Sometimes. Just sometimes, I connect very strongly with someone in an instant. Within the first minute of speaking to a new person I can tell if they are going to be my new best friend. I can tell straight away if we will spend hours upon hours getting to know each other, having many tears of laughter. I just know it. I have always thought that the greatest people come to you when you are not looking for them.. She came into my life when I least expected her to -- when I was so focused on myself, on my life, without any interruptions.

Mari wrote this only one day after we met. It just amazes how strongly I can connect with some people... I love it more than anything! Most people don't know a lot of me, and that is because I don't care to show most people a lot of me. Most people don't interest me. When I care, I put all my heart, energy, effort, mind, soul into someone. It's so rare that someone has this affect on me. I care so much to know her and to speak with her. I'm so glad that it's mutual. I love you so much, sis :'). You win over everyone. I don't just see you as a friend, I honestly see you as my sister. I have only had that sister feeling once before, but this time round it feels so much stronger. We are so similar that it scares me. I see so much of myself in you and I really love that. I value every second we spend together, laughing, sharing, chatting, just being silly and crazy and speaking of things that most people would be too embarrassed to speak of. I love it all. Together we rule this world =). You are one of the best people I have known in my 18 years of existence. I love you <3.

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Wow, man. I have found my best friend. I have not laughed as much as I have tonight in SO long. Me and Mari are made for each other. We're literally identical! I can not find any way in which we are not similar yet. We share the exact same type of humour, yay. It's a humour that I find not many people have, so I don't often find myself in hysterics... but now I've found Mari =)! We are so hilarious together. We proper bounce off of each other. She is definitely in my top 10 'best people ever' list =). We spoke ALL day today, literally. She is so talkative, which I loveeeeeee. We never shut up together. There is always so much to say, never any pauses, it's just constant awesome chat and jokes and learning and teaching and advising and everrrrrything. We are everything we could ever want in a friend, y'know? Fuck, why aren't more people like Mari?! No girl can beat her. I have known girls for years who can never loosen up like Mari does. Mari, you're fucking fun. And you love to learn about everything which is what I love most!

We played RuneScape (geeks, w00t) just now while we were on Skype chatting and we went around finding Mari a 10th boyfriend and just being so stupid, hahah. omg, it was so fucking funny on voice. with the fucking headbang emote and Ali the hot Arab and the 'fucking bridge bitch' and Gohan. and before, my RIDICULOUS singing in french and arabic and spanish, you trying to guess what accents I made and just, awww, everything!

There have been so many jokes that we've already shared in such a short space of time. I love you, Mari. I have been waiting to meet a girl like you all my life.

A few of our screenies, for us to remember =). I'm sure there will be more.

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I am 200% myself with Mariam. She brings out my awesomeness just by being her brilliant self. So many people drain on me, drag my mood down, bore me, annoy me, just don't FULLY satisfy my wants, so I don't care to give them even half of myself. She stimulates my mind, inspires me, motivates me, livens me up. I always find something missing with most people. I love and care for them, sure, but there's something missing that makes me less invested in the friendship than they are. With Mari it's not like that. Mari's self makes me want to invest all my energy and time into creating and maintaining a really great friendship. Finally; I fully care.

Mari, you fucking foreign big cunt hija de puta, did you understand everything I wrote? :). Te amo, habibti. <3

What's kicking?

I have a question for you all

There is something that really confuses me about people that are supposed to be in a long-term relationships with people they claim to be in love with.

How many of you can say, without a doubt, that you feel entirely open and free to talk about your feelings when you're in a relationship?

I ask this because pretty much every day someone tells me they don't feel able to share their emotions with the person who is supposed to know them inside out. And it's sad to hear. I wonder, is this because they have issues being open in general or is it because they aren't close enough with their partner (to feel comfortable to be able to express their feelings)?

Could be both sometimes, but whatever the case may be, I personally believe you can not have a true love if you can't communicate your feelings to each other. I figure that if you can't communicate your feelings then that must mean you aren't the best of friends. Because in that kind of best friend relationship you'll share everything, right? Well, I believe you should; that's my definition of a best friend, anyway. If you don't have that kind of really close relationship then what kind of relationship do you have? Isn't it just kind of superficial? That's fine if you're a kind of person who isn't fussed either way, but I can't agree with people who think they're deeply in love with someone they can't fully open themselves up to. Why? Because if you can't talk to them and can't be yourself around them, then they'll never really know you. You can't be in love with someone you don't really know. You can love them, sure, but you can't truly be in love with them. Communication is one of the most important factors in order to keep a relationship going strong. I know each person has their own idea on what is important to them in a relationship, but to me, if I can't be my complete self around someone, and fully open up, they will never be able to reach me at that level of love.

And also, it's not even with partners. people need to really start being more open with everyone. about everything. it sucks that we can't be sometimes, for whatever reason.

That's why I say I don't love my family - it's because I don't know them. I can appreciate and be grateful for all they've done for me and whatever fun we've had together, but I don't really feel I love them. That doesn't mean I hate them, I just feel nothing for them. They are just people, who I don't know and who don't know me. Which is sad to say, but that's how it goes.

... g2g, phone call.