It's weird having this journal still active and updated periodically... Too weird!

I just got myself addicted to WoW >_<

Quite a simple life right now...

*stretches and shouts* OFF TO SEATTLE, WA TOMORROW MORNING!

Damn I've been waiting for this forever! Of course I'm worried about everything, but I think once I'm on the train, I'll be fine.

35 hour train trip. Non-stop. ZZZZ... :D

Shit, I'm hyper right now. Ah I need sleep!

With all my paperwork done, all that I have left to do is to turn in that substitution application...

Not sure if I can handle tutoring, school, and substituting but I wonder if it is a good idea to give it a try. I think it's time to reset my schedule to a more reasonable pace instead of winging my tutoring and coming in at odd times... LOL.

As for my classes...well...

It's frustrating because I have little to talk about and I'm not very opinionated. I know I should be, but for some reason, I think I'm falling into moratorium. Bad timing on my behalf. Everything seems pointless and the work they're making me do is part hillarious and part interesting. I hope things change, but at the moment, things really suck.

I see future teachers sitting in their seats beaming with enthusiasm, thinking that they're going to nurture their students with love and support. They already believe that they're going to be somewhat successful because they're going to be prepared. I doubt that it is going to happen, partly because not all students are going to be equal. They learn at different rates and have different ways of learning. Not every student is going to warm up to every teachers' style of teaching.

Although I say this, I know that a good percent of those taking the class are going ot be great teachers after a good trial-and-error run. And I believe that I'm going to be one of them. I value education as much as every single person in that classroom, even though I don't show it. However, I know that I have a lot more to learn before I become a "decent" teacher. And I know I should know my field like the back of my hand, but to be truthful, I don't. People will already judge me because they believe that I have to know my field.

Must I act like all-knowledgable? I know my stuff, just give me a book to refresh my mind and I can show you how good I am. And yet, I feel that being in the history field, not all history teachers need to know the exact dates of every event that has happened in the past. I know I shouldn't be like "oh if they don't know, that gives me the option to not know my stuff too!" But at the same time, I don't blame them since they're tethered down by the California Content Standards and state exams. Teachers and students are stressed to the point where they can't maintain that enthusiasm that they had in the very beginning...

Perhaps I'm being an idiot here. I think I'm going to spend this summer reading and travelling. Re-reading my history books (perhaps purchase some good narrative versions) and experience the world firsthand. I'm going to try my best to go to as many places as possible and hopefully that'll be enough time for me to un-jam myself from this weird state of mind.

Future teachers are the scientists who must test their theories (teaching style) on unfortunate subjects (students).

That is what I believe and I want to make sure that my future students get what they need to continue on being successful. There's failure along the road, I understand that 100%, but I hope that I avoid them as much as I can. Compromise and patience... Enthusiasm is always good to maintain also.

I'm going to show the world that this little girl is going to be as successful as she envisioned herself to be! HAH!

Also, a friend of mines has an idea of opening a little joint that serves food and drinks (boba and other popular "kick-back" beverages) with a side of music (live band play). Perhaps that might just happen in the future. Sounds like a good investment since there are four minds that have that in mind. It might be possible... And if you're thinking of a bunch of questions, I have the same exact one's in mind :D

Just a thought. Perhaps an opportunity will present itself sometime along the timeline. But with California's wonderful costs, I think it'll take a lot of effort time and money. And committment is a major factor.

Heh, when I think of four, I think of the Big Four. Haha. Go History. I love it damn, I have to admit it LOL.

Shit, I think I remember the transcontinental railroad information more than anything else >_< Where is my WWI and II information? Omg, my brain!

*implodes* :O

CSULA, why are you so damn slow with processing degrees?

So when my grades were posted yesterday, I immediately visited the school to check on my pending bachelor's degree. I'm seriously in need of some financial aid and the only reason I'm not receiving any is because of the graduation department being a slow ass sloth. Of course, there's no way of speeding up the process and as I wait here, financial aid funds are being distributed to those who are more fortunate, leaving me with nothing and much to worry about. They're making me wait and there's a possiblity that my degree won't be posted till the END of spring quarter! Now the paperwork says that I'll be graduating in WINTER quarter NOT spring quarter. What the hell are they doing?

From what I've learned, there are only four people handling the whole school's paperwork dealing with graduation and entrance applications. Now why aren't there more than four people?

So I sit here worried and unable to do much else but wait. Seriously though, if they don't fucking post my degree in May (deadline is June for financial aid), I'm going to fucking pop. I'm already at my witt's end here. Why aren't they doing their job in an efficient manner? They force people out of their school because they can't get applications processed in a timely manner. Students are left with little information as to why their application is being held in limbo and little help is offered to ease the worry of these students.

They suck really bad. But I can't help but attend there, it's cheap and affordable, despite the three tuition raises over the past three years.

I'm hoping for the best here. Hope can only take me so far though.

So much to worry about...

I hate it when things always never go right from square one.

There's a good chance I'll have to juggle two jobs just to pay off my credit card that has my tuition fee on it LOL. INTEREST HURTS. I just hope I can hold onto two jobs...

Of course I'm also applying for scholarships. I need every single bit of cash I can accrue. It's the only way...

Ah shit, I hate the hole I'm stuck in.

Yoinked from Sicil~

The Johari Window: Mapping Personality

I have to say that Photography has become one of my future passions. Looking at Peter Kun Frary's pictures make me strive to make better images in the future. Of course, I can't afford a $2,000 lens but perhaps in the future, I'll be able to chase after my dream of becoming a photographer... But what sucks the most is the fact that film photography is fading quickly. Everything is going digital and it's hard to find equipment for old 35mm cameras. Shit, I actually don't want to go digital, but I do have a little digital camera I just recently purchased :D

My professor is also retiring in about two years or so and he's been a great influence. I'll be damned if I get a professor in the future who's stuck-up and a bastard >_< Shit, that's what I get for choosing teaching as my main profession first, but I still think our future lies with the children of today.

Yeah, I know. I'm weird, but I'm damned determined to achieve both goals in my future.

Become an inspiration to adolescents and become a great photographer (a leisure one, perhaps).

Oh shit, I seriously hope I don't become a real photographer when I'm near retirement! SHIT!

*runs off screaming*

Selling my collection of manga and music because it's taking up way too much room. Please be a wonderful person and help support a poor college graduate student who has shelled out over a thousand dollars (pulling it out of thin air). Feel free to poke me for a cheaper price, but don't butcher me :D I'll be posting more along the way, but this is only a small portion of my collection... I don't think I'll ever let go of my lovely artbooks though...Too precious.

Manga and Music for Sale!

All Japanese comics are in excellent condition and shipping for each book starts at $2. Please add an extra $1 for each additional book if you order more than one manga. Sets are sold as is and they will not be sold individually because it is difficult to sell the rest separately.

So please have a look. If you have any questions, I'll be more than happy to answer them and feel free to bargain! I will only accept money orders and cash (but you'll have to send cash at your own risk).

Please notify me if you're out of the US because shipping charges will change.

Enjoy and thank you for taking the time to read this!

( Star Ocean 2nd Story, Record of Lodoss War, ETC. Music & Manga!Collapse )