one_muse

Since i've been sick my nights and days are getting messed up. I was up until 4am this morning and slept well into 11:00 and by the time my body settles down and i get rolling it's 4:00 and i am not liking this one bit. I am missing my old life badly. My entire life is upside down. I have not been without a job in 25 years, I'm stuck in the house a lot and unable to do any of the heavy lifting work i'm staring at that needs done. Time to relearn service and how i feel we can accomplish this. LOL But we're going to be working on it.

The bright side to this is all the amazing wonderful support of Sir and all of my friends. It really has felt overwhelming at times and made me realize i am blessed and loved. Thank you.

Oh, and today is three months without a cigarette. I did it :-)

This coming week starts the onslot of tests and specialist but this was a good day, Just kind of tired now. Gonna go lean on my rock a while.



peace & Love
BDprincess

The best medicine ever is falling asleep laying across  chgowiz and waking up with him wrapped around me.

peace & love
BDprincess

As we were passing the Burger King Maddie Mae says "Gramma, you smell that?"
She couldn't see it from her side of the truck, Then I say "yes Maddie, i
do. What is it?" Because i was curious what her 2 and 1/2 year old thoughts
were about it, she then replies ' That's dinner, can i have that?" That was
the cutest exchange. Funny though, when we got to the store and i took
Maddie down the isle without putting her up in a shopping cart i was quickly
reminded why parents strap their kids into one even if they need only one
item. Yep, i swear she has the quickest little hands in Chicago, LOL

Pretty tired today, was up til 2am working on LRA stuff and couldn't shut my
brain off. This afternoon's crash is gonna be epic i am sure. Must put the
"extra strength" filter on my mouth before i go home to Sir *smiles*

Friday is my CLC presentation at the LRA. I am absolutely besides myself in
panic no one will come out *sigh* everything has gone out so late but i
really tried to make this a great pledge project. This fall the schedules
will settle down a bit and i can hopefully bring this forward to be even
bigger. Yep, grand ideas.

Hugs & Love
BDprincess

I am grateful for ..

My wonderful Husband/Daddy/Master/Owner because he believes in me and there
has never been one day together i have not felt loved <3

My children who are growing up and starting to go their own way. They are
not prefect and sometimes struggle, but they are turning out to be
compassionate people which is the biggest lesson i could impart to them.

Maddie who hugs and kisses me and asks me "are you happy gramma?" Because
she now understands that concept of happiness.

My friends who have shown such kindness and love.

My beautiful home (even when it looks like a pig pen)

((Hugs))
BDprincess

Running behind with everything and everybody, it's some craziness. I haven't been here or Fetlife or anything. Work cut access to just about everything. GRRR. Big big project sitting in my lap now that's gonna be cool when i get through it. Unfortunately we are not going to Cincinnati this weekend. We thought we were going to see Sir's Dad but his wife is in hospital. So I'm going to have a little time. We shall see, the house is really neglected too just all the way around.



hugs

I have recently been asked a lot "How do you identify?" Then I'm given
choices (labels) to choose from such as slave, submissive, bottom, kinkster
... ect. I find this an interesting trend recently and wonder if the Tops go
through this exact thing with each other ? Usually I will give my reply as
owned slave and then feel myself shuffled off into a category for someone
else to define.

Me = His to please in the best way i can forever evolving and learning.

Gay Panic Defense Gets Murder Defendant Off

Joseph Biedermann said his neighbor tried to rape him, so he stabbed and
slashed the man 61 times.
"How do you stab and slash someone 61 times, not just killing but
slaughtering him, then walk free?"

So asks the Tribune's Eric
Zorn<http://blogs.chicagotribune.com/news_columnists_ezorn/2009/07/gaypanic.html>after
a Chicago man was acquitted in the violent killing of his neighbor,
who the man claimed tried to rape him.

Joseph Biedermann, now 30, admitted to repeatedly stabbing Terrance Hauser
last year. Both men were at Hauser's apartment after a night of drinking.
Biedermann claimed he passed out, and when he woke up, Hauser had a sword to
his throat and was demanding that Biedermann take his clothes off.

Biedermann said that started a fight in which he grabbed a dagger and
stabbed Hauser repeatedly while trying to escape. Such "gay panic" defenses
have been used in several high-profile cases, often
unsuccessfully<http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/gay_panic_defense#uses_of_the_gay_panic_defense>
.

Prosecutors argued that Biedermann's story didn't add up.

The apartment showed little sign of a struggle. Biedermann was larger and
not as drunk as Hauser, and there's no way he would have needed to stab
Hauser five dozen times to escape, prosecutors argued. And rather than
immediately call for help, Biedermann returned to his apartment, soaked in
blood, and showered before his girlfriend eventually called 911.

But those arguments didn't stand with jurors, who acquitted Biedermann on
first-degree murder charges. The jury wasn't allowed to consider
second-degree murder charges -- a gamble by the prosecution that didn't pay
off.

Biedermann's attorney, Sam Adam Jr., said the verdict "wasn't anti-gay, it
was anti-rape."

After talks about where and why things broke down sl has said she wants to
come and serve Master as well. After talking and crying (her & me) and
hugging and some kisses *grin* He has agreed. Not sure how this will all fit
and work out but i'm going to try and keep an open and accepting mind. I am
so grateful i truly adore her.

This gets me off :

http://www.stompersboots.com/

And... it's work safe *smiles*