mind wont shut up. when i need sleep, too tired, i cant. work gonna b hell to moro. 

if i cant figure me out, how can i even think of trying to figure anyone else out. tell me, then i’ll know. cant be imprtant then, if it not worth saying. 

talk t omeh.

just realized i dont know anyone in chch i can just randomly drop in on at 9pm.

chch is home but dunedin is home. i

i am homesick for dunedin. for being a student? no, just… the people. comfortableness. knowing it’s okay. “and feelin free, free to stand beside the ocean in moonlight”

there’s lots of ppl in dunedin i can turn up at 9 and they wont mind. i make myself at home, here is different.

oh, but i miss what never existed, only in my mind.

where am i who am i what am i? do i believe that? should i believe that? if its true, should i change? why?

i know im annoying, but, you know that i’d do anything for you.

i think it’s worth it. if i didn’t, would i still do it? probably.

i dont know. yeah.

no shells. 

dolphins!! that was exciting.

i wish i could read your mind.

i wish even more that you could read mine.

i miss you. i know you don’t realize i’m gone. 

something about not knowing how to live non-tragically…

“moods that take me and erase me and i’m painted black”

stressed over nothing, probably.

but i do love you.

friends come first.

want or need? i dont know.

i dont know anything, really. dunno why you’re asking me lol.

i dont make the plans.

head buzzing. need sleep.

how do you do that?

 

oh, none of this will make sense in the morning. whatever was wrong disappeared somehow i was happy tired today weekend cured something in me. but now physically wasted an not gonna b able to do much tomoro i start work scary need sleep stressing over not get to sleep stops you from sleeping gotta settle down relax unwind im always last to sleep need to hear everyone else, not missing out on anything

thats what i missing. community chch feel. it’s gonna take awhile.

stop type with eyes clsoed sleep. nnow goodnight i love you all take care and stay safe.

wow. random ramble. it doent make sense to you, well, you think it does to me? hah. teheh. 

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