My Thoughts

I’ve been with my boyfriend for a year and four (4) months. What’s good in our relationship

is that we started as friends. I’ve known him since our first year in college. Our closeness started when we got a class project which is a role play. We portrayed the role of a king and queen

. From then on we started sending messages for each other. One of my friend noticed our closeness and she thinks that the guy likes me. I never entertained that idea because I know he has his girl. But still we continued our friendship. It came to a point that he started to share everything about him. Even all his problem with his girl. I was then his confidant.
Almost 4 years of relationship, he and his girl ended. Still I was there as his friend. Until he admitted that he likes me even before he and his girl broke up. There was also a time that his girl got jealous on me. Four months after his break up, he told me if ever he is ready again to fall in love would it be okay if it’s me. Of course i told him that maybe he is just longing for his girl. It didn’t stop him from liking me. He is very consistent. He courted me for one year. I admit I’ve been so hard on him. I keep on pushing him away. I keep on telling him to win back his girl. But still he is there willing to wait and to show that he is true. After one year of courting me, I said yes to him. And that’s how our romantic affair started.
Everyday we keep on telling how much we love each other. We never stop believing that there would be a future for us. Months and months pass and our love is still flaming. Our relationship reached one year. From there, our relationship started to become shaky. We knew from the very start that we have a problem. We both have different religious belief. No one wants to give up his/her faith. Yes we love each other so much but something is haunting us every night. We are not getting any younger, sooner or later we are going to settle with the person we want to spend the rest of our lives with. And we want it to be us. We want our relationship to be forever, but how? We have different faith. And no one wants to give up his/her faith. We started to fear of the future. Are we going to end up together? Because of this issue we started to feel the distance. I started to feel that he is distancing from me. And me too from him. We talked about this. We love each other so much. But then, maybe some good things are not just meant to be. I love him so much and I want him to be totally happy even if with out me. I want him to find someone who could give him love and one who has same faith with him. Or if not someone who is willing to give up her faith for him. I set him free not because I don’t love him anymore. I let him go because I love him so much. It is so hard to leave someone you love the most. But leaving him is I guess the kindest thing to do.

What is much better: being single or having someone to love? This is just one of so many questions that I asked to myself before I said the sweetest “yes” to the one I love. To those whose hearts were broken would say it is much better to be single. You’re free. No one can make you cry. You can flirt with anybody. You will not be hurt. Most of all NO HEARTACHES.

 

I was once one of those who prefer to be single (though I’m not of those heartbroken). I’m afraid to love and be hurt. I’d rather keep my feelings than being hurt in the end. I’m afraid to take risk. But then, someone came and made me realized that it is far much better having someone to love.

 

Now, I can appreciate more the feeling of having someone who makes me free but stops me when I’m out of control. Someone who makes me cry but then wipes my tears and makes me smile. Someone who would flirt with me and knowing that it’s only me. Yes, I took all the risk.

 

I don’t have any regrets when I took the risk. Yes, I’ve been hurt but it didn’t stop me from loving him. For I know now that to be hurt is a part of every relationship. it is inevitable. And when asked again, what is better. I would say  having someone is far much better.

To my pacemaker, I know it’s always better when we’re together.

I admit I am a host of imperfection. I have many flaws. I am not as perfect as what others are thinking of. I am born to love, to be loved, to hurt, and to be hurt. I do commit mistake sometimes. I could be as good as an angel and could be as devilish as you think. In short I am just a human.

I am such a puzzle to you.  Unpredictable.  But still, you see the clear picture in me.  Sometimes I neglect you. And when i need your attention i tend to nag at you. You've been good to me from the very start but  sometimes I forget to say thank you. And when you did something wrong which is actually very insignificant  I tend to make an issue out of it.

Every now and then I could be so mean to you. Really I am a host of imperfection. I am just a peasant by some standards. But in your eyes you see me as your Queen.

With all of these I still don't know why you love me. You accepted me flaws and all. That's the reason why I LOVE YOU.

I was born on 1988 and i am an Earth DRAGON and i think i fit my Chinese animal sign. I am independent and i can say i am born to be a leader. My temper easily flares up sometimes like a dragon. Hmmm...What else...Well just read the characteristics of a dragon and that's me. There are just few characteristics that does not fit me. But overall it's definitely me. Dragon is the mightiest of all the Chinese animal sign...

i would rather be comfortable..duh,if you would go for the fashion but then your not comfortable with what you're wearing then it will not look good on you. if your not comfortable the tendency is that you will be more conscious of what you are wearing. common, it's just a matter of how you carry your self.