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Alright, a list of television shows, if you will...:

Need to Start
Star Trek Voyager
V
Flash Forward (Canceled)
Supernatural
Dexter
Dollhouse (Canceled)

Started, not finished
Rubicon
Legend of the Seeker
The Listener

Started, Catch Up
Justified
Lie to Me
Criminal Minds
The Big Bang Theory
Smallville
Mad Men
Being Human
Luther

Re-watch
Star Trek: The Next Generation

Note to self: add this to your memories as a checklist.

Am I forgetting anything? You guys can help with this.

( SUCK AND FAIL.Collapse )

Can I just skip to next week?

I don't want to have to think about NOT being able to see my friends in the show and have to wait until the DVD comes out for me to see it.

yeahhhhhhhh....it doesn't really hurt me that much NOW, but I having a feeling it will when the show starts and I start seeing all of these people comment on facebook...argh.

...because that's what I'm doing as of right now.

Just when I thought things were going well. Just when I thought that perhaps I was actually doing something right in my mother's eyes, it blows up in my face at the mention of a trip to FL.

Now, I KNOW that I didn't plan the trip very well. I'm very willing to accept the consequences of my actions, but to mother I'm still the very ungrateful, nonchalant, uncaring, irresponsible, know-it-all who doesn't want to help her family, financially, in the VERY least and thinks of no one but her and her friends.

I'm also SICK of being called scatter-brained. I have a lot of things on my mind...WHO DOESN'T?! This is why I carry a planner. But that's not enough for mom. It's NEVER enough.

The car has broken down...AGAIN. It's an old car and I don't really have the money to fix it. If that weren't enough, student loans will be rolling in soon.

I paid for my flight and now I cannot refund the ticket. *shrugs* I'm out almost 200 dollars, but I'm willing to just lose that rather than my whole checking account. Still it's not enough...

I know what I need to do, but she's just making it harder for me to think. Today, I don't feel like doing anything. I'm not focused, I'm unmotivated....

...I need to study for GREs and finish researching grad schools. I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS. But, NO, she has to get in my head and make me feel worthless. Thanks MOM.

YOU HAVE BEEN SUCH A GIANT HELP EMOTIONALLY. Good LORD, I just feel like THROWING SOMETHING.

Dear God, please keep me from doing something stupid.

Love, Jackie

this is EXACTLY how I feel today...

( being productive...yeah, it's what I do..except for right now when I am actually updating my LJ, but other than that, it's the TRUTH.Collapse )

( If I lived to be old and gray and then died without having done work in the film industry, I believe my life would have been wasted.Collapse )

( me thinks someone stole a scene from HP3 that contains a hippogriff...I'm calling it! :PCollapse )

( another one! :DCollapse )

( whoa, it's not a rejection email. say whaaaaaaaat?Collapse )

Does this mean I have an interview? I think I'm going to wait to be excited. I mean, it's a government secretarial job (not my major, but I'll effing TAKE IT!) in Boston (LOVE.IT.THERE.). I'm not getting my hopes up yet. *chills out*

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