Memory
Last week I had this overwhelming feeling creep up on me that--I don't HAVE to remember. I don't have to remember everything that happened to me to be honest. I have always thought that I should KNOW everything that every abusive person did to me and if possible, sue their ass off and get them thrown in jail. Or at least sully their reputation. Or whatever.
But I've cerainly had the experience of my unremembered trauma sucking the life out of me, I just couldn't hold my life together and there were triggers at time that made things worse. Not remembering was pretty much taking its toll.
"Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it" (George Santayana). That seemed to be true for me. I kept getting hurt because of what I did not remember.
Anyway, it was kind of nice to feel relieved of this kind of heavy burden--all the better to relax and regroup and find a good lawyer.
But I've cerainly had the experience of my unremembered trauma sucking the life out of me, I just couldn't hold my life together and there were triggers at time that made things worse. Not remembering was pretty much taking its toll.
"Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it" (George Santayana). That seemed to be true for me. I kept getting hurt because of what I did not remember.
Anyway, it was kind of nice to feel relieved of this kind of heavy burden--all the better to relax and regroup and find a good lawyer.