its been a while.

Date:	2002-01-18 07:10
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Mood:	blank

I've been sick with some kind of stomach virus lately and let me tell you, it was a shity deal. Nausea and fever all the way through.

Date:	2002-01-16 07:06
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Mood:	indescribable

Sometimes I wonder if I come from another planet.

Date:	2002-01-15 07:12
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Mood:	content

well the eye doctor said that the yellowish tint is just skin build up from the lack of moisture in my eyes and that my farsight (close up) is 20/30 (above average) and that I am slightly blind in the dark. So I have to wear eye glasses for night time (near sighted: cant see far) and that by the time I am twenty-one I will need them all the time.

Date:	2002-01-14 07:13
Subject:	meow...
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Mood:	calm

I went to go get me some new sheets for my bed this weekend.

Its up to me to say something none important at the moment.

I saw the greatest, longest movie on christmas eve... The Lord of the Rings!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its just what I imagined it in the book.

I have to go to the Eye Doctor today... I have a yellowish tint in my eyes that i dont think I should have.

Date:	2002-01-08 07:25
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Mood:	sleepy

I have had a really long vacation, but its too long to do write it at the moment though.

I have had alot of trouble sleeping for a couple of weeks and I feel like shit.

Date:	2001-12-14 07:15
Subject:	!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Mood:	bouncy

A very happieth birthday to me...
17 atlast...
*does a little dance*
*jumps up and down*
*sits down in the classroom*
*embaressed*


So anyways... I saw a really good friend of mine yesterday, I have not seen him in a really long long time. He wants to have sex with me. The thing is though is that even though I am attracted to him... and I haven't had it in ages... I think I will go with no sex with him because I have already been there with him about that and I dont want to head that way anytime soon at the moment. *looks hungry*

I think that I will go and read the third Harry Potter book to pass the time. TGIN ta ta for now!

Date:	2001-12-10 13:00
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Mood:	intimidated

Saturday and sunday I went to go spend the night over a friends' house. *sign* her boyfriend came over and whenever she wasn't looking he would try to flirt with me or touch my hand *shudder*, I have never felt so violated in my whole being. I was in conflict of whether or not I should tell my friend. The next morning (he spent the night in another room) I got up to find some food, she was asleep, he came into the kitchen where I was at, I told him that he shouldn't be flirting with me and that he needs to stop... he says "I just want to touch you" then walks behind me and grabs my ass with his hands, I dig my nails into his skin and I walk away... later on I told her what happened and they got into this argument, he denies it and I hope I shall never see his ugly face from his.

It feels like I am emotionally scarred. I keep thinking to myself "do I just attract all the creeps and bad boys?" thats not what I want though, I want someone to respect me and love me with the care and kindness that I crave emotionally and physically. But all that I have is the memories of my friends boyfriend, filled with disgust and humiliation.

Date:	2001-12-07 13:04
Subject:	Hello
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Mood:	bouncy

Kendra called me yesterday and I am so happy. I got her phone number and I am going to call her today.

I am so ready to go home, today is my sisters celibration birthday and I am going to get her some balloons because she loves them.

Date:	2001-12-06 13:02
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Mood:	bouncy

I think I will try to enter a painting for a state contest that is being held. I hope I will finish it by then.

Anyways... have you ever sat and wondered if you should be doing what you are doing. I dont. *grin*

*rattles head* I am going to go home and call some people up and find out where the hell Kendra is!

My christmas tree is up...

My sister's 4th birthday is coming up on dec. 9th and my 17th birthday is coming up on dec. 15.
*secret smile* my friend is getting me a bottle of bacardi 151.

I have got to get some new pictures, I would put one up of myself, but I dont have any recent picts, I dont like picts of me to be taken though people say I am really photogenic.

Green is the color of trees on a spring day,
as beautiful as flowers growing in May,
I wish to dance and laugh with joy,
but I'm sitting at my window with my toys.

Date:	2001-12-05 07:25
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Mood:	happy

A friend of mine gave me an early birthday present.

Date:	2001-12-04 07:13
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Mood:	curious

I think someone tried to sneak in my room in the middle of the night... I can tell because one of my window screens are partially pulled off when in the beginning, it was nailed on (it kept on falling off in the first place).

Date:	2001-12-03 07:03
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Mood:	blah

I played D&D this saturday but other than that it was pretty boring...Cleaned my room and doing the laundry and I feel a little satisfaction from it.

I am going to play D&D allday sunday with an 11th level theif with major sneak attack.

Im tired of fighting for my seat at the lunch table, screw it, i am just sit somewhere else and let all of my friends sit in that cramped space.

Date:	2001-11-28 17:00
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Mood:	sympathetic

I gave a friend a tarot reading and it was about an ex-boyfriend and the bad news was that although he loves her he wont come back and I even told her this before I gave her the reading and I just hope she doesn't think I bent the reading just to tell her that they werent ment to be together.

He's a real jerk though...

Date:	2001-11-28 07:20
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Mood:	worried

the worst posittion anyone can be in is being the bearer of bad news...

Date:	2001-11-27 07:18
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Mood:	intimidated

I've been single so long that I am starting to feel unatractive. I guess the only thing rare about me is my eyes. I dont think I am the most beautiful person in the world but I know I am not ugly.

Date:	2001-11-26 07:04
Subject:	Hands
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Mood:	calm

You will always know how a person is if you look at their hands, hands will explain everything.
If a person comes up to you and says they are a carpenter and their hands are all soft and smooth, what chance is there you are going to beleive them. Anyways I had the chance of going to a party this weekend but I decided not to go... I am not much for crowds anyways. I heard alot of people were totally fucked up. Oh well, I don't really care.

Date:	2001-11-19 07:14
Subject:	Weekends
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Mood:	aggravated

I went to go see Harry Potter this friday. I had a weird episode of D&D this weekend... One of the characters in the group really wanted the Tomb of Clear Thought we found. We all decided that we would give it to another person in the group and so the one who wanted it but didn't get it (his names T"Pinlar) so he ran away with it and so I had to go and snatch it from him, flew off to hide it, came back said I destroyed it, he hits me with a magic missile and so he ends up dead in the end and I am barely alive but still functional and really pissed off.