Wow. Over a year since I last put anything in here and you would think that things would be different, and they are, but not by much.

I'm going to post in IJ just as much as I do here... I just opened an account. Why? Pointless me taking up space on the net for no good reason. Fanfic. There is no better reason than this.

Have a great day!

Yup, 18 days and no cigarettes. Twitchy. Never used that word to describe myself before, but yeah, *twitchy*.

Good things though, feeling happier and coffee kicks in better.

*bounce*

*bounce*

Um, slack friend that I am I went and checked up with everyone elses LJ's and pinched this.

I am Strength Strength represents patience and compassion. Getting angry is easy when events turn sour, but dealing calmly with frustration takes great strength. So does accepting others and forgiving mistakes. We need strength to mold situations softly. The Chariot controls through mastery and authority. Card 8 is more subtle, even loving. Notice how the lion (itself a symbol of strength) is being guided and tamed by the woman's gentle hands. For a full description of your card and other goodies, please visit LearnTarot.com

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So what use is strength to anyone else if I'm not there?

On a good note, RL is falling into some kind of pattern that doesn't suck. I am grateful and waiting for the other shoe *g*

The job is turning out to be the best decision I’ve made in a long time. I’m one of those people who always did well in school without really trying and walked out at the end without a fucking clue what they wanted to do with their lives. I love being a drama teacher. I’m also going to keep trying with my music, because even I was embarrassed for the last lot on NZ Idol last week… dude… I hope no other country sees NZ Idol.

Things have settled down with my flatmates. I don’t expect to have the cops or the bailiffs around again. Big with the not fun. But ‘yay’ with the paying of their rent being up to date.

This is day four with no cigarettes. I have not killed anyone or even been mean. I think I have missed a golden opportunity. *sigh*

My washing machine is broken so I’ve been doing it by hand. It makes me think of my Grandmother and appreciate what she must have gone through with seven kids and a husband that did manual labour. More than that, it just makes me think of her. I miss her.

My boy is ten. He was in a fight yesterday against 5 other boys trying to protect one of his little friends. He made two of them cry and swore a blue streak. I don’t think I’ve ever been so proud. He got to chose where we went for dinner and I practically glowed at him for two hours. LOVE that kid *bg*

Yay Me!! Got the job I've been chasing for the last three months. I'm now officially a Drama teacher!!

So that was me last night, two warm beers and too many smokes, lol. Bring on the fun *snigger*

Well, no rest for the wicked, the washing and dishes await.

An update is long overdue, huh? Well I’ve moved back to Auckland, got stung by a flying flatmate to the tune of over $800, am waiting to hear back on a dream job and have bought a car since my old one just about died on me. The new flatmates are great, they actually pay the rent and do their dishes… even if they do smoke J and leave their washing on the line 4ever.

On a happier note I have made some great scores on TradeMe (New Zealands answer to eBay) My car cost me $1400 when I see the same model and year for $2,500. I got a really expensive iron for $10 and a computer chair with all the buttons for $3.50. This time next week I should have a microwave for about $15 and an oil heater for about $25. I am soooo cheap, I know, but having to find that $800+ having just spent everything to move here and having to get a new car, just about sent me broke.

I’ve been reading J/D, S/X and C/L to cheer myself up. If you’ve found any new ones over 50kb and R+ I’d be most grateful *bg*

New song. One of those ones that sound better with music 'cause the lyrics are 'yawn worthy'. It sucks because I actually really like the sound to this one. Oh well, ignore at will :)


Next Time

My heart’s been desiccated, complicated, liberated against my will
My love’s been jaded, obfuscated, deliberated, and it’s all down hill
What good is a heart if it hasn’t been broken at least ten times
What good is a love if it hasn’t been tested on the front lines

So I get hurt, I get broken, the cracks are showing
The moon’s not so bright tonight
Then I get smart, I get woken up, the cracks get sewn up
A little bit tarnished, but I know I’ll get it right
Next time, next time

My heart beats syncopated, elevated, sky paraded, and it won’t keep still
My love’s being invaded, emancipated, freed, elated, like I’ve taken a pill
So I hope against hope that it won’t turn to dust again this time
And I hope against hope that it won’t be the blind leading the blind

CH

Next time don’t want to be scared
Next time don’t want to get sick of a
Next time, I know I’ll get it right
Next time

What good is a heart if it hasn’t been broken at least ten times
What good is a love if it hasn’t been tested on the front lines

CH

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

It's new years eve in NZ right now. My brother is having a huge party, there's a mardigras in town tonight, and my parents are going to a new years party/dinner at the new restaurant my dad is managing.

I will be home looking after my son.

Possibly drinking a nice Merlot.

*sigh*

Hope there's something decent on the telly.

Anyway, may all your Hallmark platitudes come true with lots of naked men and cherry liqueur.

*smooches* & HUGS

So. Diary time.

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You scored as SG-1 (from Stargate). You are versatile and diverse in your thinking. You have an open mind to that which seems highly unlikely and accept it with a bit of humor. Now if only aliens would stop trying to take over your body. Coming on December 1, 2005: Your Ultimate Sci-Fi Profile: which sci-fi crew would you best fit in? The Sequel </td> SG-1 (from Stargate) 94% Moya (from Farscape) 75% Millennium Falcon (from Star Wars) 75% Galactica (from Battlestar: Galactica) 63% Enterprise D (from Star Trek) 56% Serenity (from Firefly) 50% Nebuchadnezzar (from The Matrix) 44% Bebop (from Cowboy Bebop) 44% Which sci-fi crew would you best fit in? v1.0 created with QuizFarm.com

*BFG* Can we feel the reality escapage I'm on today??? I didn't even try for this answer except the wormhole one... and maybe this one was a dead giveaway 'You are not afraid to share pop-culture items with aliens', but then I haven't seen many of the other series... Fuck it. This was fun, and in my imagination we are on a cold planet that requires me to share a tent with Jack and Daniel.

You scored as Blade. Thats right you are the booty kicking you cross me and I will stomp a mudhole in your butt type. Sexy and a great fighter with mad fighting skills </td> Blade 92% Spike 67% Dracula 67% Lestat 58% Armand 42% Angel 42% Deacon Frost 33% Louis 25% Marius 25% Akasha 17% Whose your Vampire personality? (images) created with QuizFarm.com

LOL. Blade is an asshole. Blade 2? Blade 3? Wait until video, and he's still an asshole. Mind you if I'm not Spike, then I can stalk him until he gives up his cute little booty *g*