Shaken Baby Syndrome
Last night I was watching tv, Desperate Housewives and Brothers and Sisters with Patty, and I heard someone say "Charly". They pronounced it 'Sharly'. I don't know if it was because it was someone who didn't speak a lot of English, or maybe a little kid or what.
Anyway, I had a dream then with "Charlie Sheen" in it--not him but my inner Charly, maybe that's how I should spell it. He was really nice, very warm, a quality I had not always associated with Charly. But come to think of it, maybe it's on and off.
When I woke up, I remembered my child-molesting aunt say years ago, that you can understand why people shake their children abusively, when they are upset that the kid is crying. I remember my dad shaking my sister and I and screaming and cussing whenever we cried as children. He picked me up and threw me. I thought somehow she was actually feeling sympathetic for him, my child-molesting dad. Then I wondered if she was talking about herself or my child-molesting mom. Maybe there is more than I know about.
There is a baby in the system, whose needs to cry. Every once in a while he or she comes up and there is completely silent wailing, it's so awful. Baby is so scared. I can't let her cry, or mabye she won't, because she'd get yelled at. I just was not allowed to cry.
Being that it was Charly who seemed to come up with the question of , one of my schizophrenics (not a nice label is it), that made me think of the shaken baby issue, I wonder if that is something that could be a cause of schizophrenia. It certainly could contribute to MPD/DID.
[somebody just came up and said hi to me in the library, I hadn't seem him in a while.]
Anyway, I had a dream then with "Charlie Sheen" in it--not him but my inner Charly, maybe that's how I should spell it. He was really nice, very warm, a quality I had not always associated with Charly. But come to think of it, maybe it's on and off.
When I woke up, I remembered my child-molesting aunt say years ago, that you can understand why people shake their children abusively, when they are upset that the kid is crying. I remember my dad shaking my sister and I and screaming and cussing whenever we cried as children. He picked me up and threw me. I thought somehow she was actually feeling sympathetic for him, my child-molesting dad. Then I wondered if she was talking about herself or my child-molesting mom. Maybe there is more than I know about.
There is a baby in the system, whose needs to cry. Every once in a while he or she comes up and there is completely silent wailing, it's so awful. Baby is so scared. I can't let her cry, or mabye she won't, because she'd get yelled at. I just was not allowed to cry.
Being that it was Charly who seemed to come up with the question of , one of my schizophrenics (not a nice label is it), that made me think of the shaken baby issue, I wonder if that is something that could be a cause of schizophrenia. It certainly could contribute to MPD/DID.
[somebody just came up and said hi to me in the library, I hadn't seem him in a while.]