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I got off for break today. <3 I wanna get a chapter up for you guys, so cross your fingers. (I'm crossing mine!) Anyway, to get the creative juices flowing I think I'm gonna try to write a Hetalia thing, it's kind of this story that me and Dori just threw together, so I was thinking about just uploading random bits.

Story: In Times Like These
Pairing: Lots. XD
Rating: T
# of Chapters: IDK
Status: ...uh...
Description: it helps to recall that there have always been times like these. -Paul Harvey
Rated For: Adult Themes, Yaoi

Happy Christmas all, and if you don't celebrate Christmas, sorry. XD

http://cedar.livejournal.com/1223.html?thread=1095111#t1095111

If you want to I guess.

:P

So, I wake up this morning to find that I'm already 20 minutes late for my first class. OTL I'm staying home, so I'm going to TRY to finish TiO3. >.< I'm sorry I didn't get it up over the break, but as soon as I decide to get some work done my teachers give me a ton of homework. All of my fun-work time has been devoted to my audition for World History Remixed, a Hetalia MEP group. So sorry I haven't been updating guys, but I'm trying. ;~;

Kay, so I managed to get alot of TiO3 done, but I'm running on empty guys. I had friends over all vacation and I can't write while they're there so I didn't get alot done until today. My friends are also the reason I got 3 hours of sleep last night and find it hard to even expend the energy to type this thing. The only thing left is the lime sherbet, and I wrote the last half of it already. I'll get it done tomorrow (maim me if I don't) and send it to Zen first thing, kay guys?

Happy Holidays everyone! I'm off early (skipping school) which means I have an extra day to work on what I need to do! I'm going to get the next chapter of TiO up by Sunday IF IT KILLS ME. Seriously, I take WAY to long to write. I wish I had some awesome excuse, but really it's just me being lazy. >.< Also want to get the edit of Ch.2 of Adventures up, since there's stuff that I need to fix. (Thank you person who's user I can't remember!) Also, I keep spotting French fails EVERYWHERE. It's bugging the SHIT out of me. XD

Anyway, I want to blurb a bit about my new obsession, but don't worry! I'm not abandoning my KH fandom! I have fallen in LOVE with Hetalia, especially LietPol. It's replaced Zemyx and AkuRoku as my OTP. XD I have a few new Hetalia fanfics in my head, but TiO, TAoRSaRS, and Confiteor are still top priorities. I want to comment on how freakishly alike me and Dori are with a few of our new roleplays. For example, she HATES Poland. Like, she hates him ALOT. XD She loves Lithuania though, thinks he's cute. And she's Russia. I love Poland, I think he's adorable and I find all those little faults kinda endearing. XD I'm Lithuania. (Neither of us are really Poland, since it would be weird. I can't be in a relationship with myself and Dori hates him) This happens with alot of our characters.

Kay, so due to the fact that I am currently obsessed with this story, and I really need to finish TiO, I'm gonna post the first part of the first chapter here, so Zen and whoever else bothers to read this can give me their opinion.

Confiteor
Chapter 1: August

:::August 2nd:::

:::Zexion:::
:::Theme: Chop Suey by System of A Down:::

    “Do not lie with a man as one would lie with a woman; it is detestable.”

    It’s right there, in the words of God; detestable. Lectivus 18:22, plain as day. He’d never bothered to look it up before, and now, sitting in his school uniform at lunch, it was unsettling to see it in text. Suddenly Zexion wasn’t hungry anymore.

    Zexion hated himself. He felt like he had betrayed his parents, slighted God and it hurt. Why did this have to happen to him? He prayed, he went to Church, he was top of his class, he had always been everything his parents had expected of him and more.
   
    But now…

    All of that was ruined. Why you ask? Because he had fallen inexplicably in love with his best friend. His homosexual, very male best friend whom his parents despised with the belief that he was wrong wrong wrong and that he was going to hell for daring to live on God’s earth when he just didn’t belong.

    Zexion had never thought that about Demyx. Recently he only thought that about himself.
   
    It was detestable.

:::Demyx:::
:::Theme: I‘m Gay by Bowling For Soup:::

    Demyx loves Zexion. End of statement. It’s just one of the basic facts of the universe, like that doge balls are magnetically attracted to glasses or that chicken noodle soup makes you feel better.

    Yep, as long as fast food is greasy, Demyx will love Zexion. It’s just unavoidable.

    …But that doesn’t make Demyx feel any better about it.

    It’s not that they’re both guys, Demyx has known he’s gay for years, or even that Zexion will never love him back, it’s that it’s Zexion for Elijah*’s sake! Loving him feels like telling a little kid that Santa Claus isn’t real.

    …Okay, and maybe Demyx feels kinda down about all the unrequited love girly shit too, but it was mostly the first bit.

    Demyx wasn’t even quite sure what the bible said about gays; he just knew that it was apparently bad. Zexion’s parents thought it was bad, they thought it was really bad, but Zexion didn’t.

    Something that Demyx had, at some point, started to love him for.

    And it didn’t matter how many times he told himself (No, bad Demyx, bad.), it didn’t help. No matter how much he told himself it wouldn’t work, because he wasn’t going to do that to Zexion; he was never going to ask Zexion to love him because that was asking him to abandon his religion and to suffer the hate of his entire family. Demyx was never going to put Zexion through that.

    But McDonald's still sells burgers, so Demyx doubted he’s stop wishing anytime soon.

*The 9th century BC Hebrew prophet. Demyx and his mother are non-observant Jews. Which means that they don’t really celebrate Jewish holidays. They still celebrate Christmas, Easter, etc.; just not for religious purposes.

UGH. Currently procrastinating. I officially HATE To Kill A Mockingbird right now. Not even kidding.

Fanfics:

Story: Take It Off!
Pairing: Zemyx/Dexion
Rating: T
# of Chapters: 4
Status: Workin' on it
Priority: 1
Description: You see Zexion? This is why you shouldn't fall in love with strippers.
Rated for: Stripper!Demyx
-Good News!: Working on it, and it will be finished. Two more chapters left people. Two more chapters left.
---Bad News!: I'm swamped with homework right now and I don't really have anytime at all to write. Plus I have no idea how to get from point A to point B at this point.

Story: Confiteor
Pairing: Zemyx
Rating: M
# of Chapters: 13
Status: Barely begun, big hole in the middle, but ending's planned out real well. ...Sorta
Priority: 3
Description: I confess to Almighty God that I have sinned exceedingly in thought, word, and deed; through my fault, through my most grievous fault. Therefore I beseech you, brethren, to pray for me to the Lord our God.
Rated for: Homosexuality, religion, borderline child abuse, attempted suicide, self-hatred, and mentions of sin
-Good News!: I really like this fanfic! :D So it's definitely up there!
---Bad News!: Trying to finish Adventures and TiO, so it's gonna take a while. D:
*For anyone wondering, Confiteor is a Catholic prayer used in extreme sin. The description is a abridged version of the English translation of the prayer that I edited to fit FF.

Story: The Adventures of Rufus ShinRa and Reno Sinclair
Pairing: RufNo
Rating: K+
# of Chapters: 10
Status: On hold, need to finish TiO first.
Priority: 2
Description: At 15, Rufus ShinRa was a spoiled brat. At 16, Reno Sinclair was a lonely kid who's only friend was his brother. And when they meet? Let's just say that poor Tseng will never be able to get his work done again...
Rated For: Mild Shonen-Ai, Tseng being an ass at the end.
-Good News!: TiO is almost done! And it's actually planned out! Plus I'm thinking about updating, I'm getting nowhere pretty fast with TiO. Anyone want to be a BETA?
--Bad News!: ...I'm me. This is gonna take a while folks.

Story: Gomenasia(?)
Pairing: RS
Rating: T
# of Chapters: 1
Status: Eh, about half done. But I need to rewrite some bits.
Priority: 4
Description: We never were very good at keeping our promises, were we Riku?
Rated For: Mentions of child abuse, homophobic mothers, yaoi, and the HORRIFYING thought of little Sora being depressed. DB
-Good News!: It's planned out!
--Bad News!: Lowest priority, and I'm not all that interesting in it right now. (Nothing that reading a few RS doujins and a marathon of the Sora Show won't fix though)

Story: Dear Mommy, Dear Daddy
Paring: None really, but it can be interpreted as AkuDemy I guess.
Pairing: M
# of Chapters: 1, probably.
Status: It goes along with TiO, unstarted. And explanation of why Dem's so fucked up and why he takes Klonopin.
Priority: 5 right now, but it could move up.
Description: Sometimes, I'm scared of you.
Rated For: EXTREME child abuse (What is up with me and that?), self mutilation, incest, and rape. (It's not explicit)
-Good News!: Will probably write this, it's one of those things that I kind of have to tell someone or I feel bad.
--Bad News!: I have no idea if I can actually write about this, I really like to not think about this kind of shit. Definitely a tear-jerker.

It's true; each of my characters is in someway or another, insane. All of us are insane actually; most not dangerously so, or even noticeably so, but all of us have issues. Our entire personality is a mish-mash of learned traits; and fears generally stem from some sort of trauma. It may have been a car crash that killed you parents or it may have been a tree scraping against a window and scaring the shit out of you when you were three; but if you're scared of something, there's a reason.

So a little bit of insight into my versions of Axel and Roxas, who are, I admit it, the sorta cliche versions of them, but I do have psychological stuff....kinda. XD

Roxas is someone with a fear of commitment; not necessarily a fear of loving someone, but of letting that person know that he cares about them. At the same time he's also aware that if he shows no interest at all that he's going to end up alone. Thus this starts an internal conflict that leaves Roxas coming off mostly as bitchy and self-centered, which, let's face it, he kinda is; but not nearly as bad as he gives off. Roxas has near no friends because almost no one can stand him long enough to figure out what he's doing. In his relationship with Axel; it's the same. Roxas pulls one way, and Axel pulls him back the other until Roxas finally stops pulling and accepts that Axel's not going away anytime soon. This is the case whether they be friends or lovers.

Axel on the other hand is the kind of person who needs to be needed; needs to have someone who can't live without him. He's obviously determined enough to worm his way into Roxas' heart (a feat worthy of the 7 wonders, I assure you), and he is of course, Axel. Bitingly sarcastic, rebel-punk-goth-badass-whatever-who's-really-a-big-softy-on-the-inside, sex god; you know what I'm talking about. I don't have an anal report on every detail of his personality like I do some characters, but I can tell you that he's terrified of being forgotten. (Damn it, I just got a new fanfic idea...) This is probably why he needs to be needed so much; Axel can never be forgettable. Aesthetically you can tell. The flaming red hair, the tattoos, piercings (I write an awful lot of AU); the guy's an attention hog. Axel's greatest fear is of dying and leaving nothing behind, of being only a footstep on the beach soon to be washed away.