Here are a few lines from the 1996 movie "Dear God" which resonate with me:

Pastor: "Confusion is good. Faith isn't arrived at easily.

It's the struggle that gives it its power and its meaning.

Tom: You still struggling?

Pastor: Every day. Yeah.

When times are particularly trying,

I try to act as if everything is as it should be, the way God intends it.

And then, eventually, I get my faith back."