A Smooth Blend of Poetry and Meanness

A Smooth Blend of Poetry and Meanness

Missy

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Ready for a Vacation	[Jun. 29th, 2006\|07:07 pm] Missy
If anyone deserves a vacation, it's me!!! I now technically work full-time! And I get bunches and bunches of overtime too!! But it's ok, because I have more money than I know what to do with!! :) My little sister's birthday is on Sunday (July 2))!! And also, it is Liz Piazza's bday!! Happy early Bday, Liz!! Jonathan and I are going to the beach next weekend! YAY ME!!! I'm just excited to get to spend some time with him away from work!! Well, that's all that I have to say. I'm ready to get off work so I can catch up on sleep!! Everyone have a fun and SAFE 4th of July!!
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[Apr. 27th, 2006|07:32 pm]

Missy

[	Is at	\|	work damnit!!!	]
[	Bitchy or Not Bitchy?	\|	not-I just like the hat!!	]

Exams next week and summer vacation here I come!! Ok, really, I need a job for during the day so I can make money at the car lot and save money from somewhere else. O to be a spoiled rich college kid who doesn't have to work! ::sighs:: Not hating or anything but I could definately use some help. I work every freakin day and spend all money on gas, food, and bills. And I still live at home!

O, and I fell down the stairs last Friday.

Hopefully this weekend will be uneventful. I've got enough bruises already.

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missing the beach

[Apr. 3rd, 2006|07:14 pm]

Missy

[	Bitchy or Not Bitchy?	\|	confused	]
[	Is Listening to	\|	I Only Have Eyes for You-The Flamingos	]

Ok- so spring break's over. DAMNIT!!!!

I had such an amazing time with JW! (even tho he drank too much and got burned) I never knew how close the two of us were. Yes, his snoring is very loud, but I got used to it. We were together, just the two of us. It was wonderful. I just wish that it didn't end. I thought I was gonna cry last night when he dropped me off. I know that it sounds lame and all, but I didn't want him to leave me. I felt so alone. I don't know why, tho. He called me like 6 times today before noon. He felt the same way. Are we just pathetic?? Or is it love??

I want to live with him so badly. I swore that I would never live with a guy unless we were married or engaged to be married. I'm breaking down. I want to see him when I go to sleep and when I wake up. I shouldn't be feeling this way, or should I?

I'm so confused. I feel alone whenever I'm not with him. I stayed home from school and moped around all day until I had to come to work. Maybe soon we'll get engaged. I keep hoping and praying that he'll propose-well, he has, but not officially. It's not even having a ring, because that's stupid. I don't need a ring. I just need him, but he doesn't realize that. How and I supposed to tell him that? He's all worried because he thinks that he doesn't make enough money yet, but I don't care about that either. I just need to be with him. He's everything to me.

Someone help me. Sometimes I'm ok, but when he's not around....I feel so lonely

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He's gone	[Dec. 24th, 2005\|08:59 am] Missy
He passed away at 5:55AM I'll post funeral arrangements later. Merry Christmas
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dying	[Dec. 22nd, 2005\|05:14 pm] Missy
They told me that he's going to die. Either today or tomorrow. Merry Christmas to me.
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WEEKEND!!

[Sep. 2nd, 2005|01:44 pm]

Missy

[

Bitchy or Not Bitchy?

ecstatic

]

Auburn tomorrow! YAY!!!!

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Sad

[Aug. 28th, 2005|08:10 pm]

Missy

[	Bitchy or Not Bitchy?	\|	sad	]
[	Is Listening to	\|	American Dad on TV	]

Mr. Graham died today. He had lung cancer. I knew that he was really sick, but I didn't think that he would pass away so soon. Why is death so hard to understand? He was such a nice man. Every night at work, he would walk by my desk and make sure that I was comfortable, I had something to eat and drink, and that I had something to read. He was such a sweet man. He will be missed.

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Last Night

[Aug. 27th, 2005|12:45 pm]

Missy

[	Bitchy or Not Bitchy?	\|	sad	]
[	Is Listening to	\|	The Streets	]

Don't walk away
Don't leave me like this
I don't even deserve your time
But please, leave me with one last kiss
For all the pain and misery I've put you through
I'm sorry.
But sorry's not enough this time
I've pissed you off and crossed the line
My jealousy's got the best of me
I'm so foolish and stupid and full of myself
I love you so much and I sometimes forget that it's not enough
I don't give you your space and I don't give you my trust
If space is what you need, I can give you that
And if my trust is what you need, you've got it
But don't ever think that a moment goes by that I don't think about you
"You're the best thing that ever happened to me
And I don't know what I'd do without you"

Last night when you wanted me to sit with you... I should have
And when you wanted to hold my hand... I should have let you
And when you wanted to kiss me... I should have kissed you first
I don't know that you'll ever kiss me again... and mean it the way you did last night
I don't know if you'll ever look at me that way again... the way you did last night
I want to take it all back, but I can't do that now
I just want to go back to last night

I swear that I'll never hurt you again
You have my spoken word
Now I need back your trust

Please forgive me for what I've done....

Some people wait an etertinity to find that one person that they were supposed to be with. I was lucky, I only had to wait 18 years. I love you, Jw.

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(no subject)	[Aug. 22nd, 2005\|11:56 pm] Missy
TODAY SUCKED! That's really all I have to say about that.
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Still sick...still tired

[Aug. 21st, 2005|11:27 pm]

Missy

[	Bitchy or Not Bitchy?	\|	awake	]
[	Is Listening to	\|	the learning channel-imma nerd	]

I still don't feel up to par. Let's see...Friday night Jw & I went to Fox Valley, Double Play, & Eclipse together. Didn't stay out to late, because I had work Saturday morning. On Saturday I went to work til 2pm, then I headed to Motown. I watched Alexander. GREAT MOVIE! Ate dinner with his family...then we fell asleep ~ so much for going out on Saturday night ~ I went to my Grandad's today. I did his grocery shopping and dusted a little. Jw had to work in Tuscaloosa part of the day. I headed to his house late this afternoon. I watched Diary of a Mad Black Woman. It was good. Now I'm tired. I really didn't do that much this weekend, but I did spend some time with Jw, my family, and his family ((my other family)).

I need to get some sleep, but I'm not really tired. I hate it when this happens!!

simply me

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[Aug. 20th, 2005|11:21 am]

Missy

[

Bitchy or Not Bitchy?

mellow

]

I'm still kinda sick. But I get off work at 2 today! YAY. Jonathan got a promotion at work. He's hopefully gonna be making more money. Big shock everyone, we got into another fight last night. haha.. he was drunk, shall I explain any more? I love him though. Nothing will ever change that.
He sent me an email this morning. It was the sweetest thing I have ever read. It took me about 5 minutes to compose myself. I love him so much.
I still get butterflies in my stomach every time he leans in to kiss me. It's so perfect. It's been terrible being sick because I haven't been able to kiss him much. I must kiss him a million times tonight. I love it when he tells me I look pretty and I'm in a t-shirt and shorts with half my makeup already worn off. He's so easy to please. He loves me even at my worst. And the way he holds me when I'm upset and the world's against me...he makes everything seem alright. I don't know what I'd do without him.

God did indeed bless the broken road that led me straight to him ~tweaked from Rascal Flats

I love you, J. more than you will ever know

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Pointless	[Aug. 18th, 2005\|11:54 pm] Missy
Well, I did try to call you again...once again I am ignored. Another fight with the boyfriend. Is it worth it anymore? really?
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(no subject)	[Aug. 16th, 2005\|11:06 pm] Missy
I HATE JONATHAN. I HATE HIM, I HATE HIM, I HATE HIM. HE'S A FUCKING BITCH. SORRY TO SOUND SO HATEFUL BUT I AM. I HATE HIM!
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(no subject)

[Aug. 15th, 2005|09:01 pm]

Missy

[

Bitchy or Not Bitchy?

sad

]

My Grandad starts chemo on Thursday. We thought he was ok, but he's not. I don't know what to do now. There's nothing that I can do but pray. Please pray for him.

Sorry for the sad post, but it's all that I can think about.

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off the mountain

[Apr. 15th, 2004|03:23 pm]

Missy

[	Bitchy or Not Bitchy?	\|	stressed	]
[	Is Listening to	\|	"More Than A Feeling" - Boston	]

I can't wait for Friday to get here!! I need a break!!

I think I may have failed a Trig test today, o well. -but i did pass my Anatomy test- YAY.

On a sadder note. I went back to Tuscaloosa for Easter to watch my Mommie sing and well, I found out some sad news. I found out that a very close friend of mine had passed away before Christmas. His name was Shawn. He had a lot of problems with his kidneys and he's better off now but I miss him. My mom never told me because she was afraid of how upset I'd get. ((espically with what I was going through over Christmas)) But it was my fault for not visiting there like I should. I miss Nathan and Beth so much. My stepdad told me that Nathan asks about me EVERY day and he even prays about me every night. My stepdad and I settled our differences and he even told me that my mom really does want to work everything out between the two of us. I feel so awful for staying away for so long. I've hurt Nathan and Beth more than anyone and they don't deserve it. I'm gonna try to stay in Tuscaloosa a lot this summer and start visiting regularly from now on. I don't want to miss out on anymore of them growing up.

come again and tell me
where you want to go
what it means for me
to be with you alone
close the door and
no one has to know
how we are
-RHCP ROCK!

Anyways, there's a lot of things bothering me right now. One thing in particular. Some of you may know what I'm talking about. Everyone's given me their own advice (which is all the same). But I feel so lost. I realy don't know what to do. I just want to be happy again. TRULY HAPPY!! I hate to complain- but that's all I can do. I just don't want to dissapoint everyone. ((since I'm so good at doing that))

someone just tell me what to do......

I leave you with a quote from a friend in Tuscaloosa:
"It's better to be pissed off than pissed on."- Josh McCool

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how big is your amp?

[Apr. 13th, 2004|04:16 pm]

Missy

[	Is Listening to	\|	"Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow"- Will Hogue	]
[	Bitchy or Not Bitchy?	\|	sick	]

i haven't updated in a while. i'm so tired. i'm so ready to graduate. i'm ready for another 4-day weekend. i'm ready for change. i'm ready to grow up.

Sitting here watching you play
I wanna be w/ you someday
I wish that I could have my way
For in my heart is where you will stay
Looking in those beautiful eyes
Eyes as blue as the sky
I don't have to wonder why
I'm going crazy over this guy
I wish I could make you mine
And keep you til the end of time
-Ben helped w/ that one

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[Apr. 9th, 2004|11:29 am]

Missy

[	Is Listening to	\|	"I Could Die For You" - Red Hot Chilli Peppers	]
[	Bitchy or Not Bitchy?	\|	happy	]

At your ten year high school reunion... by robbiewriter
Your school name
Your name
Your job will be	Writer
You will be worth	$562,901
Everyone will think you	gained 50 lbs

Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

YAY! I would love to be a writer someday!
Last night was so much fun! Ben, Brandon, and I hung out at Ben's. Made a random trip to Guitar Gallery. Brandon is by far the most awesome guitar player I've ever met! He can play almost anything. We went and got Chinese and Ben amazed us with his Chinese dancing. It was great!

FNT tonight!!! YAY!! :)

I love Sancho and Slick!

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4 DAY WEEKEND! YAY

[Apr. 8th, 2004|03:39 pm]

Missy

[	Bitchy or Not Bitchy?	\|	cheerful	]
[	Is Listening to	\|	"Friday I'm In Love" - The Cure	]

The world would be perfect if:

I found my one true love
Found that angel sent for me from up above
If I could fall in love forever
All my family could live together
Ricky and Liz would start dating
All the world would stop hating
Daddy could settle down with a wife
Life was like the movie, "It's a Wonderful Life"
I could tell people how I really feel
Everyone was as random as Neal
I wasn't allergic to cats
There were more guys in the world like Matt
People could live without shame
There were more crazy people like James
I could play the guitar
Every night be able to gaze at the stars
Never again be sad
Everyone would read poems written by Chad
The world wouldn't be full of so much rage
Everyone knew my "pornstar friend," Paige
He could only be a few years older
My heart didn't feel so much colder
There were more people like Jen
More days of fun- just me and Ben
Nathan and Beth could live with me
Everyone had the ability to see
Everyone made frequent trips to the Thrift Store
No one felt the need to implore

Anyways, I haven't finished that one- so if you're not in it yet- don't feel left out!

So, FNT- who's goin??

and all was well in the world

straight thuggin yo

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GREAT MOOD

[Apr. 7th, 2004|10:42 pm]

Missy

[	Bitchy or Not Bitchy?	\|	energetic	]
[	Is Listening to	\|	David Crowder((or however you spell his name))	]

ok, chruch was AWESOME! words can't describe how wonderul i feel right now. Worship was AMAZING!! Everything that Adam said tonight related to me and gave me the hope and strength that i needed. I took Brandon with me tonight. I think we may have scared him a little but over all i think he liked it. paige and jennifer rocked out with 80s hair! ((i was just me))

i love my Paigalina, my BennyBoy, my lil Harry Potter friend and of course my HOTT LITTLE FRESHMAN ((brandon))! Y'all ROCK MY SOX!!

o yeh, driving through chandalar at night in the rain isn't fun! IT'S SCARY!!

and all is well in the world again

goodnight all

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chruch..YAY

[Apr. 7th, 2004|04:45 pm]

Missy

[	Bitchy or Not Bitchy?	\|	blah	]
[	Is Listening to	\|	"I Could Die For You" - Red Hot Chili Peppers	]

today was a better day.
i'm ready for the weekend.
i need to sleep for like 2 or 3 days so i'll be "nice" again.
i don't feel like saying anything else.

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