I wouldn't want to be Savior.

I'm not my brother, John Connor

Things were different when he was born. Different as in being taught how to handle a gun the moment he could walk. The moment he could do anything remotely… well, just the moment he had coordination. It was something that both his mother and father insisted. Though he didn’t think that he was his mother’s pride and joy. Sometimes he didn’t think he was his father’s. Despite being younger than his brother… despite not having much to want for, he felt like the outcast.

His brother was the Messiah. The man whom would lead the Resistance. Lead mankind to destroy the machines. Save mankind. He was just there. Someone who would fall back into the shadows. Be the man whom worked under his brother’s command and nothing else. No… they were strangers. Him and John were like oil and water. Where John would lead the war, he didn’t want a thing to do with it. Though he could say that he wasn’t a part of the war till he was blue in the face. It didn’t work. And considering whom his father was…

None of that mattered. He was a stranger to his own family. To his brother. Some days he wished he’d never been born. Maybe then his parents would be proud. Then they’d only have to deal with their precious Messiah. Their leader of mankind. Their Savior.



Muse: Derek Connor [OC]
Fandom: Sarah Connor Chronicles
Words: 229

Maybe if I drink myself silly.

Think its time to accept fate.

1. My mom, Sarah

2. My dad, Derek

3. My brother, John

4. My sister, Cameron

5. Tinman Julian

6. This damnable war.

7. Myself. Obviously I make up who I am too.

8. The machines. They've got a big hand in things.

9. Schooling.

10. Being taught how to use weapons.

11. Julian keeping on my case about the war.

12. Cameron being a punk ass little bitch but it's for my own good.

13. And yet again, my big brother. Yeah, said him once already but he's a major part of this war. A major part of what makes me... me.

1. Machines

2. Nightmares

3. Her death.

4. My brother's death.

5. My mom's death.

6. My father's death.

7. Cameron going psycho and killing everyone.

8. Pulling the trigger on another human being.

9. Dying.

10. The war

11. Machines

12. Losing the war.

13. Yet again. The machines.

1. Caroling

2. Mom getting depressed.

3. John following suit though I really don't know why on that one.

4. Dad being a pain and detaching himself.

5. The anniversary of her death.

6. Trying to teach Cam about the holidays. Rather annoying really.

7. Seeing happy couples out and about

8. Old letters

9. Memories

10. Mom's video tapes

11. Cheerfulness. It's fucking annoying.

12. Being in love.

13. Neediness

How is it he can make me feel like shit without trying? It's like an art for him. I say one thing he pops off with another and it makes me feel bad. Quite frankly I despise it. And hate him for it.

1. That my mom wasn't such a militant bitch.

2. Machines didn't exist

3. She was alive

4. I didn't have tin man always on my case

5. That dad would get a damn clue already.

6. Peace among man and machine. (SO not going to happen though)

7. For my brother to quit being such a dick.

8. That there be no war to be a part of.

9. Mom to actually be happy. (She hardly seems happy anymore)

10. Cameron to be real. Not that she's not but still...

11. Me to accept my fate.

12. People to stop trying to kill us.

13. For death to come quickly.

1. Out back away from the world. Just us two and the moonlight.

2. Chest.

3. Lips. Hers were so soft. And she just had this way about her that would leave the lips tingling.

4. Stomach.

5. Back of the neck. Though she liked to add little nips here and there.

6. On the roof. Where no one could find us. Nor would they look.

7. Backseat of her dad's car. Rebels. Gotta love 'em.

8. Down the spine.

9. Swimming pool.

10. The attic.

11. Laying in bed as we watch movies together.

12. Sides.

13. In places that cannot be named in public.