This time it's car trouble. I had my windows turned down while I drove home. Well, to the computer shop, really. When I nearly got there, I wanted to have them up again so I would not forget. Did the left one first, then the right... just as the right one was on top, the one on the left came crashing down!

Whoa! It just sank bank down. Luckily, a piece is still showing up, so it will be easy to pull up again. But I drove my car to the garage so they can fix the problem. As they were closing, it'll be tomorrow before I have my car back. Either fixed, or with the window taped up.

Lovely, more unexpected costs.

Two years ago, same thing happened to the left window. So I will be able to look up what the costs are about to be. :P

In other news, I've decided on a new computer: An Asus. Don't remember more, but it's a good deal. Unfortunately for me, I have to go with Vista. So help me hope it won't be as bad as I believe it is.

Oh, and for more bad news, I was suddenly without radio and TV this evening! *gasp* Just like that, the radio gave me static. TV only gave me snow. (Imagine that, snow, and it's nearly July *g*) Luckily, my internet held. So after a while, I went to check with the neighbours. They all had nothing as well. Finally, we called. Turned out the entire province was without. Took them two hours to fix. In the hour since, I tried to find my fav radio station again. It's back on now. :D But we were entirely planning on holding a neighbour party at my place if it took too long. I was the one with alcohol. *g*

I've actually been back since Friday, but I hadn't found the time yet to say so. I got back Friday evening, and had to unpack first, while watching Spiderman. I did manage to go through my email, quickly see the boards and find out I had 200 LJ posts to go through. I went through the boards yesterday, and LJ today - which had an extra 100 or so posts since the new ep of DW. So here I am now, making myself heard again. ;)

While in Rome, I had loads to say. I still do, but I don't feel like it today anymore. But I can say that Rome was awesome. I saw most (if not all) the famous places and historical things. We took the bus occasionally, but most times we simply walked. And walked. And walked... It allowed us to see many things we wouldn't have otherwise, and that was great. I just didn't enjoy the sore muscles that much, especially when we had to walk *up* some stairs. I also aqcuired a blister, and that really hurts when walking! Got it sorted out that evening, and with some bandaid, I was fine again. 

I also found out I'm not completely over my depression yet. Being somewhere that's not familiar, and out of my safe routines, I have felt a bit sick again. To the point where I found it hard to eat at times. Even though I was with my Mom. And I am obviously not used to being around some one 24 hours a day anymore. So change is no good yet. But I have made progress in the way that I regard my place as *home*. I enjoy being alone. I'm fine at home. Since I'm going to see the doctor for other things, I'll mention this as well. Maybe he knows something that'll help me. Cause to be frank, it sucks, and I've had it before as well. I want to be able to go on holidays and be fine *and* enjoy myself. Otherwise I can't go to the US next year!

And now I gotta go back to work tomorrow. Really not looking forward to that. Especially as the good weather is coming this way again. 

I'll post more about Rome soon. And I'll get the pics uploaded as well. It's another wonderful memory.

Well, don't have much to say tonight. But figured I could make a short update on my oh so not interesting life.

I'm pretty annoyed with all the spam mail I'm getting. It varies from messages about 'stop the obese crowd', 'get in shape for the summer' to saying right out 'lose those pounds now' or 'stop being fat'. *rolls eyes* I know I'm not the thinnest, but to call me fat? The nerve! I'm perfectly happy the way I am, with just enough fat in the right places. If I would take all their suggestions, I'd be a stick in a matter of weeks. And thank you very much, but I just recovered from that. But what really annoys me about this is that if it reaches the wrong audience, more and more people will try to loose weight and thus adding to the problem youth nowadays have. Having sticks for famous people is more than enough, if you ask me.

I'm totally hooked on the new series DW. It's not the same, but it's fantastic nonetheless!

And ehm... Only a few days left till I go on holiday! I'll be in Rome on Monday. Anyone ever been there? Suggestions on what are must-sees? And I already got one request of a picture I must not forget to take, any more? Though I must warn, not gonna take too many with me on it!

Blech. I feel like I have a huge hangover. Tired, listless, headache... and I didn't even drink last night! I thought about getting a beer, but decided against it. So I don't like to imagine how I'd feel if I actually had. Could be the aftereffects of the flue as well. I don't suppose that upon being tired, and recovering, staying up all night is well advised. But ah well. Kerth night is all worth it. :D

I had a blast at the Kerths. As previous years, I wasn't really active in the chat, but I tried to stay caught up as best as I could. Anything I did say wasn't the most intelligent anymore. Sleep depriviation does that, you know. Some of my choices actually won, so I'm glad about that. But on other fronts, I can definitely notice things shifting and changing. It's simply not the same anymore as a few years ago. It's only natural, with so many new people having joined us and having their own views. But I did miss the old days. But there was something that made up for it. I was on Skype all night long with doranwen and we had a blast just talking, commenting and cheering people on. She might have convinced me to get a webcam, finally. ;)

Now for the rest of my life. As I've said before, I've been sick. It started around Monday, when I had cramps in my belly. As it wasn't the time of the month, and different cramps, I hoped it didn't mean anything. But on Tuesday, as my best friend was here, it got worse. I started to feel pretty hot suddenly, and after a few minutes, I was shivering. I got queasy as well. I went to bed early, hoping I would just sleep it off. But no... I wasn't feeling the greatest the rest of the week, but it wasn't bad enough to actually stay home. At work they said I looked quite pale (though I'm still claiming that was cause I was wearing no make-up at all!). I just took it easy this weekend. I've mostly been a lazy arse. *g* All I need to do for the rest of the day is dinner and shower. And go to bed early! But I should be fine again tomorrow, after a good night's sleep. I'll just have to take it easy for the next two weeks, so I'll be all right for my holidays.

On to my family. My mom is going to have her galblatter removed. A few years ago, it was troubling her greatly. But the doctor's hoped that if she stayed low on fat and caffeine, she could be fine for many more years to come. But the last few weeks, it has bothered her again, pretty bad. So hopefully, before the summer, they'll remove it surgically. It's a bit scary, but an easy enough operation and you can live without a galblatter.

My grandfather is home again. Hospital said he collapsed because of the pneumonia. He was treated for it, and once good enough, he had to head home. At that point, he was barely able to walk on his own, still breathing heavily and very tired. But he wasn't sick enough anymore. Go figure. He's not a 'burden' on my grandmother. She herself isn't doing the greatest anymore. She can't use her hand properly, and her neck and shoulders hurt. That in itself isn't the most worrisome, but my grandfather can hardly see and hear anymore, so who's doing the cooking? I think it's time they move into a nursing home. After all, they are 85 and 83 now. A very respectable age. But they are too stubborn to leave yet. So I'm waiting for the next disaster to happen.

And there is my aunt. She was collided a few days ago. She was heading home from work a few days ago, when a car hit her. Two youngsters were driving way past the speed limit, and caused her some severe injuries. Her bike is totally ruined, and she was launched and landed badly. She has a major concusion and a broken neck vertebra. She can't move at all, and must be pretty bored with staring at the ceiling by now. Her recovery will take about six months!

For other news, I had a guy come over on Thursday for my kettle (not sure if that's the word). A few parts had to be replaced, and so he'd turned the water on my washing machine of. Probably so he could fill the kettle again. So there I was, yesterday, about to do my laundry. I put all my clothes in, turn it on, hear the click and leave. When I come back an hour later, it's still in the same position! After some tweaking about, I discover that the water tap is still off! Grr! I hate it when they do that. For all they knew, I wasn't that smart (technically) and would have had to have someone come over...

Don't think much more happened the last week or so. That means I can go back to watching a movie. It's time for Bambi 2. *g*

Doctor Who Season 3 has started to air tonight. And I am *so* glad I have the BBC here! So I got to see it straight away. I'll be waiting for downloads too, so I can rewatch. :D

I won't give any spoilers for today, too busy writing up my *second* speech still, but also cause many on my flist haven't seen it yet. But let me tell, it's awesome! I'm gonna like Martha. Bring on next week!

Dammit! There I am, busy writing my speech for tonight, and going through all the stories once more to make sure it all fits. And then *boom* sites is down. :P Boards as well. How is a girl supposed to do her research like that? I just need to take a look at one more story, but I'm not sure which one it is again. *sigh*

Guess I'll just have to wait around... I can finish the speech at least without that last bit of info. And then I'll get back to working on the announcement I promised to write. The idea I had yesterday, suddenly doesn't seem as fun now anymore. Need to start from scratch again. And also get some sleep soon.

Will write a read update later. Or maybe tomorrow... not that I've got much to do this weekend. *g*

EDA: Dang! And just to make it more challenging, my internet went down as well. Fixed it again, obviously. But just to make sure, should it happen *tonight*, anyone willing to be my back up? For when I am too sick/sleepy or have no internet... I have the entire speech written now.

Two weeks after the US, we're finally on DST as well. I always dread it, and yet it's always a blessing. Okay, so I still lack that one hour of sleep... and I should go to bed while my body isn't tired at all yet. But if I don't go, I'll be horribly tired at work again tomorrow. Should make for a change. *g* Somehow, I've been tired at work for weeks, and happily awake and energetic during the weekend. You won't hear me complain too much. But the good thing about DTS... it's light outside for much longer! I knew that would happen, logical conclusion, but still, it's a surprise every week to actually see it. So lovely marvelous! I'm in total summer mood now. Just a shame the weather isn't moving along... too cold to start wearing my new spring outfits just yet. :P 

But I'm so thrilled! Just plain happy! About something so silly, really. But I don't care. 

*pulls her entriel flist into a happy dance*

It was pretty hard to take these. Mostly, because it's hard to show it as a whole. But really, I just blame the rain. 

I have officially reported this to the police, and I already have the report at home. Nothing will be done about it, unless the people who did this will report themselves. I have also checked now about the costs to get this fixed. It will be 1400 euros (shock!) for the insurance and 600 (ahem!) if I pay it myself. Seeing as I don't have that much (well, I do, but I really don't want to spent my savings on this) it will become insurance work. It will even take *three* days to get it all fixed. I had to add, though, that even with the insurance company paying it, it will cost me as well. :P A slight part, about 10%, is for me, plus that I will have to pay more for the insurance as I drop in my ratings. :S  But spread over the months, it will be much better.

It did make me wonder. Would people who do this to others know how much hassle and money is involved? Would you still be so willing to do it then? I can only hope that one day, they will be faced with this as well. I won't feel any regret for them. I don't mind youth pulling pranks, it's all part of growing up. :D But this is beyond a prank.

Now I bet you're all wondering how things are with my family. Well, it seems it's best to just act normal. My father will never admit he was wrong or say he's sorry. But I do not wish to put my mother between us. I could never do that to her. So we'll just act normal, but I will never forgive him. And if does something like this again, he will not get off the hook this easily. But I have made a few things clear. Now I can only hope he got the message. 

Enough of that now. It's time to put this behind me. And I'm fairly succeeding in that. I'm enjoying life again, luckily. I've booked my holidays. Next month I'll be off to Rome with my mom. It's something we have talked about for years and are now finally going to do. I'm already excited about it. The week after Easter, I'll be gone. Seeing how much this costs, I truly belief that next year, a trip to the US should be possible. I'm all up for it anyhow. So keep that in mind, my friends. :)

Well, I am off again. More Kerth reading to do...

But first, I do wish to share how cozy my living room is right now.

First of all, I have to say that my Mom is fine. She called me last night, and apparently my Dad had dinner and then stalked off to work. But she did manage to tell him how she felt about his reaction, and that only angered him more. Suits him. 

I haven't talked to or seen either today. So no idea what's it like there now, but I suppose they're mostly ignoring each other until my Dad turns around and ignores the entire situation. 

But I've had a bad night on it. Haven't slept as much as I would've liked. Though I did go to bed in time, and far as I can tell, I fell asleep quite fast. Which is unusual for me, but let's safe that for another day. Then this morning, I got up, feeling quite apathetic. Not in the mood for anything but staying in my bed. Course, being tired was also influencing that. I was mostly fine at work. But as soon as I was alone again, I started thinking and overanalysing. I'm dreading seeing my Dad again, because I honoustly don't know how that'll go or how I even want it to go. I'd like to hear an 'I'm sorry', but really, I won't get that. Will I be strong enough to tell him that's what I need? Will I be strong enough to carry through with my resolution to ignore him until he does say the words? So I'm afraid of both his reaction, and mine. 

There's something else I have to make clear to him as well. I am not his little girl anymore. Nor have I been for quite a few years now. So he must stop treating me as one as well. I'm a strong, independent, young woman who can take care of herself. I do not need him to tell me what to do or not to do. I make my own decisions, and all he can do now is offer advice. He may not like the route in life I'm choosing, but he can't force me into anything. I'm an adult, for crying out loud. Who perfectly manages living on her own. He really has to see that point now, or I'm afraid we'll only cause more hurt to each other. 

My mood has also affected me playing badminton tonight. I sucked big time. I just couldn't concentrate at all. Everything I tried just failed miserably. So I just quit after an hour. I've played, my body had it's activity and that's enough for today. 

I would like to thank everyone who took the time to talk with me. You've all helped me more than I can ever say. You know who you are. :)) 

Also, on a totally unrelated note, is my English improving again? I have a feeling the grammar is better again, and that my vocab is returning (I'm using bigger words *g*). I let my control of the language slip the last year, but I'm doing my best get back to my UK level.

Oh, and btw, I was doing so good. Please don't let me fall back into my depression again!