Yeah, okay. The new style? HATE IT. And the apparent stealth reactivation of lapsed paid accounts, general douchebaggery from staffers, and what they've got lined up for down the pike (which you have to actively look for on the Russian side of LJ)? Convinced me to make a backup journal just in case something even worse happens.

If anybody on the ol' friends list is over on DW, you'll find me at "first_writer". And yes, that's a joke. Had to make one in order to let off a little steam.

So yeah. I'll still be here. Probably not posting as much due to LJ's implosion of customer service and Internet webpage design, definitely not posting as much due to having a job as a cashier. Amazing how the retail industry can really wipe a girl out after a long day.

But rest assured, friends. I'm doing well and I <3 you all. :)

Actual conversation

Me: Hey, Mom? Where'd you put my rebate check from taxes?
Mom: You didn't give it to me. You lost it?
Me: No, Mom, I gave it to you because I might lose it.
Mom: Well, tough luck if you lost it.

fffffffff

Found out what the implied "or else" of Dad's "find a job by the end of the month or else" means. Two words: active service.

As in... shipped off to join the military.

Fuck.

Okay, so. Chunks of the house have no power. The living room, the front room, my bathroom, and Dad's bathroom all lost power. And yet, the rest of the house is fine. Only the blackout is spreading and none of the breakers have been tripped.

I am freaking out so hard right now you have no idea. the AC's down,the fridge is dead, the freezer's dead, and none of the phones work.

And all in under an hour.

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE?!

I think the virus is gone. I cleared my cache and did a safe reboot and then a regular reboot. And HitmanPro isn't seeing a trace of the thing so far. Fingers crossed.

Back. Still looking for work, sadly. At least the awkward air is gone from the house. Getting along with Dad okay now, if him sending me Reddit stuff is any indication. So yeah! I'm back and glad of it.

But my laptop is out of commission for the moment. Anime Lyrics infected it with a Trojan that installed itself into the boot master file thing. The 'Net hasn't been of much help and Sophos basically says it's borked for good. Alueros or something, that's it's name. Sooooo frustrating! Sigh... Thank God for my sister's iPod Touch and Safari.

Technical glitches aside... It's good to be back. Thank you,guys.

Taking a break from LJ. Going to try and extend it to the 'Net and/or computing as a whole. Relationship with father's gone sour and I need to devote all my time and energy to repairing it. It was my fault. I made my life the mess it is. Being self-pitying about it won't change anything. Maybe... maybe if I do everything he asks, if I devote my entire heart/soul to whatever jobs I land this summer, maybe then things will get better.

As it stands? It's not going to improve if I keep on this way. It's tense in this house. Uncomfortable. There was yelling involved. Rage. I said things I shouldn't have, did things that I knew would bite me later on, just so things could be happy and cheerful for a while. And now the blowback's come 'round.

I'll be working several jobs this summer. Tuition for next semester (and all the ones after) are on me now. Don't know if I'll go back. Don't know what I'll do even if I do. No real desire for this. No real desire for working, either. But like Dad said: boredom and misery are pretty much how the rest of my life's going to be. All that differs is how much you get paid for it.

I'll see you guys around... whenever I manage to come back here, I guess. It's been a lot of fun getting to know you all, even if I've been an absolute flake when it comes to social things. But know this: I'll miss you all. Screw what my father says. You guys?

You're the only friends I've got left.

Take care of yourselves, okay? And stay safe. All of you.

From,
Kyla

Got my sister's old iPod Touch since she moved up to a new one. We had to replace the screen, but it works perfectly. And hoo boy, it's interesting to poke through it and see my sister's tastes.

For all her "worldly music teacher-to-be" attitude, she's got bubblegum pop, Pokemon movie soundtracks, Disney songs, and Angry Birds on here. And swing music. She's been filching our old CDs and putting them on here.

Hee hee. She's a nerd at heart. :)

Good holy fucking Christ on a pogo stick, this is the worst pain I've ever been in. I hate you, wisdom tooth. You and your coming-in-perpendicular-to-my-other-molar ways. OW.

Please help, friends list. How do I make the pain stop? My dentist is full up until next week and my parents said they won't allow surgery until two weeks from now. I'm crying, it hurts so badly. Ibuprofin does nothing. Naproxin barely takes the edge off. Ice numbs it for about 5 minutes. Even the topical painkiller stuff isn't killing it entirely.

I got no sleep last night because of this thing. It hurts. It really hurts.

What can I do to make it stop?

"The universe has to move forward. Pain and loss, they define us as much as happiness or love. Whether it's a world, or a relationship... Everything has its time. And everything ends."

... *sniff* Goodbye, Lis Sladen.