Well, I figured I might as well get some tl;dr out of the way.

I've been at my current job for about six months now and while I'm not exactly completely happy with it, I've finally hit that point where it's okay. I'm getting along a little better with my lead, my boss jokes with me on a daily basis (I've always loved my boss though, I just love her even more lately). I'm finally earning SOME respect among my children and it's taken this long but I think I've finally learned to leave the stress at the door like I had done with my last childcare job from the start. No, it's not so good that I'd rather be at home than work like the last one, but it's a step in the right direction.

Still very up in the air on the school front. I was kind of screwed over and I might not even be able to go where I wanted because they told me on the phone the associates program from education doesn't take financial aide. I call bs because why would a certificate accept it but not the actual associates program? Oh well, I'm calling them again on Monday and if it not I'm going to wait and start in fall at UC rather than Cincinnati State in April.

Outside of that I've spent the majority of my free time lately playing Final Fantasy XIII. I got so into the game and I love it and after about three weeks I've already made it to chapter 12. I'm a little stuck now but I WILL PREVAIL. I will finish this game if it's the last thing I do. I was going to gush about it more but I will refrain from it for the time being.

Ugh. Well, my plans to go back to school in February went down the drain. I was given no indication today that the program I wanted to do for my CDA isn't eligible for financial aide until today. It says nowhere on the website and I even double-checked before I called the financial aide office to check on the status.

I'm not entirely sure what I'm going to do just yet but I'll likely opt for just jumping into my associates rather than worry about my cda. I'll have to wait until April though because they sent my aide information to an email the school didn't give me the information to get into.......... And the chances of having everything they need to get it in on time are slim. I know it's just two months but I'm still incredibly bummed. I was so ready to start in a few weeks, but whatever whatever, everything happens for a reason, etc.

Other than that, I started doing trying out various yoga videos last week so I can work on my flexibility before I do more in the whole getting healthy thing (well, it DOES count as healthy but whatever). So far I'm really liking what I've done. It's a lot more fun than doing any other kind of sequencing stretching (and even working out. bluh.) I find that 20 minutes of anything else gets boring fast, but I can do that for 40 minutes and still enjoy it. It feels nice to find something I actually like, next up is to find some form of workout that I actually like (I still want to do bellydancing! but I have to get a car first before I can take classes at the place I want).

I'm also already finding that I'm doing better on portioning my food, which makes me feel really good about myself. I hope I start seeing results soon, but I'm willing to be patient and keep up with it!

I don't really use this at all anymore, but when I do my posts will now be crossposted from dreamwidth. To those that may have moved/are moving that haven't already heard, my journal over there is BATTLEPANTIES.

Also as a general heads up to me fellow con bros, I will not be going to Ohayocon this year. As of right now the only con I will be going to for sure is Colossalcon and the idea of going to Youmacon in favor of Sugoicon is up in the air. Really, we're just bored of Sugoicon</a>. That depends on what work looks like for both Sair and myself though.

So today my phone slipped out of my hoodie pocket and into the toilet. Lucky for me I was already due for an upgrade! Downside? I lost all the contacts from my phone.

If you were in my phone previously (or if you'd like me to have your number in general!) send a text to 513-410-7484 reminding me who you are or respond here with your number. I'll keep comments screened for your privacy!

I also have unlimited text in the U.S., so anyone is welcome to text me any time! (Otherlanders, I'll be able to text you unlimited soon too!)

Things look up and up a little more every week. I hit a moment of stagnation last week where my hours went way down because we were closed Monday. Of course, I haven't worked there long enough to make Holiday pay yet :| But I did get to wiggle in a few more hours than what were on the schedule. This week I work 30 and I was told the chances of being asked to go in later are slim to none. I'm kind of hoping that becomes regulated hours for me for the summer, if not more. Though summer camp isn't at our center, they leave and come back for at least an hour each day. There's 25<+ school agers enrolled in camp from our own center.

I found out it won't cost too terribly much to get my licence reinstated either. About 200 + I have to take the test again. That's easy! I just have to pay dad back the $700-something I owe him, but as everything else regulates I should be able to pay him 200-400 a month depending on how many hours I work. With any luck I'll be driving/have a car again by mid-late fall.

Jake also worked out a deal with me where he'll sell some of my stuff under his bank account and will give me the money/buy things I need for me in my apartment. Like a desk. I need a desk so bad.

I'm also going to try and see if I can get my complex to let me move my apartment to one of the one's facing the woods. I'm tired of listening to white trash out in the front drinking themselves into a stupor nightly. I've had douchebags leaving their beer cans in front of my apartment door as well as trash them around the parking lot. It's gross and I don't know how other people aren't making complaints. But I'd rather pay a little more in rent for an apt in back than one where I am now and have to listen to all the shit.

Wow, I can't believe I haven't updated this since the first of the year! I need to stop doing that, but as my life is slowly getting better I want to give this thing the attention it deserves again. Let's see, what's been going on...

Well, after almost exactly a year of working at UDF I finally quit (I walked out and even got to say fuck you and MAN did it feel good) after getting a job at a local childcare center. I've been working there a little over a month now and I love my job and my kids, though they are brats it is so worth it. I'm kind of a floater, I guess, they'll put me where they need me and I don't really mind. Lately I've been in the toddler room but that's mostly because the toddler teacher had to have surgery. She'll be back tomorrow and I'm a little bummed cause my hours go back down to 25 (at least, that's what the boss wrote down. She's prone to changing my schedule often through the week and I really don't mind that either XD).

I guess you can say I'm kind of in a huge state of change. I've been throwing out a lot of old junk and I have a bunch of stuff I want to try and sell as well (hurh I hope, anyways. Idk how well things sell anymore, especially old costumes, but I don't really want them sitting around anymore). As much as I'd love to move, I know some other things come first right now so my big priority is making my living space more enjoyable. I'm on the hunt for a desk I like as well as a better storage system. I regret not doing anything about that back when I did have money before I lost my first daycare job :/ I have so much crap but no idea what to do with it without storage!

I seriously miss cosplaying and cons in general and I'm kind of hoping to start getting back into that soon. I feel like over the last year I've had no proper creative outlet, even though I've had the things to make some things, I just haven't wanted to do it because I've been so bummed. The only costume I made last year turned out terrible cause I didn't take the time to do it properly and I know I'm better than that ):

SO ANYWAYS I MISS EVERYONE ;; ALL OF YOU! I'm afraid I've closed myself off so much in the last year and a half and I seriously regret that, so tell me about your lives and how things have been!

It's just a few days away! It's hard to believe the year is almost over, huh? Where's it gone!?

So cause I was thinking about it now, I decided to go ahead and write down my new years resolutions!

First and foremost is to be healthier. I know loosing weight is a big thing I need, but I'd rather work on being healthy in general. Mostly when it comes to food, I'm a terrible eater and I've recently been helped to realize that I need to for not only weight reasons, but health reasons as well.

Cut back on pop. This kind of goes hand in hand with eating healthier, but the fountain at work has me drinking pop way more than is necessary. I really want to try and replace it with something else like tea, which I've started trying. I'm going to take this... slowly :|a

Don't let the little things get to me. It's a... weird thing for a resolution, I think. But it's something I need to be reminded of.

Stay organized. Both with lists and stuff as well as my apartment. I was really hoping I could find the time to clean it from top to bottom before the new year, but work won't allow me to do that with how my scheduling is this week. I started to do really good for a while there, but I ended up failing again. I think if I slowly clean one thing at a time and keep it clean I might be able to actually do this and be... well, happier. Or something, I think.

Lastly, is to find a new job. First thing I'm doing for the new years. I can't keep working here, it's far too stressful for something that's basically a bitch job. I'm better than that cruddy place and I know it. I dislike it, not only because of a shitty boss and shitty customers, but I'm bored. I'm not getting anything I need out of a job. I need to stay busy and active in some way to keep myself happy, and the only way to do that at work is to actually make messes and clean them up. Which, while it can be fun, is highly counter-productive and then I have to hear it from the guys. It's why I liked the daycare so much. Sometimes I would go home covered in just as much paint or marker as the kids, if not more. It was nice. I'm too free-spirited to work in a place that pretends to be a fun place for everyone on the outside and treats customers with the utmost respect, yet is rigid and does not offer the same respect for their employees.

... Actually, I think that's the first time I've put some of that into that particular perspective. Particularly my own unhappiness there. It's not just the boss that treats me like my mom, yelling for me through-ought the store. It's that I'm not being challenged... though, challenged isn't quite the right word for it, I think. There's no incentive behind it, not even the paycheck is worth it anymore. When you get to a point where you find yourself not even caring that you're not even working as much as you should be, it's time to just... go.

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I was going to make a post about nothing of value until I realized I am trying to use this more! And besides, it's almost Christmas so why not post about related things!?

This year I am in a better Christmas Spirit than I have been in... well, quite some time! I get down because of a few things, but I'm trying not to let it really get to me too much. Not entirely good things have happened last year around this time of the year, and all the snow and yick reminds me of that more than ever, but I don't want to be a stick in the mud. This year, even though I'm dirt poor I'm trying to make the most of Christmas.

I'm pretty excited about work tomorrow, which is really weird because who wants to work Christmas Eve!? But I got my Christmas presents from Sair tonight and it only makes me happier! She got me an MP3 player and a thermos set that included both a hot and cold one! That on top of the rain boots I haven't had a chance to wear yet that my aunt got me for my birthday/Christmas I'm all ready to go! That and I get to wear my Santa hat at work tomorrow! It's only a five hour day, so it's not too bad and I'm lucky that Jake doesn't get off work till an hour after I do, so dad'll pick me up from work and take me home so I have an hour or two to get ready before we go to our Grandparents.

The only thing I'm not looking forward to is last year my Grandparents place was such a let down. I know they're getting old and I understand that there's just too many people that show up now to feed before we open presents, but last year it seriously just felt like everyone was there for the present aspect and was gone the moment everyone was done opening them. It's really disappointing because Grandma and Grandpa are getting old and we really don't know how long they'll be around ): I'd rather make the most of it and spend as much time with them as possible, which is one reason I'm really happy that my parents see it the same way. Maybe it's because they don't have grandbabies and stuff, idk, but I'm grateful.

... and speaking of the lack of grandbabies. That's another thing I can't stand! I'm the youngest unmarried granddaughter, so all my aunts are uncles are always asking questions. Buuhhhhhhh I have other things to worry about besides dating right now, and how the hell am I even supposed to meet guys I'm even halfway interesting while working in a damn gas station.