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Monday, March 13th, 2006
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8:21 pm - Summer Housing
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Are there any apartments nearby that rent out for just the summer? I'll be staying to work and possibly take summer classes, but the price to stay in the dorms is outrageous. If anyone knows of a place or needs a roommate, let me know.
caleb
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| Sunday, December 11th, 2005
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11:09 pm - The Gigatron 4000
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| Tuesday, July 26th, 2005
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2:41 am - CSS Headaches
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I'm up about 3 hours later than I intended to be tonight, researching W3C standards and browser inconsistencies, style sheet properties, and web design porn.
Examples:
http://www.csszengarden.com/ <-- One content, displayed in drastically different and beautiful ways. Click a display on the right navigation bar
http://www.meyerweb.com/eric/css/edge/popups/demo.html/ <-- Dynamic content without using javascript or images. Hover mouse over lefthand nav bar links
http://www.alistapart.com/articles/alternate/ <-- "Oh God I have a lot more research to do than I thought"
It's getting late and I'm punchy- for some reason I thought it was funny that I'm getting a headache because I can't get all the info on something I'm interested in.
current mood:  tired
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| Monday, July 4th, 2005
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10:53 pm - Career change
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I've decided to drop my music education major- I know I don't want to go into public school teaching. It just seemed like the natural thing to do after high school, but it won't fulfill me the way I need it to. I'm going to replace it with a major in computer science, leaving the music composition where it is- I'll always be a composer.
This is just the first step. I need to look up the degree requirements, courses offered, and see about getting an advisor. Really excited. I'll let you know how it turns out.
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| Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
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7:42 pm - summer work
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While looking through job applications online for summer work (I'm considering spending the rest of the summer in syracuse) I wandered across several ads for web developers and information systems admins. It's strange; I've never been as excited about teaching as I have about being a design professional. I think I'm reconsidering my education major for the first time.
current mood:  busy
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| Sunday, May 8th, 2005
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5:03 am - Mason sickness
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I've come down with a fever, and only two days until my jury. It's weird, I'm dizzy and tired but can't sleep. Thermometer doesn't know what the hell to do. I want to stay in bed all day but I can't afford to.. guess this is what they mean by the daily grind.
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| Thursday, February 10th, 2005
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11:11 pm - Kayle
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My roommate (with his nose to the desk):
"My parents are paying.. a thousand dollars for me to go to college.. and I'm friggin coloring in squares."
current mood:  amused
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| Saturday, February 5th, 2005
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4:42 am - Trans, tempo
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| Sunday, January 30th, 2005
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6:32 pm - Spectrum
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| Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
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5:36 pm - Anima
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I guess I thought that I'd have an easier time with everything if I had someone behind me. That I'd have a better work ethic if I had someone to come home to, that I'd feel more confident if I knew someone believed in me. I've been desperate since I came here to form a meaningful connection with just one other person.
Makes me realize though what a messed up view of morality I have. For whatever reason, I still think that the end justifies the means- that as long as I'm happy in the end, it doesn't matter how much I suffer to get there. I wasn't counting on feeling like I'd just stabbed one of my best friends in the back, though. This is a deeper regret than I planned on.
This has to change. I feel like the way I'm going, I'll never be successful and fulfilled. I read in one of my education books that a child's self worth and ethics are created as small children, and are unchangeable after that.. does it mean that I'm fated to drag my feet like this through everything? I'm trying to think of a success story that began with someone like me, but it's possible that my "overcoming" this sludge is just a daydream, too. Maybe some things can't be changed, and success isn't changing them, but continuing despite them. That's a depressing thought though; I'd like to believe still that what they told me as a kid is true, and anything is possible if you put your mind to it.
Do you ever look back on something stupid or embarrassing you did and shudder, and wish you could forget it? Come on, there must be. When I was young I replaced the word "witch" with "bitch" in a performance in elementary school, and the class gasped in shock before I could correct the mistake. Any time that memory occurs to me, I duck my head inside my shirt like a turtle.
But I don't ever wish I could forget those things. I want to remember all of my mistakes (even a slip of the tongue before middle school) so that I can learn from them and not make them again. But isn't it a stupid philosophy, to plan to make mistakes? If I were a successful person, wouldn't I plan to not make them, because I would be capable of avoiding them?
I don't know how I could do something so cruel to one of my friends. Would I do that to anyone? To my brother? I don't know what's sacred to me. I hope I can fix this.
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| Sunday, January 9th, 2005
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2:37 pm - Part time job in syracuse
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I found this at my credit union:
10/25/04
We have one opening for a part-time teller, M - F 10:00 - 2:00, at our Syracuse branch. Seeking customer-focused individuals to provide world-class quality service to our membership. Cash handling experience required, financial services experience preferred. Starting pay $8.45/hour plus discretionary incentive pay.
Send resume to human resources, PowerCareers@powerfcu.com
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| Tuesday, December 28th, 2004
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7:26 pm - g what?
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I have 6 gmail invites left, if anyone wants to use one. I got the account back in septermber, and haven't used it since, but I can see how it might be useful to somebody. I've had my hotmail account for too long to part with it, I guess. If you'd like an invite, leave me your email address.
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| Sunday, December 26th, 2004
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3:50 pm - Donations
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"More than 10,000 people have been killed across southern Asia in massive sea surges..."
BBC News link
It's unbelievable, so many people dying so quickly. Please follow this link if you would like to make a donation to AMURT, a non-government organization that's responding to the crisis. (find the Donate link at the top) AMURT
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| Friday, December 17th, 2004
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1:16 am - Final, Vulnus
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Tomorrow morning I take my last final exam, a snare drum performance for three of the best percussion majors in the studio. I'm hoping to impress my peers.
My interest in public school teaching isn't what it used to be. I know I want to be a teacher, but maybe middle and high school are too "mainstream," too much like a job that you trudge to in the morning just to pay the bills. I want to do something that I enjoy, so I'm glad I'm studying composition too. Wish I had a tight plan.
Before the semester began, I noticed a faint but constant pain in my stomach, a dull twinge that never faded. I figured it would pass, but it's grown steadily worse, until about a month ago when I doubled over my desk in agony during class and was unable to concentrate on the lecture. I've been seeing a series of doctors since then, been to the emergency room and a gastro specialist, and nobody has been able to tell me anything conclusive. Worse than the pain (which is mild now) is not knowing what causes it. I think I'm the type to worry "what if"s.
This stubborn battle with my body, and my diminished social life have taken a toll on my Motivation- it's hard to work on long term goals like performance ability when your health is suffering. I'm hoping that the doc back home can fix me up, that I can restore some old friendships and then maybe I'll be able to labor again for the long term.
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| Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
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8:09 pm - Last weeks
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Getting really busy now with composition exams, on top of my jury and the other tests. This next two weeks are going to be so busy and stressful, and I love it. I want to keep this feeling when I go home for the summer.
I haven't touched my website in months. Maybe over winter break I'll get back into it.. a few major code faults make it unaccessible by many of the members. There's some inconsistency in the definitions of some code functions.. no one can tell me the precise order the page headers should be sent in. Cookies aren't being set on some windows users' machines, and almost everyone is complaining about problems logging in, or ugly page errors. It wasn't a problem before- I need to host myself, rather than buying space from an amateur web company.
Much of the talent in the percussion studio here is graduating this semester. It's a little depressing- there are four or five incredible musicians that I really look up to that I'll probably never get to know personally because I didn't have enough time with them here. I remember feeling like this in high school too: in a few years I'll be a senior and have no one to look up to.
I'm making a lot of progress, and I think I have a lot of options open to me. I don't want to get stuck doing something I don't enjoy.
current mood:  thoughtful
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| Sunday, November 7th, 2004
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11:28 pm - Guard
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| Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
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11:29 pm - Ad lib..
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| Monday, October 18th, 2004
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12:21 am - The sociology of education?
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My foundations class continues to haunt me from the grave.
When will my torment end??
For the record, I don't think teaching should be like this. They say that we're experiencing an educational crisis, that 17 percent of first-year college students take remedial writing classes and that there are 24 million illiterate adults in the US. But, we still have our geniuses, our artists and politicians and doctors and philosophers. So yes, maybe our education system is faulty, but I think it says nothing about our intelligence. I'm going to be a teacher, and I don't care what my foundations teachers would say, I'm going to do it in the way that I feel is right.
current mood: sleepy
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| Saturday, October 9th, 2004
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6:24 pm - Responsive Educator, and Incurable Procrastinator
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I'm doing my mid-term portfolio for my Foundations of Teaching music class.. it's killing me. I had huge ethical issues with the class to begin with, and now I have to regurgitate meaningless vocabulary words and nonsensical one-paragraph essays just to get a passing grade, regardless of how much I've learned in the class.
I am not a happy camper. I actually yearn for aural theory homework.
current mood:  apathetic
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| Sunday, October 3rd, 2004
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3:14 am - The seas
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I walked around on the roof of Mason hall tonight. It was weird, and dreamlike. The silence up there was predatory and inviting and new. It was a huge relief- it means there's still mysteries here after all.
I took some pictures, but very few of them came out well. ( ThisCollapse )
is a picture of Ring Road, which ends at Mason Hall, our music building. I think I'll use it to make the banner of Trumpetman 4.
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