First of all, thank you to all of the people that haven't deleted me off their friends list yet. I appreciate it, as it seems to me that you haven't given up on me yet. I like that.
Secondly, I hereby announce that my New Years Resolution is to use this journal regularly once more, as I miss all of you terribly and miss being apart of this community, too. I sort of stopped posting because I felt that all I was writing was variations of the same message: still in pain, still stuck in the house, doing nothing. I realize now that that outlook is just more self pity and I don't need it in my life. Most of us have a routine banal life and often write about the same thing, so why should I be any different?
I'm feeling my age lately, don't know why. I have a strange guilt about odd things, like the fact that I am 33 and still shopping at Hot Topic. Things like that. Realizing that I'm three years away from being twice the age of an 18 year old. That one really blows my mind and makes me feel like so many of these pain filled years have been stolen from me.
If you all knew how much anger I held inside about that, it would scare you away.
And I don't know how to let it go... which is another reason I need to start journalling again, to get it out and on "paper" and pray that it will lessen the anger within me. So that's it. I'm coming back, with a lot to say about a very small group of things.
I'll talk about movies and books and television too, I promise. I can't NOT talk about things like that. My great love of the new Star Trek movie for example, will definitely come up. That's provided hours of enjoyment. And I got the 5th season of Stargate Atlantis for Xmas, and bad fangirl that I am, I didn't see a single episode when it aired on TV. I was mad that they canceled it you see.
Hope you are all well. I play on Facebook quite a bit, bashing Eggs with hammers and whatnot. Feel free to add Molly J Moon if you want to see what odd things I post throughout the day.
calm
hopeful
