war 2 wins over packing..but then most things do. DAMN IT. if only this was a musical i probably wouldn't get bored after 2 shirts. #

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• 15:49 i seriously can't believe i'm getting paid for drinking fancy tea, listening to music and reading vonnegut...i love my job :) f #
• 16:48 AHHH! SUFFOCATING UNDER BALLS! #
• 16:54 brb! making candy; befriending frank. #
• 17:12 getting a marriage proposal at work > actually working. idek. #

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• 09:29 at work gahh. but lulz at jeffrey dahmer confectionary co! #
• 11:08 guhhh three hours left :D #

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• 13:36 @Masterface lulz at twitterscope taking advice from star wars 8D #
• 23:06 IPHONE, YOU DO NOT PLEASE ME. BACK TO YOUR CAVE D: #
• 23:08 @Masterface and mine too, totally. #
• 23:20 @Masterface ohman not at all, i'd say it's all pretty natural. part of the grieving process. #

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• 17:32 zomgggg exam results in the mail 8D POSTALSERVICE > BLACKBOARD....and they gave me better grades =D #
• 17:33 WON MOAR MONEY FOR BEING SMARTZORZ. if only everyday could be like this -___- #
• 17:34 no dominic, no. YOU CANNOT HAVE A GUN. you will kill them with your MIIIND. #
• 17:36 DOMINIC. DOOOOMINIIICCCCC. okayokay. ONE GRENADE. ONE. but no unjustified homicide before bedtime, young man or you won't get supper. #
• 17:40 @nataliefisher GOOD OMENS =D #
• 17:43 had a TERRIFYING zombie dream last night. IT WAS ALL MAKE-UP BUT THEY WERE REAL D: and i had to collect kittens T__T like a videogameFAIL. #
• 17:44 "Joker Fail" - cheezburger.com/tw/?v7-20677 #lol #fail MAKES. MY. LIFE. #
• 20:12 is ATTEMPTING to watch Three Days Of Snow a2a.me/Lzi via @AddToAny #
• 20:12 @donnerdont WIN. #

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GOT OFFICIAL UNI RESULTS! ZOMGGGGG. ACTUALLY GOT 5 A'S AND 1 B. SOSOHAPPY =D