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george
02 January 2016 @ 10:01 am
This year for yuletidde I wrote, and LOVED writing:

After  the Boys of Summer Have Gone

It's Shelter (2007) which is a movie runpunkrun introduced to me and she beta read for me along with stultiloquentia and they are darlings and it's more important that you watch this dear sweet inarticulate movie than read my fic because I love it and these boys so much. And they're adorably in love and they create this family together.

If you can find it. It was miraculously available on youtube while I wrote but is now disappeared.

*

And I received a beautiful thoughtful Earthsea fic about Tenar and Tehanu, about the everyday details of life and how they matter as much as the large magics and dragons, and about women. It's gorgeous.

Amber Eye
 
 
george
24 July 2015 @ 10:41 pm
Hello! I'm sorry I've been so scarce... it is a goal to come back here but there's been a lot on.

Aside from the children, who are delightful torments and I love them and would recommend having none...






And Robbie needing a new job (she's sorting it, smart thing) and me having worked at the same place for TEN years!!

Aside from those things, the biggest thing is this !!!novel!!! (oh my goodness) that I'm writing. Much to my surprise. I love it dearly. I'm almost finished with the draft and have another 5 weeks before the manuscript is due with the publishers.

They announced it on tumblr, see here? That's me. You'd all recognise me by the ludicrous biography that is all true.

These are the lovely photos my talented friend Laura took of me for the purposes of having a face.


 
 
 
george
04 December 2013 @ 02:39 pm
There's a thing where people are asking for input on topics to post about (every day) in December. It's fairly great.

I mean, I post fairly regularly right now. And also it's 4 December.

But if there is something I should address, whether topical or practical or personal, let me know! And I'll do it!

Originally posted at dreamwidth where there are comment count unavailable comments. Feel free to comment here or there.

This is public.
 
 
george
20 November 2013 @ 03:04 pm
Oh Robbie bought me tickets to see Neil Finn at the Opera House next March. I am breathlessly happy. He is the most exceptional songwriter and that voice and his whole self and person seems beautiful. I hope I like the new album.
 
 
 
george
14 October 2013 @ 10:42 am
Thank you so much for writing for me. I am thrilled about any of these potential stories and hope you are happy with what has landed on you.

Basically my take on yuletide is that the story I will love the most is the one that appeals to you as writer so feel free to ignore or mess with anything I say! I read and am happy with gen, het and slash, all kinds of stories. I am not a huge fan of people cheating on partnerships and would prefer any sexy times outside a canon relationship are somehow agreed within that relationship or some equivalent. I love stories that show kindness to characters whether the story is fluff or angst or a character study.

I am not wedded to anything in particular really ever. I will be so interested in how you explore the characters or canon or whatever world you create or build on.

If you need anything I am happy to answer. You could talk with furies or therealjae both of whom know me well - but please don't worry that anything will be a problem.
 
 
 
george
24 September 2013 @ 11:37 am
In lieu of content I bring boys on a tree stump, Joss fishing and Cary adventuring. This at Robbie's older sister's place, looking over Port Stephens.

boys on a tree stump

Joss fishing

Cary adventuring
 
 
 
george
22 May 2013 @ 01:29 pm
Pictures of Joss and me on mother's day. I know they're kind of the same, but he is so different in each. Love.

Joss and Georgie - Mother's Day
Joss and G 2
 
 
george
15 October 2012 @ 01:11 pm
Dear Yuletide gift writer,

Thank you so much for writing for me! My basic theory is that you know what you love to write better than I do. So please, if the story leads you in a direction I mightn't contemplate or if you think it wouldn't appeal to me, go with your pen/keyboard because I won't mind.

To give you a feel for what I love...

Stories that give you a specific sense of place and time. Stories that deal with people as individuals rather than an example of a person. I like stories which are generous in the way they portray people. I don't know, I love stories about the tiny every day moments of a person who is not that special but I also love stories where someone exceptional heroically changes the world. I love the practical bright eyed details of romance. It turns out I also love action and stories where stuff happens.

I am not being helpful this year. If you have questions unwinding or furies know me well (furies is more present here). Or see what I've written and recommended on AO3. Or just go with the yuletide flow.

Thank you already!
 
 
 
george
Chapter 12

When Blaine wakes it’s barely daylight. He’s on his back - Kurt’s slender body stretched beside him, Kurt’s arm heavy across his waist. Blaine turns his head to study Kurt’s face. His skin is almost translucent in the pale light.

For a time, Blaine doesn’t dare breathe. He couldn’t bear for this whole thing to dissolve. He stays as still as he can, holding his breath, relishing Kurt beside him. Of course, he isn’t ready to die from a lack of oxygen, especially not now. Eventually he needs air.

When he breathes everything is still there. Kurt is still there.

Blaine smiles toward the ceiling.

Kurt shifts closer in the bed. His eyes are still closed. “Roll over,” he says, pushing Blaine’s shoulder lazily away from him.

Blaine rolls where Kurt wants him. Then he’s spooned and warm with his back pressed against Kurt’s front. He can feel Kurt’s erection hard against his ass.

Blaine lifts his body off the bed a little so Kurt can snake an arm under Blaine. Kurt’s hand runs patterns across Blaine’s chest. Kurt’s other arm wraps lower on Blaine’s hips and he reaches to stroke Blaine’s cock. Blaine arches his back with pleasure. His ass presses further into Kurt. Kurt’s hips rotate against him in tiny circles. His breath is soft and quick against Blaine’s neck.

Blaine looks down to where Kurt’s hand grasps Blaine’s cock. Kurt keeps up a dreamy rhythm as though he’s not fully awake. He mouths and bites softly against Blaine’s neck. Blaine can’t hold back a breathy moan. He thrusts forward a little into Kurt’s hand and then back against Kurt’s cock.

He feels Kurt smile against him. “Waking up, are we?” His voice is thick with sleep and sex.

“Mmmm,” is about all Blaine can manage. He reaches back for Kurt, pulling Kurt’s ass tighter against his. He lets his legs fall open. Kurt’s hand moves, now pumping rough and certain between Blaine’s thighs. Blaine shifts as Kurt moves faster. He grunts over and again. It would be awkward if he weren’t so powerfully turned on; if he couldn’t feel Kurt responding. Kurt thrusts harder from behind, his cock thick in the crack of Blaine’s ass.

“I’m going to have to-” Kurt rolls away abruptly letting go of Blaine’s cock. “Sorry, sorry,” he mutters as Blaine groans with need. “Safe sex.” He hears Kurt fumbling with something behind him and turns over to see Kurt roll a condom onto his leaking cock. He pulls the cap off some lube.

“Roll onto your back for me sweetheart,” says Kurt.

Blaine takes a steadying breath and lies back, bending his knees and pressing his heels into the mattress. Kurt fingers Blaine steadily, opening him up slowly. Somehow Blaine holds himself almost still and watches Kurt wide-eyed. There are no thoughts save the thought of Kurt filling him. Then Kurt holds himself above Blaine’s body. Their eyes are fixed on each other as Kurt pushes inside, entirely and devastatingly inside. Blaine gasps in pleasure and something that’s not quite pain and gives himself over to it.

"I've got you, baby," says Kurt. "I've got you."

**

There’s sunlight in a bright strip across Blaine’s bed. Kurt lies on his stomach. The sheets are bundled at the foot of the bed. He runs one hand across Blaine’s abs, pausing while it rests on his belly. “I find your body incredibly distracting,” he says. “All the time, really, but especially when you’re naked.”

Blaine smiles a satisfied smile that ripples through to Kurt’s toes. He loves that he created that satiated, entirely content Blaine.

“I’d be happy to stay in bed with you all day, honey,” continues Kurt, “but I think that we should go somewhere and talk about this. I don’t trust my hands when I’m in private with you.”

Blaine slides his fingers over the curve of Kurt’s ass.

“And I certainly don’t trust your hands,” says Kurt. He rolls away. Blaine groans distractingly.

“A walk and some brunch?” asks Kurt. Blaine looks worried. “Don’t agonize about this, Blaine. It’s not going to hurt.”

They walk to the local diner. Kurt figures they’ve had a lot of exercise so he’ll overlook the carbs.

“I don’t know if we need to have this conversation,” says Kurt once they’re seated. The windows are open and they’re looking out over a little green park. There’s a terrier of some kind chasing a ball back and forth. “I think maybe we do though. About what happened last time.”

“Okay,” says Blaine. His eyes are soft. Kurt reaches for Blaine’s hand because he can’t help it. But he doesn’t want there to be so much potential for regret when things are so very new.

Blaine takes a breath. “I agree. I don’t want you to be afraid of anything.”

Kurt says, “It wasn’t just you who messed it up.” It’s the first time he’s said it aloud. “We were so young. I mean, we still are young, but we were so crazily young. It still aches to think about it.” He keeps talking so Blaine doesn’t apologize. “Not just that you were with someone else, Blaine. It hurt, and it’s not something I want to think about really ever, but you have to know I’ve forgiven you. I forgave you years ago. What still hurts is knowing that I wasn’t as good at this as I thought I was. Sometimes things were so wonderful, we were so perfect. I felt like the only thing I knew how to do was to love you. And then I messed that up.”

Blaine looks at him through tears. “Kurt,” he starts.

“Don’t apologize,” says Kurt. “Please?”

Blaine smiles weakly. “Okay. But you have to know I’ve thought about this. Not just thought about it, I’ve wrestled with it, with what I did. There is a lot I would do differently, will do differently, if I have the chance again. A lot. I know myself better now and I think weirdly I know you better too. So I don’t want you to worry.”

“I’m not worried,” says Kurt. It’s true. He looks down at the table where they’re still holding hands.

“I know I’m not perfect… I’m pretty sure you are,” says Blaine and staves off Kurt’s blushing protest with a laugh. “Perfect for me, anyway. So I’ll always want to be with you. But we’ll mess up again. I’ll hurt you and you’ll hurt me. We just won’t do it the same way we did the last time.”

“So you’re saying we’ll find new ways to hurt one another.”

“I’m saying we’ll find new ways to hurt one another.”

“And that’s a good thing?” Kurt is caught between tears and laughter.

“This,” says Blaine lifting their joined hands, “is a good thing. The best thing. Kurt. You are it for me. I’m going to spend every single day showing you that. Okay?”

“Okay,” says Kurt. Nothing else was ever an option. “I love you.”

“Love you too,” says Blaine and smiles the blinding smile that sets Kurt’s heart on fire.

**

They’re walking across the park. Kurt is tucked into Blaine’s side. He hums a little. “So, what’s our plan here?”

“I thought we could stop at the corner store and make sure we have everything we need, then head home. Then… to be honest I thought you could take a long time fucking me into the mattress, or really whatever you felt like, and we could maybe never leave.”

Kurt blushes and tugs Blaine closer. “Okay. I meant- longer term than that.”

“Oh.”

“Though that does sound perfect.”

“Longer term,” says Blaine contemplatively. “Well I’m planning to love you 'til I die. I’d say that’s fairly long term.”

Kurt sighs at him fondly, exasperated and delighted. He pulls Blaine down to sit beside him on a park bench. “And in the interim?”

“In the interim we’re going to Broadway.” Blaine grins. “Look, I know it’ll be some time before we get the show running there. But Kurt, I’m not wedded to San Francisco.” Kurt feels his heart settle. It’s like letting go and leaping into this thing. It’s too fast but it’s also been six years.

**

Later, Blaine’s throwing ginger and vegetables into a wok and singing something poppy. He sounds predictably delicious. He’s wiggling his ass too, in a distracting way. Kurt’s sitting on a bar stool with his legs crossed. He takes a sip of wine. The cooking doesn’t look complex but the song is one Kurt’s never heard and despite the ass wiggling it’s another way that this Blaine is new to Kurt - like the ways he’s learned to use his tongue and hands, like the guys he’s been with that Kurt’s never even seen, like the scar on his left thigh and the skill with which he writes music and the fact that he’s been to London and the green Public School shirt he’s wearing. Kurt blinks away the sting of it.

Blaine takes the wok off the heat and looks over. “Are you okay?”

“I am. I’m just thinking about the things I’ve missed.”

Blaine presses his lips together. “I know,” he says.

“But there is an up-side.”

“Yeah?” Blaine puts the wok on a place mat and looks over.

“I get to fall in love with you for a second time.”

Blaine’s eyes are alight as he smiles, like they’ve always been around Kurt. They’re older too and maybe even brighter.

“So the show,” says Blaine. “We’ll run for at least the month. But then- after we finish up here, I was thinking we could drive across the country together.”

“A road trip?” says Kurt. “I’m more-”

“I know. You’re more of a city boy. Mostly a New York City boy. And I love that about you. But then I thought of three weeks on our own with no timetable. We can carry clean sheets and I’ll promise you showers and cool weather everywhere we go. And sex. We’ll sing in the car. We can stop at Dollywood, and look at the stars from the desert, and we’ll visit Ohio to see your family and my family and we won’t stay anywhere that freaks you out.”

“We could spend three weeks together in New York,” says Kurt practically. “There’s theater there. And clean sheets. And sex.”

Blaine keeps his eyes fixed on Kurt’s. “But that way I can’t move my stuff across the country.”

“Oh,” says Kurt breathlessly. The thought simmers inside him and threatens to split his heart open. “Blaine. Yes.” He steps down from the stool and flings himself into Blaine’s arms. Blaine hugs him like he’s meant to be there.

Kurt’s still a little doubtful about the road trip. But there are a hundred things he never thought he’d like; even more things he never thought he’d have. He won’t admit it, but Blaine is always proving him wrong.

END
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george
Chapter 11

On the Saturday the reviews come in. Devi and Wes read the best extracts before the matinee.

“Anderson’s score is very fine work from a new writer. He is ably supported by his cast including opera singer Kevin Thompson as Saul, R&B star Elisha Johnson as Jonathan and young Broadway performer Kurt Hummel as the eponymous David.”

“I last saw Mr Hummel on stage in his one man off Broadway show “My Prince Will Come”. At the time I described him as talented but inconsequential. His portrayal of David proves me wrong. When Mr Hummel sings there is an unexpected depth of emotion to even the frothiest pop tunes.”

“The humor in the musical choices writer Blaine Anderson has made only highlights the poignancy of the story. Lead actors Kurt Hummel and Elisha Johnson bring chemistry and charm to their roles as David and Jonathan. The supporting cast is also strong, especially Vanessa Freeman as Michal and Amaryllis May as her friend and servant Abigail.”

“Choreographer Joshua Allen brings a ferocious and dirty energy to what is essentially a biblical tale of soldiers.”

“Elisha Johnson is formidable: an actor who can dance, sing and even rap without losing his innate cool.”

“I could have watched several more hours of relative unknown Kurt Hummel. His voice is compelling, but more than that the audience could feel each beat of his heart.”

“Come for the morsels of all your favorite pop and show tunes, stay for a potent story of politics and young love. Or just stay for the pop tunes, the cast sounds amazing.”

Blaine can’t contain his smile. He looks across at Kurt. They have come to an unspoken agreement and are resolutely maintaining their distance. Until Monday. Just until Monday.

The glint in Kurt’s eyes is enough to almost undo him.

**

Saturday night is a bit of a reunion. Mercedes drives up from LA with her boyfriend to watch the show with Tina and Tex and Santana and Finn. Kurt looks relaxed with his oldest friends in the room. They’ve known him forever and Mercedes and Tina, at least, have always loved him. Kurt is casually affectionate with these girls in a way that he isn’t with many others. It makes Blaine happy.

Not that much could bring Blaine down. The show is more than he could have hoped. It’s had flattering reviews and tickets sales are exceeding expectations. Devi’s been approached by a contemporary theater company. Even better, Wes is cautiously optimistic that he’s found some backers who might be willing to make the huge financial investment needed to take the show to Broadway.

Tangled through it all is Kurt. Blaine has always had Kurt-centric super powers. Even in a crowd he knows exactly where Kurt is standing. But now he feels a constant buzz under his skin. When they catch eyes, they both look quickly away. Blaine beams at his shoes and he knows that Kurt blushes. It’s like being a teenager again. But better.

“You two are making my palms tingle,” says Carmody on the Sunday morning. “The tension is fucking adorable.”

It makes Blaine wonder how interested Carmody actually is in Kurt. Not that he would blame the guy. Kurt’s in his street clothes, long legs in skinny pants and a shirt and vest that both cover and flaunt his broad shoulders and narrow waist. He’s stunning.

Sunday’s show is sold out. The cast and crew are in their usual post-performance bubble of excitement and exhaustion and now there’s a day off. Blaine is laughing with some of the stage crew and trying not to think about Monday and Kurt and whether he’s nervous.

“Anyone for Bar Racuda for a drink?” asks Carmody of the room. There’s some general agreement.

Kurt unexpectedly slips in beside Blaine. Their fingers brush against one another. It steals Blaine’s breath.

“Coming Kurt?” asks Elisha. When Kurt glances at Blaine his eyes are speculative. He blinks slowly.

“I think I need to catch up on some sleep,” says Kurt turning to Elisha. “Another time?” He includes Carmody with a raised eyebrow.

“If by ‘catch up’ you mean ‘fuck’ and by ‘sleep’ you mean ‘Blaine’, of course,” says Carmody, grinning.

“Carmody! Shh.” Kurt glares at Carmody but he doesn’t move away from Blaine. Blaine thinks about saying something but Carmody just laughs and Kurt relents, with a tiny smile.

Everyone is heading out for home or for the bar. After a moment, Blaine takes Kurt’s hand in his and pulls it to his lips. He lifts his eyes to Kurt’s.

“Let me take you home tonight,” Blaine says quietly against Kurt’s knuckles.

There’s a slow breath between them.

“At this point I really don't want home to be anywhere that you're not,” says Kurt.

Blaine closes his eyes to hold all of this inside. He pulls Kurt’s hand tight against his chest.

“Okay then. Let’s go home.”

**

It’s a clear night. The sky was starry on the way home. When Blaine returns to the living room with drinks Kurt is leaning against the bay window with the black sky behind him.

“Hungry?”

Kurt nods.

They sit in the window seat with pretzels and tinned peaches. Kurt shares Blaine’s fork.

“Wes looked cheerful,” says Kurt.

“He’s feeling vindicated. He placed a lot of faith in the show. And a lot of money. He won’t need to sell his apartment, now.”

Kurt’s eyes widen. “I’m glad you didn’t tell me that information before, I don’t know that I could have handled the added pressure.”

Blaine smiles because Kurt faced down monsters and small town Ohio proms. He's hardly going to let Wes' financial pressure overwhelm him.

Blaine’s knee brushes against Kurt’s. There’s this flicker of urgency between them, yet it feels like they have all the time in the world. Kurt slants a look at him.

“I’m not sure what we’re waiting for,” Kurt says. His mouth twitches into a tentative smile. His eyes are on Blaine’s and the intimacy in that clear look takes Blaine’s breath away. It will always take Blaine’s breath away. This is the first boy Blaine ever loved, only impossibly more.

"God, I missed you Kurt.

He moves in as Kurt does. It’s more rushed than Blaine expected, and their lips and teeth are hard against one another. Blaine sweeps his tongue into Kurt’s mouth and they moan on the same breath. Blaine shifts closer, clambering forward with one knee on the window seat and his other leg on the floor between Kurt’s. He’s mostly in Kurt’s lap. Kurt’s lips work across Blaine’s jaw. He presses kisses down the column of Blaine’s neck. Blaine tilts his head back and gasps toward the ceiling.

“Please,” he says. “Kurt.”

“Anything,” murmurs Kurt against his throat.

Blaine stands and pulls Kurt up with him. Kurt presses into him and walks them backwards to the bedroom. When Blaine’s legs hit the bed he stumbles a little and almost falls backwards. Kurt holds him close and kisses him until Blaine can hardly think.

“What do you want?” says Kurt and Blaine wants everything. Everything.

Blaine gasps wordlessly as Kurt slides down his body. Kurt’s eyes are fixed on Blaine’s face as he kneels. He unbuckles Blaine’s belt, unbuttons him, slides Blaine’s pants down to his knees. He holds the eye contact as he licks Blaine’s cock. Blaine shudders. Kurt holds on to Blaine’s hips to anchor him and takes him into his mouth.

“Fuck,” Blaine says. Kurt rocks forward onto Blaine’s cock and lets his mouth fall further open. Blaine can barely stay upright. Everything is dazzling; everything is Kurt’s mouth sucking hot and moist around him. Kurt lifts his mouth from Blaine and the air is shockingly cool. Then Kurt sinks lower and angles his neck to mouth wetly against Blaine’s balls. He leans deeper, licking at the soft skin and pressing his tongue against Blaine’s hole.

There is nothing more, just this blind everlasting want.

“Fuck,” Blaine says again, and “Kurt, I want oh god please I want you. Please.”

Eventually Blaine’s legs are shaking and Kurt shifts back. He lowers Blaine’s hips down onto the bed.

“I love it when I get you all inarticulate,” Kurt says and he might be using long words but he sounds wrecked too.

Blaine opens his eyes to meet Kurt’s where Kurt is kneeling. Kurt’s mouth twists into a delicate smile but Blaine knows what that mouth can do. Kurt stands slowly. His cock is right there in Blaine’s line of sight, bulging inside his close-fitting pants.

“Stop,” says Blaine, reaching out. He’s greedy now - a little more focused. He wants all of Kurt. He needs Kurt to want him too.

He stays sitting to unbutton Kurt’s pants and pull Kurt’s cock out. “You are so gorgeous,” he says before he licks across Kurt’s slit then swirls his tongue around the head of Kurt’s cock. Finally he takes Kurt into his mouth. He reaches around Kurt, a little desperately, and clutches at Kurt’s ass pulling him closer to Blaine’s face, thrusting Kurt into his mouth. He moans in the back of his throat as he takes Kurt deeper inside.

Kurt gasps above him. His hips buck as Blaine’s fingers trace his crack.

“Oh god. Please let me kiss you,” says Kurt. He sinks down onto the bed, placing his knees between Blaine’s as their lips move together.

Kurt moves up Blaine’s body and they shift fully onto the bed. The kiss is dirty and deep. Kurt’s tongue plunges into Blaine’s mouth and they’re mostly still dressed but this is not just kissing, it’s fucking, it’s joining impossibly. It’s hot and it’s a bit mind-blowing because this is how Kurt kisses now. This is how Kurt kisses him now.

“Kurt,” says Blaine urgently. “I can’t- I’m too close.”

Kurt is breathless. “That’s okay, baby that’s okay. I want to see you. Please come for me, just like this sweetheart.” He wraps his long fingers around both of their cocks between their bodies. They rut forwards, shoving harder and harder against each other and into Kurt’s hand.

It’s embarrassing and exhilarating and Blaine couldn’t stop if he wanted to.

“Kurt,” he breathes against Kurt’s lips, “please - tell me all the things you want to do to me.”

Kurt moans. His hand keeps up the rhythm pumping between them. Blaine can tell he’s too far gone for any embarrassment. “I’m going to spread your legs so wide baby and watch you as you finger yourself open until you’re just waiting and begging for me and then I’ll fill you up and stretch you so far and you’ll love it, you’ll want it so much. You’ll be arching up into me and begging against my lips.”

“Please,” says Blaine raggedly and jerks forward irresistibly as he comes. Kurt shudders and cries out, sobbing. It floods between them.

“Loveyouloveyouloveyou,” Blaine says brokenly against Kurt’s collarbone.

“So much,” says Kurt into his hair.

Chapter 12
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