dearly beloved, are you listening

I'm starting to think I forget this place more than it is intended....

But as well as a personal journal from time to time, I will now also be using this place for my fan fiction when I get around to typing it all up and whatnot.

Should you be scared....yes...

But here I am, remembering that LJ exists for more than just me lurking at all the other fan fiction out there: my head gets creative too.

With much love,
Scarlet M

Mmm, I'm much less mobile than I am in real life. I don't know. I tend to be just as snarky as I am in real life, but I'm also a little more outgoing on the internet.

For the first time ever, I've ended up failing at something that should have been easy and decided to take the easy way out and give up and throw in the course that I'm doing so close to the end.

It wasn't a decision I made lightly or with a great amount of happiness, but I know this is the best thing for me, and I know the feeling of failure won't stay with me. I thought that at 22 years of age, I'd have my life pretty much sorted out about what I wanted to do, and I don't...It's scary and confusing, but I know that I WILL have it figured out soon enough.

For those that have been waiting an update with my PATD slash story, "There's Something In The Water", it will be finished by the beginning of December because I've put it off to concentrate on a subject that bored me to tears and sent me into a panic attack.

Tomorrow is the first day of the newest chapter of my life. I'll be letting people down, but I've done too much that was for other people and I need to move on to do someting for myself.

My friends are my lifeline and I can't thank whatever entity is up there enough for them.

All aboard the life changer train....

God, I'm so stupid lol

I haven't updated my fic in weeks, and for that I apologise. I haven't had the writing bug for a while but I hope to have another chapter up soon.

I've been so busy. TAFE, looking for work, seeing my dad, trying to forgive people(and not having it work out quite like I hoped) and just having a big mess in my head.

I used to be so organised with everything.

I used to have motivation.

I dream far too much...

I miss being a child...

So? The moral of this post? There isn't one. I'm just venting...

But on the bright side...
Happy birthday! Not to me. But you know who you are gorgeous girl =) I hope you had a wonderful day <3

I have a birthmark on my neck that looks like a faded hickey lol...I love how everyone looks at it and don't believe me when I first tell them it's NOT a hickey.

Continued on from jspencer1986

1. Leave me a comment asking for questions.
2. I'll respond by asking you five personal questions so that I can get to know you better.
3. You can update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You can include this explanation and offer to ask someone else in the post.
5. When others comment asking to be asked, you can ask them five questions.

( My answers to the questions the lovely James askedCollapse )

Oh my God! Don't ask me this...I love both...

Ok, fine fine...if I've gotta choose one, I'll go with ninjas. I admire stealth like that lol

I am still writing There's Something in the Water...and it is being a bitch lol. Even though I have the chapters planned out, it's not really writing itself as easily as I was hoping...

And the sequel isn't being easy either...

Let's hope I don't burn out haha.

Knitting is helping. And I'm talking to my friends a lot more these days.

It feels nice to be free =)

When my mother was dancing around the house to Kylie Minogue...the few times that I made her smile, and when she came back from the Phillippines just before she passed away because she looked so beautiful...

I miss her so much still, 7 years later. I still believe she's watching over me and my brothers and sister...<3

Spiders....people keep telling me that they are more afraid of us than we should be of them, but I live in the country where 2 of the most poisonous ones exist, so I know it is a lie. I don't have any freaking venom to defend myself with. And every time I see one, my skin crawls and I am paranoid for days on end...