I've been writing this LJ post in my head since like Tuesday? All week, pretty much, but I can never find the time to just sit down and type up anything remotely coherent because wow, being an adult is harrrrrdddd. Work is kicking my ass, you guys. I get home at like 8 and have dinner and scroll through Tumblr a little and then pass out before 11. THIS IS MY LIFE. It's not awful or anything, but I'm just tired all the time, and as much as I miss participating in fandom and (more importantly) talking to people on here (I do I do, I really really really fucking do), I'm completely incapable of being really ~around~ in any capacity when it's not my day off.

Other than the insane hours (75-80 hours a week, fml), things are going great! My brain and my body have adjusted wonderfully to the daily grind, and my work environment is better than I ever imagined it could be. There's office politics (that thankfully don't really affect our little family of 8 in the lab) and some immature Mean Girls-ish petty antics that kind of grate at me when they go too far far (sadly a common phenomenon in all workplaces, I've come to realize), but there's silliness and inside jokes and supportiveness and legitimate friendships, too, so I'm happy!

I wasn't kidding about missing the fuck out of you guys, though. I've gotten so used to knowing everything about everyone, to getting to just shoot the shit with my favorite people for hours at a time, to geting to actually talk to my friends and not to have to run out after popping in for ten minutes every morning. YES, I AM A TOTAL SAP, YOU PEOPLE NEED TO USE LJ MORE BECAUSE IT'S WAY EASIER FOR ME TO KEEP TRACK OF YOU GUYS OVER HERE. ;_______;


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ALSO HEY TV STUFF in bulletpoints:

1. Fringe and I are in a fight right now. ALL OF THIS IS BECAUSE OF FEELINGS???? lol oh, Broyles. I just. Can we just stay in the atl!verse forever? More Lincoln and Charlie and alt!Liv AND NONE FOR PETER, BYE. (Also, fuck, the fate of two entire universes rests on Peter Bishop's dick. Of fucking course it does.) (REALLY, SHOW?)

2. Re: last week's Smallville - I live a Superman Appreciation Life, haters stay pressed.

3. I've kind of stopped watching Bones? OOPS. The last three eps are rotting in my hard drive because I just cannot find the motivation to get into any of that shit. I no longer have the inclination to sit through 41 minutes of unbearable bull just to make ~*feast from crumbs*~. Stop being so cowardly, show.

4. DAN AND BLAIR DAN AND BLAIR DAN AND BLAIRRRRR. This is Unexpected Friendship/Buildup To Something More done completely and utterly and fantastically right, and it's so delightful to watch Penn and Leighton hit it out of the park each and every week. idk if it'll last much longer, but I'm in this until the bitter end.

5. Glee The Kurt and Blaine Show has become the one fandom thing I look forward to the most every week (every day, tbh, I LOVE MY FEED, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE), look at my life, look at my choices. /o\ /o\ /o\ It's been a disappointing piece of shit two episodes in a row, though, so I've relearned to temper my expectations. I will never again let myself forget that this show is only ever good by accident, and it will always manage to pee on everything that I love. (That said: the newest spoilers, oh god, ALL THE THINGS. *whimper*)


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HI FRIEND, COME TALK TO ME, TELL ME HOW YOU ARE, I REALLY DO WANT TO KNOW <3 <3 <3

HI GUYS

BIG NEWS OMG

I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!

One of my mom's friends runs a cosmetic product manufacturing company, and one of their laboratories needed an assistant to help with the product testing that they're doing. I sent off my resume right before Christmas, and they called me in for an interview on Tuesday. :D The senior lab technician just nonchalantly took me into their (gorgeous) lab and chatted with me about the kind of work I did for school and for my thesis. And before I knew it, I was talking to the head of the HR department about salaries and papers they were gonna need from me and starting work as soon as possible. \o/ \o/ \o/

My shifts are insane (7:30-4:30 from Mondays to Saturdays) and I'll basically be the one being ordered around in the lab, but right now I don't even caaaaare. (I'm sure that'll change soon, but allow me these moments of delusional optimism.) I'm just glad that 1) I'm finally getting my parents off my back; 2) MONIES; 3) I know absolutely nothing about working in an industrial lab, and I've been assured multiple times that I will be taught everything I need to know about all the work that they do. *___* BASICALLY I'M GETTING PAID TO BE A NERD. I'M SO EXCITED. :3

I spent all of Wednesday-Friday running around the city to get my papers together. It was EXHAUSTING, ugh, the NBI clearance alone took 5 hours of lining up to get. Adulthood is hard, yo. I'm glad I only have to pretend to be one for a few months before I get to go back to school for another 4 years.


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I spent the first few weeks of 2011 gorging on some fabulous television.

• Fringe season 3 - !!!!!!!!!! WHAT ARE WORDS. (All my thoughts about the Entrada/Marionette arc are here.) The show is spectacular, omg, insane and exciting in the best ways, the characters lovable and compelling, the overarching storyline so ridiculously amazeballs, and just. When the show runs on all cylinders (which it has from late-S2 all the way to Marionette, imo), it just breaks my brain with how incredible all of it is. I don't know why it took me so long, but I'm so glad I'm here now, I'm so glad that I get to experience the rest of the series with a fandom that is so supportive, creative, intelligent, and as excited about all of it as I am. BRING IT ON, SHOW.


• Downton Abbey - AWESOME LADIES BEING AWESOME ALL THE TIME. Maggie Smith's glorious bitchface is just the tip of the iceberg of all the things that make this show wonderful - and that's definitely saying something. First of all, the show is a feast for the eyeballs. The cinematography is absolutely stunning, and the house they used to shoot the upstairs interiors is the definition of magnificent. All I want is to spend my days in the English countryside, you guys. More than that, though, is the powerhouse cast that portray these brilliantly complex, layered characters. There is nothing I love more than watching stiff-upper-lip-y, repressed people muddling through day-to-day life. The stories revolve around almost two dozen characters, and the writing is so brilliant that keeping up with all the ins and outs of the estate is somehow made easy. Pretty sure I'm gonna rematch the whole thing before I start work, I love it that much. I HATE THAT I HAVE TO WAIT LIKE NINE MONTHS FOR MORE /o\


• Miranda - Overdosing on awesome British TV, holla. Miranda made me laugh like no other show has for a long, long time. I don't even know how to describe it - it's a half-hour sitcom revolving around the life and times of socially awkward Miranda Hart. It's light-hearted and charming, the character interactions totally aces, and it's just unbelievably hilarious, period. I highly, highly recommend it, and you can watch all 12 episodes on YouTube.

I seriously cannot recommend these shows more, you should go and watch them. RIGHT NOW.

And then come flail with me when you're done, k


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This year is shaping up to be an excellent year for (my version of) local entertainment - RENT is being restaged in February, Next to Normal opens in March, and holy crap, In the Heights in September!!!!! Bruno Mars is coming here in April, Maroon 5 in May. I'm so excited for all of it, omg, and I'm even more excited that I'm finally gonna get to splurge a little bit on decent-ish seats for these things now.

HELLS YEAH, 2011, I'D FISTBUMP YOU IF I COULD

Tell me how your weekend is going, flist!!!!!

Happy new year, everybody!

My family and I drove two hours both ways to attend a wake on the very first day of January. She was my brother's godmother, and was a close family friend for many, many years. She was bedridden for a month and a half after a botched hysterectomy, and it was the most depressing thing ever to sit at her bedside for a couple of hours when we came to visit on December 28th. She died on the 30th. She was sweet and funny and bright and so, so loving. She will be desperately missed.

I'm trying really hard to stop thinking of her death and spending three hours at a wake as a sign of things to come in 2011. The joy of the 31st is going to bleed onto 2011 - I know it, because I'm going to make it happen.


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The 31st was particularly awesome because:


I got my new baby! This was how I christened Photo Booth - with my crazy dad who took pictures of me while I opened the MacBook box for the first time lulz

:D :D :D :D :D

It's so pretty and sleek and shiny and fast, omg, even after three days of being on it, I'm still not quite used to it. I have a DVD drive that isn't broken! I can watch HD videos! I can actually run more than three programs at a time and not have everything be slow as shit! I can install CS5 and make gifs! I have more than 30gb of hard drive space all to myself! I have working speakers! I have an actual portable laptop that I don't have to keep plugged in all the time! I can run iTunes without fearing airplane noises! I don't have to live every day in fear of my beloved machine breaking down and finally dying on me! I feel so free!

I'm kind of sad that I didn't get to say a real goodbye to my old baby, though - my tried and true Toshiba that was loyal to me for four and a half years just up and fried its video card on the 30th, and that was that. That thing was with me through all the highs and lows of my entire undergraduate career, through thousands of hours of flailing, through literally everything that I ever felt or wrote or cried about. Even at its worst, I loved it, and I won't be able to use it ever again. :( I'ma pour a forty for you, old friend.


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I never make new year's resolutions, but I'm kind of… setting a new goal for myself, I guess? I'm not allowing myself to buy/download any new books until I finish the heap of unread ones sitting in my room.

There are SO MANY of them, and the neglect really needs to stop. /o\ I feel like I'm missing so much by just letting them sit there, and that the internet is making me more and more stupid every day. I need to relearn how to sit through real literature without falling asleep. I need to live up to my online handle when I was twelve - bookworm48, lolololol. Mostly I just really, really miss words and how powerful they can be. They have always been the only magic I really, truly believed in, and I want them back in my life.

Also, I'm getting myself something truly, incredibly special if I manage to finish 50 books this year.


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It's 2011, holy shit, where did all the time go?????

I don't really have strong feelings about 2010, but I'm determined to make 2011 memorable. Big things are happening for me this year - I'm pretty sure I'm starting a temp job by the end of January, I'm officially graduating in April, and my first year of med school is starting in June. I'm turning twenty-three this year, fuck.

Needless to say, I'm excited. :D Here's to a great new year for all of us. <3 <3 <3

Or: Wherein I Speak In Insane Hyperbole And Hope I Won't Freak Any Of You Out Too Much

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Happy Thanksgiving to all that celebrate it! I am thankful to have all of you in my life. <3