I Want .... I desire ... I Will
I've realised just now in the past 10 minutes that I've been living my life for the past 10 years plus based upon what other people want of me. Well thanks to a really good friend who recently got back in touch - and made the teacher learn from his student - asking the right questions, I've decided to live my life by my wants and needs.
Paul is back - the pre Mae Paul - no longer will I be pussy whipped by the whims and wills of others. I know very few of you knew me before Mae, though the cances are that you know of someone who did.
I have had time to think about what I want my persona to be after my last breakdown and I've decided to be "that which I am" again (those of a QBL leaning will know this formulea in its fullest and understand some). No more will I be concerned about foolishness of petty wishes, or the stupidity of "Please Mr [insert god name here] can I have ...", I am Mage and Witch and Sorcerer and the universe is my play ground, my toy.
Just to clarify I am friend to those how help me and have helped me and would gladly lay my life down in defence of those. But to those who hinder me now, past or future I will spell it out in english "I am becoming that which I am" and I will quote from Liber Al vel Legis (sub figur XXCC) II - 23 for the hard of thinking "I am alone: there is no God where I am".
Now before anyone gets on their soapbox let me just say "I am I and thou art thou" so if you disagree with me, make it an inteligent argument and not just a rant - a rant would demine me in responding and demine you in it's writing, where as an inteligent, well thought out argument would be listened to.
So he's back Fr. Pan, Fr. S.D.R, Fr. Go Dai Sho and Paul, who has no master but himself.
Okay that's said - How is everyone today?
Paul is back - the pre Mae Paul - no longer will I be pussy whipped by the whims and wills of others. I know very few of you knew me before Mae, though the cances are that you know of someone who did.
I have had time to think about what I want my persona to be after my last breakdown and I've decided to be "that which I am" again (those of a QBL leaning will know this formulea in its fullest and understand some). No more will I be concerned about foolishness of petty wishes, or the stupidity of "Please Mr [insert god name here] can I have ...", I am Mage and Witch and Sorcerer and the universe is my play ground, my toy.
Just to clarify I am friend to those how help me and have helped me and would gladly lay my life down in defence of those. But to those who hinder me now, past or future I will spell it out in english "I am becoming that which I am" and I will quote from Liber Al vel Legis (sub figur XXCC) II - 23 for the hard of thinking "I am alone: there is no God where I am".
Now before anyone gets on their soapbox let me just say "I am I and thou art thou" so if you disagree with me, make it an inteligent argument and not just a rant - a rant would demine me in responding and demine you in it's writing, where as an inteligent, well thought out argument would be listened to.
So he's back Fr. Pan, Fr. S.D.R, Fr. Go Dai Sho and Paul, who has no master but himself.
Okay that's said - How is everyone today?