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[30 Jan 2012|04:33pm] |
Ok, I'm really trying to be realistic about this, but it ain't helping.
I'm gonna preface this. I know most people don't have jobs, and I should be grateful for what I have. I also know that this kinda makes me look like an ass, but i don't care.
This last year, I was told I was going to be promoted. In realistic terms it's more of a lateral move in some respects. The thing is, because I was changing roles, I lost money. My company uses a monthly bonus system based on the number of tickets you pick and close. I stopped taking tickets. I stopped doing what would get me money and started doing this other job.
I have told my boss this. I told him that I'm losing money, and I don't think it's fair, but he assured me that I'd see this balance out.
Well today I find out what my raise is. Ok, great. I get my review as well. I hear 4 out of 5, 4 out of 5, 4 out of 5, overall a 5. Top marks, attribute our success to a lot of your effort.
He's giving me 8.5 percent. After taxes, that's 300 bucks extra a month, give or take. I gave up my bonus for half a year. Two years ago, my bonus was 4400 for the year, last year 2300...I lost 1100 dollars because of this new position. You took away money from me, didn't give it back, and then you say, oh but you got the most raise out of the entire team...and? You think I'm gonna be happy with that? You stole nearly 1100 dollars from me asshole. Of course I'm not happy.
What the FUCK! I can't even begin to process this.
FUCK
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[29 Dec 2011|09:26am] |
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Can someone explain to me how I get to work 30 minutes late when I get on the train between 8 and 8:10...yet today, I get on the train between 8:20 and 8:30...and I'm on time. This math does not add up.
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| it's amazing how much... |
[22 Dec 2011|04:19pm] |
...how much you depend on the use of your dominant hand.
My right elbow is fubar'd at the moment. I can only move it in a limited capacity.
I cannot fully extend or full flex it, otherwise i hit my pain threshold and go well beyond what i can take.
I really wish I had a clue as to what it is. I've been sick since Sunday, doc saw me last night, and I've got some anti-biotics and an inhaler to help. It seems to be unrelated to the elbow.
I can't put clothes on normally, dry myself off after a shower, wipe my ass, eat, etc.
I have it wrapped right now with an ace bandage and the pain is just simmering at like a 2.
I promise to go to the hospital if it gets worse or doesn't resolve itself within the next day or two.
For the record, I didn't bang it, overextend it, twist it, or anything else I can remember. I think it was slept on wrong.
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| Thanks everyone |
[12 Dec 2011|01:10pm] |
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Thanks for the suggestions everyone.
I'm going to take everything as it comes right now. Selina's getting a diet list or what have you from the doctor(as her mom is the doc's office manager).
I'm doing what I can. Like calming down.
This morning was the start of a running regimen, I'm using my phone and nike+ website to make me accountable by having it update/post the days i sync a run, which should be most days.
Right now i'm starting off with .62 miles. Next week it steps up to .77. It combines running and walking periods to get you an introduction to running.
Also, we're looking on getting a treadmill in the house. So during the colder mornings, maybe I can skirt by on the treadmill, but i don't think it's really a fair substitution.
I'm ditching all sugary drinks. However, I am allowing myself the sugar free mix-in stuffs.
Usually i double the water in it, so I should be more hydrated.
I have been avoiding red meat since this all started. I've also been using metamuscil. I'll be looking into more nuts as well. I can tolerate pistachios, but not many others.
The rest of the suggestions, I'm still working on incorporating or finding an equivalent.
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| I would pull my hair out but I don't want to be bald |
[10 Dec 2011|08:21pm] |
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I'm growing sick and tired of this. I got my blood drawn about 6 months ago. I failed like whoa: high everything, cholesterol and triglycerides. I thought I had been making great choices. Getting rid of red meat, more salads, more chicken and fish. Whole wheat pasta and heart healthy sauces. I just got myself rechecked. Failed again! I don't know anymore. I guess diet soda may have to join the mix. Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.
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| Getting back into the groove of things |
[29 Nov 2011|10:10am] |
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One of the biggest mistakes I think I've made in the last 10 years, is stopped writing here.
Mostly that's happened because I feel like I can't say anything here. Afraid to step on toes, afraid to offend.
Now that's not what a journal is about. I'm supposed to write what I feel when I want. Which is a great sentiment, but lets be honest, we're lying to ourselves.
We can't bitch and moan about the things that really bother us or else we'd offend the people we're friends with on LJ.
Now I'm not saying I have a reason to bitch about anyone on LJ, but I have been in situations where someone did something that I considered a transgression and I didn't have the ability to post about it here because they are my lj friend.
Again, I'm not saying it was something monumental or significant, in fact, it was probably petty bullshit that just got under my skin and I eventually just got over it.
fact is I've made some new friends  hyliancupcake and 38, and I think they are pretty cool.
New friends means a new outlook on this thing I call a life and it should mean I start changing my habits a little.
Like putting more thought into this here journal. Which to be perfectly honest, I'd like to see that my child gets to look at some day.
Think of it like this, we as a world look back at our ancestors with mystery and wonder because of how hard it can be to find information. In a hundred years from now, people will be digging up facebook posts of us and learning about us like that. Makes you wanna take down all those drunken party pics huh?
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| Woo, been a while! |
[15 Mar 2011|02:51pm] |
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And MUCH has changed.
One - girlfriend and I are still together. That's a year so far.
Two - I'm moving out WITH the girlfriend.
Three - I'm MOVING OUT!
Alright, now I have nothing else to add except...
HOLY CRAP I'M MOVING OUT! XD
I officially take over the apartment April 1. In a nice building, very clean, and the apartment is like 1000sq ft. So yea, it's pretty awesome.
It's in a building, like I said, so it's gonna be a whole new experience. I need to get car insurance, renters insurance, get the electric turned on and the cable turned on.
It's gonna be loo loo.
Any advice, tips, tricks?
We're going to ikea for nearly all the furniture, and I'm gonna splurge on a sleep number bed because I love them and I slept awesome on them. Also, it helps to have variable stiffness/softness.
Gonna probably get Optimum, and maybe flip flop between that and FiOs, and just use the yearly deals they might be running at the time to save instead of just going to the old rate.
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[13 Apr 2010|11:38am] |
So, I have officially put it out there. I have a girlfriend. after a ~7 years dry spell.
I do this with a heavy heart. I would love to shout from the roof tops, but I must approach this cautiously.
The fact is there is a lot of background to this relationship, and I would love to delve into all of it, but I don't know what's fit for public consumption.
It's a bit of a tangle, a little bit of a mess, but what relationship isn't?
The simple straight forward facts. I REALLY like her, and I really enjoy spending time with her. Smart, funny, intellectually stimulating, physically stimulating...the simple answers are usually the right ones.
So far, I've gotten only slight resistance from the family, Mom and Dad are cool, friends around me are cool, congratulatory even.
The family warns of the tangle and the mess, but even the tangle and the mess say, "Go for it. Don't let me stop you."
The simple fact is, if you flip the participants, I'd be saying the same thing to the tangle and mess.
I have to give this the effort it deserves, but parts of me will still worry.
I could very well say "I love you", it's not completely out of the realm of possibility.
I know that the rest of the story will come out in time, and I expect everyone to fall on different sides of the issue, but I wouldn't want it any other way.
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[13 Mar 2010|11:25pm] |
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Depression is back. I need to move out of this house. Parents are cool. I need out. I'm not doing the random roomate thing so I'm stuck. I may not get a new job yet, but need out. I may have to cancel the gym membership. I'm barely going :( Here's a shot of Henry rollins. I need to get more of his stuff. I felt whole watching him last night. Maybe that's where this is coming from. I'm coming down from the rollins high. 
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| an twist in the normal life |
[22 Feb 2010|11:22am] |
Well, that was an interesting weekend.
There was a point where I had an idea and I brought it up with my mother...a possibility that I could take the house and send them down to Florida. I would pay the load back to my grandmother and sink the bulk of my money to my parents down in Florida. A nice house kinda deal.
Mom wants to be near the nephew and help out. She knows that a new kid is a great thing, but hey everyone needs a break.
I'm currently stuck in New York because of my job, which is why I've made my resume searchable and targeting 3 areas.
Baltimore, MD|Naples, FL|Washington, DC
my parents are stuck in NY, because my dad has a job, but that has made a sharp change. he is the source of income here.
Fact is, things have made a very sharp turn. Dad is losing his sites that he is responsible for. Pretty much all of New England. He has to move if he wants to keep his job. Somewhere in PA, and I don't think mom is gonna swing for that. So I talked to dad and he was torn between FL and here, but could see himself down there.
So it's basically a situation of, the house in New York is here only as needed. When it's not needed it gets sold. My living here is only adding to that restriction. I get out, they can get out. Which means, I'm out.
So now, I'm actively searching, well as much as one can while working every ticket in this god forsaken company.
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[22 Dec 2009|11:38am] |
So last night I got invited to a "Business opportunity". The way my co-worker put it, sounded like a job opportunity.
Now, I only wish it was.
It was a pyramid scheme. Amway Global Qwixtar, whatever it was.
My god, what a fucking cult!
Listen, if you do it, good for you, but listen, I didn't go to school to just become a business owner, well...that's a load of crock anyway.
You're not a business owner, you're an amway global employee. If these guys didn't have a job, why were they there?
listen, I'm not smashing them for having a business model, one that either appears to be working or is generating some form of profit, but this is out. Right out.
It's what everyone else does, like Avon. Avon is something I know a little bit about. The only major difference between Avon and this was...you don't make the website or anything you just give away the catalogs and put in the orders.
Guh, now I gotta play the, GET AWAY FROM ME-game.
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| FESTIVUS - AIRING OF GRIEVANCES!! |
[07 Dec 2009|09:59am] |
I am feeling odd today, like I've got my suit of armor on with no battle to go to.
So, since I've got my think skin on, I figure, I might as well try and use this as a grievance day.
I'm feeling an early Festivus. I want an airing of grievances.
So step right up, and comment.
It could be anything! Someone you love, someone you hate, me, the person next to you.
Post it!
Anonymous is allowed.
So lets here those grievances!
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[24 Nov 2009|12:28pm] |
I have joined a dating website. Yes, I know. *Gasp, shock*
http://www.gk2gk.com/profile/details.asp?USER=423563
That's what I've been able to cobble together so far.
I don't know what's good/bad to put in there, but I'm gonna be honest, I don't feel comfortable writing that stuff. Guess, I'm weird.
So I wanna try something, fact is, I'm gonna date someone...You, my friends are gonna have to deal with her. And most surely they will have to become friends with all of you. So here is the experiment...
I want YOU, my faithful readers to write it.
This sounds like a cop-out. I'm still writing the profile and adding things to it.
Now, i'm not asking for you to be flowery and soft. No, brutal and honest. I want people who read the profile to SEE what you see because that's who I am, I am what you guys see. Well, not like that, I'm not sure how to put it. I try to be the REAL me around all of you and not some caricature that is what you expect of me.
I'm not asking for a dissertation either. A paragraph, couple of sentences, that kind of thing.
You can write about me or about the type of personality the woman of my dreams should be. That might sound like I'm asking you to write what should be coming from me, but it's not. I'm asking you what type of person you would like to have around, because let face it, if she's going to be with me, you are invariably going to meet her and spend time with her, so what qualities would YOU like to see.
If you don't understand, that's fine, just write something about me.
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[26 Sep 2009|11:46am] |
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Say hello to Stitch. My crazy cat guys marmalade Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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[11 Sep 2009|10:48am] |
Happy Birthday to mands_angelfox
HOPE IT'S A GOOD ONE!!!
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[08 Jul 2009|09:49am] |
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I didn't know her for long, but she was a sweet person, and her posts were original and insightful.
becauseshewas/Dani was found to be not breathing this morning by her significant other, Thomas.
I won't go into the whole thing, it's not my place, but I'd appreciate any well wishes or good thoughts sent her way.
She was too sweet and so young.
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[19 Jun 2009|03:53pm] |
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If there is one person or more (or several!) on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.
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| *baa baaaaa* baa baa black sheep, have you any wool, yes sir yes sir, three bags full |
[11 Jun 2009|11:14am] |
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The problem with Livejournal is that we all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other. Hence, I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don’t know about you.
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| Turns out, I still have dreams...nightmares |
[07 Jun 2009|03:24pm] |
This morning was no where near relaxing. Though yesterday, I was grateful. Went to the gym for an hour and a half, broke a 25 minutes mile. I cheated in my old gym days when we had to pass the ny state physical fitness test. At least I think I cheated. I don't remember it exactly because I was in too much pain from the stitch in my side.
I REALLY am proud of that. Though since I've started going to the gym, I've only lost about 2 pounds, maybe 3. While I would be disheartened by this, I'm not. In fact I'm really enthusiastic because while I might not lose the weight quickly, it might just be a slow process for me. And even if I don't lose weight, I know I'm doing something good for my health. So I may not be a shape I want, but I might actually be in shape.
I do need to go to the doctor for a checkup/blood test/etc. Normal body maintenance, stuff. Also, I can do a fat/muscle ratio so I can find out exactly how bad this body is. I might just have a lot of muscle and the volume of fat I've got is just making me unhappy. With that information, I can change me exercise differently. Right now, I'm doing 20 minutes on a bike, 15 to 20 minutes of upper-body muscle work, and another 15 to 20 minutes on a treadmill. I'm doing the muscle work because I think my arms and upper chest could use some definition and muscle work. If I have a significantly higher amount of muscle than fat, I may have to just zero in on cardiopulmonary (bike, treadmill, etc.) than muscle building, even though the idea that muscle burns fat, I might just have to target it more. It's kinda sad I can't do the small classes that the gym offers (spinning, yoga, etc.) but they are scheduled during the week and I can't make a damn one. So I have to stay motivated.
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[28 May 2009|09:55am] |
Beam me up, Captain. ;)
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