Wow! I haven't done this in so long... I don't think I even remember how to anymore! Hahaha! My last update entry was way back in 2009!!! But here's a fact: I have missed LJ and all the friends I've made through it! ^_^

I would want to go back to being a denizen of LJ once more, but I'm not quite sure just how regularly I could keep up with the updates. >_> I can't promise anything other than to say I'll do my best and hope that it's enough. I guess part of the main reason why I haven't been quite as ardent in updating as I used to be is the fact that I think my life has become boring somehow. Hahaha! Or maybe I've become just that much less self-absorbed and I don't think people would want to read about what I had for breakfast and about that weird guy I saw on my way to work that morning... Or maybe I'm just finding reasons to excuse the fact that I've gotten lazy.

After retiring from writing for PoT fandom, I sort of just... stopped writing. 

Meh! But I'm hoping things start getting interesting again. Perhaps there are some people who would be interested to read about  this new girl that my bosses hired - that I'm training - and how she is just an absolute walking encyclopedia of everything that I learned about in AbPsych... Perhaps I'd start writing about the little things that I notice that other people usually don't... and maybe, just maybe, I'd eventually start writing them stories again.

I realize that I've pretty much neglected my LJ since I started working...

I do wonder, though, if anybody still even bothers to check up on my LJ since most of the people who used to are now over at Facebook and we tend to just do our catching up over there instead of here... >_> Hmmm...

At any rate, for the benefit of those who do still check up on me via LJ:

So last Monday, we went out on what would seem to be our last PK-ing outing for a while -- we're all in varying degrees of being broke right now.

But yeah, we had tons of fun as we had a bigger group than usual. There were the mainstays: Aread and Jake and myself; and then there were the sporadic attendees: Jedi and Suyin; and then I actually managed to talk Dianne into coming along with us, so we had another camera person. YAYNESS!

We went to East Burnaby, Metrotown, downtown Vancouver (where we had an oh-so-satisfying all-you-can-eat lunch at the Mongolian Grill at Davie St.) and then English Bay. FUN! I'd like to share with you once again the hilarity that was that day through our vid. The final edited video also contains clips taken from Centennial Beach last Sunday. Oh and yeah... that crazy girl running like a madwoman, trying to scare the pigeons away... yeah, that was me. >_>

... It's just one of those nights, I guess -- when ghosts of the past drop in for a visit and refuse to be ignored. They haunt me and hound my footsteps and thwart every attempt I make at diverting my thoughts.

I absolutely HATE feeling this way. I despise feeling sorry for myself. I will not deny that I feel utterly betrayed; and dear heavens, yes, it hurts worse than a thousand icy needles under my feet, but it's done. It's been over and done with months ago, though I was not made aware of it until fairly recently... Why is it so much easier to say, "Get over it!" than to actually get over it? What is it about him that keeps pulling me back into that quagmire of confusion and hurt?

The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference. I do not want to hate him. I want to be indifferent to him. I want to not care about him at all. I want to be able to look at him with the girl he replaced me with and be able to smile because I simply couldn't care less.

I refuse to be defeated by this. I refuse to be defeated by him. He may have shattered my heart and he may have broken every promise he's ever made to me, but I swear that I will not be broken by him. I will not.

I am the one that got away... or so I keep telling myself. Perhaps someday, I'd be able to say that with true conviction rather than just false bravado.

*glomps f-list*

Job hunting and being a camera person for crazies have pretty much been occupying my time these days. Job hunting isn't going so good. I've sent out what feels like a bazillion resumes but haven't gotten a single call back. *headdesks* I NEED A FREAKING JOB!!!

But in between that, I've been dragged around the Metro Vancouver area by Aread and Jake so I could document their parkouring escapades. By the way, I'm embedding the last video I uploaded onto my youtube account specifically for a1y_puff. ^_^ Ai-chan, you said you wanted to know what I sound like, right? Well, you can hear my random burst of ADD-ness in this video. It never shows my face (since I'm the one holding the camera), but you can clearly hear my voice during those blank screen moments. And be sure to watch until the very end of the video... I think that's my longest bit.



So yeah... I hope you had fun with that. If you're interested in watching our other PK vids, they're in my channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/lafuego

... just to let you guys know that I am still alive.

And I wanted to share the awesomeness that is this photo. It features me, Jake, and Suyin... and me, Jake, and Suyin... and me, Jake, and Suyin. LOLZ! ^_^ Mad props to Aread for taking the piccies and editing them into a cohesive whole!



I hope everyone has a great Summer! *glomps f-list*

It's 1:24am. I am beat and I really should be in dreamland long before now. But I have been mulling over something the last couple of days and it keeps bugging me and I hate feeling like this, so I thought I'd better just give in and get it over with.

I hereby serve notice to everyone concerned that I am resigning from writing for the Prince of Tennis fandom. It's not like I fell out of love with the fandom (or heaven forbid, my OTP), because I still love my tennis boys beyond imagining-- it's just that I have totally lost my grasp on how to translate them properly into fics. To put it bluntly, I just absolutely suck at writing for the fandom. T_T And I'd rather that it does without my contributions, than to force the issue and come out with a piece that seem related to Tara's My Immortal.

I will still be closely following the goings-on in the fandom, though. Besides, I can't just leave it when it gave me the opportunity to meet and befriend some of the most awesome people in the world! Speaking of which, I would like to take this opportunity to thank these wonderful people:

First off, pinksnow1986. Nushy-chan, you got me started writing for the PoT fandom. Your stories inspired me to take up writing fanfiction again and the magic of your words in your early PoT works just added to the depth of character I already saw in three of my most favorite characters: Tezuka, Fuji, and Eiji. Your later works showed me the true awesomeness of his Royal Narcissisticness, Atobe-sama. ^_^ When you agreed to be my beta, I was beside myself with excitement. Thank you so much for all your help. Thank you for helping me find confidence in my own works. And thank you so much for putting up with me and my weird fics that I had you read. Oh sweety, words will never be enough to express to you my gratitude. Thank you for the inspiration and the influence. You rock!!! And I love you!

sugarcakey, I got to know you soon after I started writing for the fandom, ne? I remember being absolutely impressed by your breathtaking Dream Pair linearts. And I also distinctly remember that you left some of the sweetest, most encouraging comments to my stories! *glomps and clings* You have no idea just how much drive I derived from those comments. It brought me the greatest joy just knowing that there is at least one Sugar-chan who thoroughly enjoyed the stuff I wrote. And now, I am so grateful that from just a common fandom that we shared, we've somehow managed to develop a real friendship. Thank you so much for the concern and the love for me that you always express. I may not be so good at letting you know, but I do hope you realize that I care for you just as much. Thank you for everything... and here's to hoping to many more years of random bursts of fangirling together!

thallein, I miss you. I rarely ever hear from you anymore, but thank you (for everything, but most especially for those two art requests that you did for me. ^_^)

I also can't leave out tsumetaitsubasa. Aaaaahhh~! Winter-chan and her adorable Ryoma cosplay! For some reason, I'm inclined to declare that your Ryoma's more adorable than the actual Ryoma! LOLZ! Thank you for contributing to my PoT fangirling.

To my two Fuji's, vierblith_tefu and a1y_puff : I love you, girls! Thank you for playing Fuji to my Tezuka. Both of you are amazing beyond words and your works are just... Wow~! I always thought of both of you as the Mistresses of TeFu... I always will. I don't think anybody could ever wrestle that title away from you. Thank you for the countless fangirling chat conferences. Thank you for sharing you insights about life, love, and TeFu with me. Perhaps you'd still talk to me...?

demonessryu, my adopted daughter who demands that I read Kama Sutra to her as a bedtime story... *sweatdrop*. I still think it's uber unfair that you know more about the technicalities of having sex than I ever would in this lifetime, but thank you for trying to share some of that knowledge with me. You've certainly made the fandom more interesting for me... and you certainly know how to turn up the heat for it. LOLZ! You are made of a thousand different kinds of win. I wuff you, daughter!

chilibreath and hakkai_sensei, I know that I've known you girls long before I ever got into the PoT fandom, but you both deserve a mention here. Thank you for agreeing to be my "pinch-hitter betas" whenever Snow-chan couldn't beta for me. Zellie, you totally win at life for beta-ing my stories so well despite the fact that you only have about 0.3% knowledge of the PoT fandom. Itoshii, honto ni daisuki da. Itsumo. Zutto. Eien ni. Yakusoku. ^_~

To all the others who've befriended me and encouraged me and left me wonderful comments: cleverlilwill, crypticmadness, dark_kana, dreaminxforxeve, fayeiii, hvid_noire, iff_u_loved_me, milkyxduckie, moehoshi, paranoid_fridge, peachy_milktea, ranningu, sasuke_fuji, syuzuka_nhowy, tacuma811, THANK YOU!!!

Before I leave off, I do realize that I have left one fic hanging... the vampire fic. Because I am a hopeful idiot, I haven't totally closed off the idea of finishing that fic. I do have the whole plot worked out already, it's just that the execution of said plot is proving to be a challenge. I won't be actively working on the fic, but IF inspiration strikes (and that's a pretty big IF), then you just might see the subsequent chapters. Otherwise... well... *bows in apology*.

Everyone, thank you for three absolutely wonderful years of fic writing! ^_^

• Last Sunday, I was heading out of the church to get to the side parking lot after church services. Joyann called out to me and Suyin and told us that Tita Ruby has been waiting in the van for us for quite a while already and that we should hurry up so we could get home. To cut the distance that we had to walk, Suyin and I decided to cut across the Sacrament hall. There, my natural klutzy tendencies manifested itself again when I tripped over my own feet. Everything that I was holding in my hands went flying and all poise and composure was lost when I found myself sprawled pretty much like a graceless frog on the carpeted floor. Three good looking Latinos helped me up from the ungainly heap I was in. I got home and realized that I got carpet burns on my left hand and my right knee from my close encounters of the third kind with the floor. F my life.
• I’ve been feeling overwhelmed and blubberingly emotional the last few days. In an effort to cheer me up, Joyann, my “wifey”, decided last Monday to take me out on a date downtown. The weather was perfect; the sun was bright and warm, but the wind was cool. We were both excited because we rarely get the chance to go out together on such a perfect day, and in our excitement, we got to the bus stop early. So Joyann and I roughly had 20 minutes to burn before the 316 bus arrived, we were the only ones in the bus stop so we pretty much had no compunctions about taking over the place, being all loud and giggly and just a little crazy. About 5 minutes into the wait, there was this car that slowed down in front of the bus stop and then parked about 5 meters from where Joyann and I were. The driver stayed in his car and both my wifey and I felt his glances from inside the car. A little later, he stepped out of the car and we saw for the first time that he was actually a really creepy old man. He looked to be in his early 50’s and he was short. He leaned against the trunk of his car and blatantly stared at me and Joyann. 6 minutes later, he moved even closer to lean against a post that was about 3 meters from us. At this point, Joyann removed the shades she was wearing and glared at the dirty old man. It’s a good thing the bus arrived soon after that. I think my wifey would have actually engaged the man in a verbal confrontation if we had to stay in that bus stop any longer. Apparently, Joyann and I are interesting to creepy old stalker guys. F my life.
  
• I was on the Sky Train earlier today, on my way to the library. I was doing my usual spacing out when my eyes landed on this actual Caucasian bishie sitting at the other end of my car. He was so pretty that I couldn’t help but gape at him. A little later on, he must have felt my eyes on him because he looked around to meet my gaze and when he caught me staring at him, he raised an eyebrow at me as if to say, “In your dreams, little girl!”. I felt a full-on blush bloom on my face and I wanted to jump out of the train. F my life.
  
• I was excited to get out of the house today because the weather forecast said that Vancouver would be having a nice sunny 16-18 degrees today. I went out looking peppy in a tank top and a light jacket. It was partly cloudy and playing around 8-13 degrees while I was out. F my life. *headdesk*

Okay... so now I'm pretty much done whining, this time I want to share something that made me really squee~!!! ^_^ I would like to thank my twin, hakkai_sensei, for giving me this reason to smile. *glomps*

( Real life bishies in a slash-y pic is always a good reason to smile!Collapse )

YAY: Gundam 00 conclusion was awesome!!! ^o^ I sort of got disheartened when I was watching the earlier episodes of the second season (because they paired off MY Allelujah with some weird girl! [ok, she's not really weird, but I'm being biased because, DANGIT! Allelujah was supposed to me MINE!!!]), but thanks to my brother's constant bugging, I got off my lazy, disillusioned ass and picked up the series where I left off the last time. And HOLY COW! I'm so glad I did! I think Gundam 00 is now officially my second favorite Gundam series, next to Wing. Pure Joy, I tell you. ( Some ending spoilers for the series. Some think the way I ranted off was amusing, but don't read this if you haven't seen the last episode yet.Collapse ) But well, despite all those things, I still seriously, honestly LOVED Gundam 00 and its conclusion. I can't wait for the movie!!! *squeee~!*

NAY: Like my daughter, Ryu-chama, I just finished watching the last episode of Kuroshitsuji. I must admit that I agree with her final verdict of the series. Well, not quite so much about the making out part, since I'm really not into shota, but they could have given us just a bit more at the end. A bit more oooomph~!, if you know what I mean.

YAY: I was chatting with sugarcakey a couple of nights ago, and she showed me this picture that just totally made my month:

Yes, people, Nowaki and Hiro-san are now married! LOLZ! WIN~!!! Thanks again for this ^o^-inducing piccie, Sugar-chan!

NAY: Skip Beat! anime seriously MUST have a second season! IT MUST!!! They can't just end the anime like that! To quote Romeo during his balcony scene with Juliet: "O, wilt thou leave me so unsatisfied?" SECOND SEASON!!! NAO!!! RAWR!!!

YAY: New SPoT (Shin Prince of Tennis) chapters uploaded in onemanga. Things are looking up so far! Can't wait for the real action to begin! Although, I must say that there's a decidedly depressing lack of Perfect Pair action going on... Konomi-sensei is such a tease! He left us craving for so much more after that Yakiniku of undying love episode!

NAY: Effing heck for Bleach and filler episodes! GUH~! *pulls out hair in frustration again*

So yeah... I guess that's it for my random bit of fangirling and series reviews... I just needed to let those off my chest.