Ready and waiting

So, I'm reading my child psych text book and I'm on the chapter about prenatal development. There is a section on sex development, and you know what. Embryos naturally develop as females, then a gene on the Y chromosome is turned on in the 7th week of pregnancy, which causes testes to develop. The testes then secrete androgens, which are a male sex hormone that cause the tissues that would become the female sex organs to atrophy. So, the way I understand it, all males have hermaphroditic traits for a very short period of time while the female tissues atrophy.
Then, I was thinking of this as it relates to the story of Adam and Eve... Don't you think that if God made Eve from Adam's rib, it would be the other way around? I do...

That is my two cents for the day. Thank you and good night.

My last semester as a college student is officially underway. I have approximately 4.5 hours of structured class time a week. Plus one hour of Lab meeting time. This leaves me with and extraordinary amount of unstructured time on my hands. We all know how good I am with unstructured time... So far I've been pretty good at keeping myself motivated and involved. I spend 2-3 nights at work, and about 10 hours in the lab doing data entry. I have a meeting with Monica next week to discuss what exactly it is I'm going to do for my major project. Ideally I'm going to be working with some kind of data and running analyses, then I'll write a paper. Hopefully, it will be good enough to submit to the undergraduate journal, then I will be a PUBLISHED author. How cool, right?
It's good to have goals. Now all I have to do is keep up my motivation and make sure that I'm always keeping my goals in mind.

Speaking of goals. Jennifer and I have been to the gym 3 mornings this week. We're going to Orlando for spring break so we're trying to get swimwear ready. This has helped me with two goals I have: work out more, and start waking up earlier. I have a tendency to wake up around noon if there's nothing to get me up earlier. oops.
I'm really REALLY excited to be going to Florida for spring break. We're going to be spending my birthday at Disneyworld!! I've never gone anywhere for spring break! It's going to be me, Jennifer, Zach, Katrina, Laura, Andrea and Kristina... so much fun.

Ca va? It's been a while since I've posted in this.
I am in France, and it is amazing
I am gaining confidence, and it is empowering.
I am meeting people, and they are inspiring.
I am growing up , and it is scary.

I forgot I had this journal... perhaps I will write some more, but I have a written one that I am keeping at least for France. So this may be something to remember my past by. I sort of like hand writing my thoughts and feeling and having them be just for me.

I think I may have taken this step too soon. Today I realized, it's been two months. I have been a complete bum for two months. I've applied for jobs, but that's about it. When I wanted to work at Barnes & Noble, I went in once a week and bothered them about looking at my application. There have been 3 or 4 jobs that I applied for that I really wanted, but I never did any following through. Why not? I love working. I hate sitting around, so why haven't I pursued any of these jobs I want? My personal theory is that I'm scared (but really what's new?). I'm an adult now, and should be self sufficient but I was more independent when I was 16 than I am now. wtf? And another thing, I'm planning to go to France, I have to apply in a month and a half, and I'm still completely overwhelmed. I haven't planned out classes or applied for any scholarships, and it's not because I haven't looked at these things. Every time I attempt to make my plans, it just gets a little too much to handle. What has happened to make me such a little pussy? Procrastination, sure, that's something I've always done. But this is going a little beyond that. I'm very close to letting a lot of things slip away that I really want. I guess tomorrow will have to be a new start. Get the old me back.


P.S. on the plus side, I've gotten a lot of reading in. That's very very like the me I know and like. I've gotten time to cook too, tonight I made Chicken Alfredo from scratch. It was delicious. and I washed it down with a glass of wine. I like having a roommate who's over 21, even if he is a little creepy.

P.P.S. I'm watching Dawson's Creek right now. :) I love this show. Seriously.

gonna sell my car and move to New York
cause someone told me that's where dreamers should go
gonna sell my car and move to New York
and tattoo my body with every Broadway show.

I just realized how much I miss writing in this thing. Writing is the best way to sort my thoughts and I've got lots of thoughts lately. This summer has been the complete opposite of any previous summer. I'm living in Minneapolis, without a job. I haven't not had a job since I was 14. I don't particularly enjoy it. I've sent out quite a few resumes, and nothing. Most of the jobs claim I don't have the clerical experience they're seeking, but they're listed as entry level jobs, so I don't get it. I've resorted to applying at the student bookstore. It should be a fun job but I was really looking for something a little more substantial,\. I suppose beggars can't be choosers.

On the bright side, I've gotten to take lots of mini-vacations. I've been to visit Alyssa in Eau Claire 3 or 4 times, home twice, and North Carolina to see my grandparents. I don't know how people go unemployed for years though, I'm going slightly crazy for just a few months without a job.

Jen and I went rollerblading on the 4th, and I fractured my wrist. Since, I'm typing this one handed I'm going to stop now because it's getting a little irritating but as soon as my brace is off I will write a more extensive post about my summer.

should I be worried that the only class I'm taking that actually has anything to do with what I want to be when I grow up makes me wanna poke my eyes out?

It was a good weekend.
Fri- Joshua Radin/Schuylar Fisk concert= amazing. They're dating, it's freaking adorable. then WOP. Everclear WOP.. not a good idea. Lots of drama.

Sat- KP BIRFDAY DINNER! :) KP, Alyssa, Haley, & Trav came to the cities and we had dinner at the Old Spaghetti Factory, and it was delicious. Then we went back to Stout and drank UV blue and pink lemonade blended together in the BULLET! and played Tourettes.

Sun- Watched Breakfast at Tiffany's with my lovers, then KP drove me home and I did homework and watched the Superbowl w/the roomz.

It's nice to hang out with people who've known you since you were in middle school. You can be completely yourself, and it's ok. I'm going to try more of that here at school and see how it goes. Not, that I've been fake here but I think I've been trying to be something I want to be, and that can get tiring sometimes.

John Mayer concert in 6 days.... I'm so effin excited.

I believe I have trust issues.

Summary:
my stats lecture is available as a podcast... what?
stats section leader would be cute if he didn't wear shiney button downs and tie-dye
I have the kid who always raises his hand to ask pointless questions in my French class.
I also have the kid who waits outside of class for me in my french class.
I have homework already.
I have Chem at 9am tomorrow.
...that's the earliest I have ever scheduled a class for myself.

American Idol started tonight with the auditions from Minneapolis. For being a pretty talented city, they sucked.

No matter how many times I watch "How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days" I never get sick of it. This Saturday night I'm home by myself. Initially this was not by choice, I have a paper due Tuesday that has not been on the top of my priority list so I decided that tonight would be major work night. Well, seeing as I'm me and that means that I have a procrastination problem, of course I haven't even started writing the paper yet. I did have a wonderful chicken burrito dinner while I was watching the movie, however. Jennifer and I went to her sister's house last night and made cards (her for Valentine's, me for Christmas thank yous) and didn't come back to the apartment till 3am. We're losers, we know this. But it was alot of fun, I love her sister. Their relationship makes me want a sister. Then this morning we went to buy our textbooks. Why are they so overpriced? I do not understand why a book on abnormal psychology needs to be over $100, used. This semester is scary. It's going to be alot of work. I'm going to need to take lessons on how not to procrastinate, otherwise I'm going to get my ass kicked.
Well seeing as the livejournal community is up to date on the going ons in my life, I suppose I will go write that paper now.
notte buona i miei amori. (that means good night my loves in Italian, I love freetranslation.com)