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( I never thought I will get hooked like this..Hooked lined and sinker... where did it start? I remember watching runningman because I had this huge crush to the CNBLUE leader Jung Yong Hwa...oh before that I remember a friend recommended me to watch We got married Yong Seo couple because I always make fun of her getting gaga over kPOP so in short I watched it and from there it start my facination to korean Idol well to Yong Hwa in particular..from there I started watching youtube feeds,watching 2hours concert without understanding what the hell they are talking about...googled their profile,watching the variety shows their in subbed or no subbed it doesn't matter as long as I see Yong Hwa..then there's runningman. At first I just watched the episodes he's in and after that I find the show interesting and continued watching the rest of the episodes with or without Yong Hwa...an in one particular episode..I will never forget for the rest of my life the first time I saw him..my love..my ULTIMATE BIAS..my obsession..JUNG YUNHO (and coincidentally he have the same last name as Yong Hwa)Ohmyfuckinggawd!! He is the most handsome man I have ever seen in my whole fucking life...seriously..well ofcourse my father would be the first in any daughter's eyes..but still he is so heavenly beautiful.. he is the epitome of perfection. I cannot find fault in him.. Knowing He's an idol it's not hard finding info about him...knowing He's one of the biggest,hottest and well respected Idol in KPOP together with Changmin,TVXQ is legend...living their name as The Rising God Of the East!From wikipedia I learned that they were 5member group before they became a duo..err well I guessed everyone knows their history... From Jung Yunho to TV2XQ to TV5XQ Then I fell in love with YUNJAE...which I'm wishing I haven't... don't get me wrong I love them so much I love them to the core...and because of that I'm broken... deep with in me I'm glad I known them only now well early 2013 because I don't how will I handle the pain if I have known them from the start to the Lawsuit...A first I'm so happy..actually I'm over the top tbh evertime I watched Yunjae vid..well who would not... two beautiful creature together.. that was heaven..I nevr thought at my age (well their are still oppa to me so I'm not that old ;P) I will shrieked and cooed at my monitor everytime I see them..then reality struck..they are not together any more well in public i said..and I can't imagine the hurt of the thousands of cassie out there whose with then from the start when the break-up happens..I know them only now and the impact is so big sometimes I have this regret of knowing them...watching vids after vids saying Yunjae evidence who would not believed they are real yes “are”not “were” because at the bottom of my poor kokoro they are real up to now.... okay I'll pause for a while in my agonizing bubble... I want to remember happy thoughts... YunJae fanfiction!!Oh my god I cannot believed my self I will get hooked into the world of homosexuality. not that I'm against it before no it's not an issue for me I just never thought that of YunJae in any sexual way. romantic yes..but sexually not really..so in short I skipped any fanfiction at any kind actually because come on seeing them and believing that they are real is already to much for me what more when I read it detail by detail.. of what the writer's interpretation of them... of course they have their muses for them to write such story..they know where to get it... and then one day...BAM!DAMAGED happened... I don't know what got into me I decided to read Aquarius lover's Damaged oh I remember someone mentioned it on twitter... wow!! it's a non-au futuristic kind of story so it's not hard for a believer like me to not believed in the story fiction or not. I remember reading it before I go to work so I am torn between go to work or continue reading haha yeah that's how engrossed i am that time.. well I go to work that day but still continue reading in between breaks... it's a 49chaps story and yet I never skipped any part even though sometimes the flow of the story is kinda slow still I read it all...then after that I keep on searching YunJae fics tru google and recs. Then I happen to read beeswaxing Sleeping beauty.. wow another superb story.. good thing she writes a lot of Yunjae fics and everthing are worth reading for..untill now I can't get over reading Yunjae fanfictions well I also read Homin fics now and there are so many good writer in this fandom wow!!How I wish I can also write like them... and I don't know where this rumbling of me will go hahaha!! now I'm lost in my trains of thought haha!! I have this for a long time and I don't know where to put it!! now I have My LJ account and tumblr to keep track of my babies.. even in twitter... damn I have so many things to say and I don't know how to put it...so for now I'll stop from here and continue ranting some other time!!!Collapse )

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