Title : First day of my life
Author : Trishie
Rating : PG-13...? Not sure, suicide mentions, cutting mentions, it's very dark, but Petrick
Summary : Pete wanted to end it all. But fate has it's ways of turning everything around
Author's Notes : Very dark. Very Petrick. If there was no suicide and cutting mentions, it would be like, pure fluff. Oh, yeah, I don't own them
Looking up at the ceiling. Wondering. Staring. Waiting
I slowly stared up at the tiny specks on the ceiling. Popping out. Annoying me
I get up. My head is light from being on the floor. I roll over and grabbed the scissors on the ground. I looked at my arm. Blood, cuts, bruises lied there. On tattooed arms. I couldn’t stand it anymore. Tears coming out slowly, I pressed the blade against my skin again
I was breathing heavily. A tiny moan came out. But I stayed. Calm. Cool. Tearful
I was going to do it. I was going to end it all
Patrick would never love me
My words don’t mean a thing
Everything is not alright
I groaned again. Blood was dripping to the floor. A puddle of blood on the floor
I bring it up to my wrist for one last time
“Pete!”
I turn behind me. Patrick, the Patrick Stump, the guy I fell in love, coming towards me. Tears ran down his perfect face, sobs came from his throat, his head in his hands. He fell next to me and held me tightly. Blood stained his shirt as I just sat there, staring blank ahead
“Pete…” he sobbed into my chest. I held him close
“Why?” he said, gently sobbing into my chest. I held him tighter
“Why?” he said again, repeating himself
“Pete…”
“Because” I said. I couldn’t even stop. He looked up at me blankly “I can’t take it anymore! I’m in love with you and you will never know it! Ever! No matter what I do, you will never ever love me”
“How do you know?” he said. His eyes were red with tears
“Because…Why, you never would-“ I started
Patrick looked at me gently, and leaned in. I barely had any energy left, so I couldn’t move to come and do anything. He brushed his soft, delicate lips on my chapped, beaten down lips. I closed my eyes slowly as he licked my bottom lip. I opened and let him in. He explored as I tried kissing back. He pulled away after a while and gently wiped the tears off my face, rubbing my cheek gently and humming a song
“You don’t deserve me” I said after a while
“Pete…” he said with a sniffle. He was looking down at me. He held me closer then before “I love you too”
And at that moment, I knew everything would be just fine
*Comments are more then welcome*
EDIT 5:02 Pacific time- YES!! Thanks to my good friends from DB, I finally got the LJ cut! So, no need to complain!!
Author : Trishie
Rating : PG-13...? Not sure, suicide mentions, cutting mentions, it's very dark, but Petrick
Summary : Pete wanted to end it all. But fate has it's ways of turning everything around
Author's Notes : Very dark. Very Petrick. If there was no suicide and cutting mentions, it would be like, pure fluff. Oh, yeah, I don't own them
Looking up at the ceiling. Wondering. Staring. Waiting
I slowly stared up at the tiny specks on the ceiling. Popping out. Annoying me
I get up. My head is light from being on the floor. I roll over and grabbed the scissors on the ground. I looked at my arm. Blood, cuts, bruises lied there. On tattooed arms. I couldn’t stand it anymore. Tears coming out slowly, I pressed the blade against my skin again
I was breathing heavily. A tiny moan came out. But I stayed. Calm. Cool. Tearful
I was going to do it. I was going to end it all
Patrick would never love me
My words don’t mean a thing
Everything is not alright
I groaned again. Blood was dripping to the floor. A puddle of blood on the floor
I bring it up to my wrist for one last time
“Pete!”
I turn behind me. Patrick, the Patrick Stump, the guy I fell in love, coming towards me. Tears ran down his perfect face, sobs came from his throat, his head in his hands. He fell next to me and held me tightly. Blood stained his shirt as I just sat there, staring blank ahead
“Pete…” he sobbed into my chest. I held him close
“Why?” he said, gently sobbing into my chest. I held him tighter
“Why?” he said again, repeating himself
“Pete…”
“Because” I said. I couldn’t even stop. He looked up at me blankly “I can’t take it anymore! I’m in love with you and you will never know it! Ever! No matter what I do, you will never ever love me”
“How do you know?” he said. His eyes were red with tears
“Because…Why, you never would-“ I started
Patrick looked at me gently, and leaned in. I barely had any energy left, so I couldn’t move to come and do anything. He brushed his soft, delicate lips on my chapped, beaten down lips. I closed my eyes slowly as he licked my bottom lip. I opened and let him in. He explored as I tried kissing back. He pulled away after a while and gently wiped the tears off my face, rubbing my cheek gently and humming a song
“You don’t deserve me” I said after a while
“Pete…” he said with a sniffle. He was looking down at me. He held me closer then before “I love you too”
And at that moment, I knew everything would be just fine
*Comments are more then welcome*
EDIT 5:02 Pacific time- YES!! Thanks to my good friends from DB, I finally got the LJ cut! So, no need to complain!!