So guess what? I'm completely screwed.

And by screwed I mean FUCKED, completely and totally FUCKED. So I am subbing today, and got to attend a lovely staff meeting. Of course staff meetings are inherrantly boring as all hell, but basically I got to find out that there is pretty much no way in hell that I'm going to get a teaching job in this district in the foreseeable future. Ever. They're cutting everywhere to try and save money. Basically if any teaching position opens up they're going to fill it with someone who is already employed with the school district - REGARDLESS of the fact that they're qualified for that position or not. This is to "keep people from being laid off" apparently. To preserve people who already have jobs within the district. So that fucks any of us who are waiting for positions that we are qualified for in favor of someone who has been with the district longer and is not so qualified, or not qualified at all. Honestly, how fair is that? Life isn't fair, sure, but that's just royally fucking over people who would like to have an opportunity k thanx.

Basically that means I get to cling to my barely-more-than-minimum-wage retail job at a bookstore and the job I have subbing for teachers that I could teach better than but won't get the chance to. Hooray for clawing your way to a teaching licence you'll never use, paying money for something that is a worthless scrap of paper, and basically running yourself ragged for absolutely FUCKING NOTHING!!!

Needless to say finding this out on top of being sick is not helping me in the slightest. I'm angry, bitter, and just royally fed up with everything right now. Where's the justice in this world? Apparently there isn't any. I'm tired of the bullshit. So. Fucking. Tired.