Strawberry Kisses

I'm sorry it's been awhile...I can't even write much now, we have to hide a lot of things that are muggle...with the DE's running around and all. So far negoitiations have been as good as it can be when you are "negotiating" with DE's. I've been heading back to the hut lately to find Gurglemesh pale as a ghost and looks ready to collapse...I've told Charlie about it, he thinks I should talk to him, help raise his spirits.

We're pretty sure he's fighting the Imperius curse, and it's sapping his strength. I think I'll owl Remus for some chocolate. That's always a good pick me up.

Need to go...

Sorry for the kind of long wait to post. DE's have slowly started showing up, and any half-bloods need to be careful. Since I obviously am one, I have to make sure that this little bugger isn't seen. Don't think a muggle contraption would go over well.

Anyway...for fear of who else might read this, I will not reveal a lot. All I can say, is they've shown up and we're constantly on our toes. Our young Order members are doing well. I am worried about Gurglemesh, he seems a lot more jumpy now that they're here. I think this is his first field job, poor boy.

I need to go...Hatching our tomorrow, I need to have my strength up.

First what Charlie did for that week; ( A calming stormCollapse )</font>

That’s what went on Saturday night/Sunday morning.

Five new recruits are here now. I believe their names are Carol Bens, Tony Reynolds, Helga Kent, Gurglemesh Tirade, and Harvey Long. Really nice kids. (They are all so young) Three of them, Tony, Helga, and Gurglemesh—I believe—are specifically trained to fight off the Imperius curse. Which is really comforting.

We are still waiting for the DE’s to show up…but so far, so good. I can only hope they have ‘more important things to attend too’, so they’ll leave us alone!

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The rest when I can focus.

I can't say much...it's hurts...Charlie is still gone. Dumbledore is meeting today with the Ministry. He's heading there now...actually he should be there....life is a horrible thing.

I meant to update earlier, but we thought we had a lead on his where-abouts earlier. We, being Moody, Diggle, and I, went after the source. Tonks wanted to go...but we needed someone to stay here at the reserve in case he came back or someone came calling for me. I went because I know the people here, and speak a little of the language.

But it was a false alarm...it was a young couple vacationing...the young man happened to be a redhead....

Oh Charlie...come back....I wish I just knew he was safe. Well tomorrow is the last day to really start panicing. If he's not back by tomorrow, we're alerting the Ministry. Dumbledore really doesn't want to...but it's going to be nessary.

The Ministry's going to have to let others know He-who-must-not-be-named is not just in England anymore.....Missing since last Sunday....where could he be?

I don't want him to have been taken! He can't!! He just can't! He has to be alive! He just has too!

Tonks did come, she's here now. We still haven't heard hide nor hair of him. Moody thinks it was you-know-who himself that took him. Tonks keeps reassuring me that that is ridiculous. He-who-must-not-be-named has no idea who are Order memembers and who aren't. Especially one so far away from England.

I've let myself go a bit. Tonks about forced me to eat and shower (I know two nights doesn't seem like a big deal to not shower...but here at the reserve where it's dirty and grimy....it is). She keeps telling me everything is fine. That he just is really upset right now and needed time away.

I just can't imagine him not telling anyone that he was leaving. Charlie has a strong sense of responsibility, and that's just not like him. This is so hard. It's almost harder then knowing he's really dead....god if he is....

You think of so many horrible things when you don't know. I'd almost him rather be dead then him have to go through the things my head keeps coming up with.

I think the most calming thing is, however, is that Dumbledore doesn't think we should really panic until he's been missing for about four days. He's been gone two now...I can't imagine how worse I'll feel if he hasn't come back by Friday.

Tonks said that Snape should hear something soon, if they have taken him. He is in the Inner Circle...and it wouldn't be a small thing if they kidnapped a Weasley. He-who-must-not-be-named probably (or this is what Mad-eye keeps saying) has a good idea that most of the adult Weasley's are in the Order. It would be silly if they weren't. But to make such a bold move this early in the game, Tonks and Diggle think would be ridiculous.

We'll just see...I hope it is just the fights.

If he comes back in one piece, alive and well...I will love him and never ever fight with him again.

We think Pan...died. We can't find him anywhere. But too top it all off Charlie's missing. He hasn't been seen since last night. And the person only thinks it was him.

I know we've been arguing...and we've been on really bad terms...but I love him, and he's gone. I've never been so sick with worry in my life. I just wish...before he disappeared that I had told him....Merlin I don't know what to do. I've informed Dumbledore and he's sending some Memebers out to do a search. He promised me Tonks...I think he knows I need her right now...

I lost Sirius, I can't lose Charlie....I just can't.

Pan is still missing. We've looked every where. I've had him since I was a fifth year at Hogwarts (a.k.a. I was 15). I'm really worried. I want to know where my cat is!

Seeing as how I couldn't stay in my room for the rest of my life...I'm out of it. Doing my buisness once again. Working and such...

I wish I knew of someway to contact Lynn...I hope she is alright after what they all said...those horrid things...

I have been avoiding Charlie at all costs. In fact I hardly see him at all...even though we do live in the same hut. I believe he may also be avoiding me. Which I am perfectly content with. Seeing as how I loathe the dragon right now.

I am worried about my cat, Pan...I haven't seen him since before we went to Diagon Alley...I wish I knew were he went off too. It's not safe in the dragon reserve for a cat to go wandering off. Mellony swore she'd help me look for him if he hadn't shown up by tomorrow though.