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August 14th, 2005
08:47 am - Moving...
Well, I moved into my new apartment yesterday. My dad, Jeremy, and Jenny just left and now I'm all alone with all of my junk everywhere :(
I wish Jenny didn't have to leave, she's been the best friend I've had in a long time. I miss her so much...
...help... :(
Current Mood:  sad
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May 12th, 2005
09:32 pm - Stress
Everything is so beyond my control right now that I can't stand it.
Since I got a job down at VTech for the summer they are handling my summer living situation. This is all well and good, except for the fact that, oh dear, they don't have enough apartments for all of us so it looks like two people in each apartment will have to share a room. However, we are all still paying the same amount for rent, and they are leaving it up to us to duke it out with our future apartment-mates whom we have never met as to who gets their own rooms. This is not a good situation. One person has emailed me back saying "I'd really like to have my own room". No. Kidding. So this is good. No word from the other two girls and I leave for camp in less than two days. I move to Virginia two days after I get back from camp. I'd kinda like to have this whole thing figured out as soon as possible, but seeing as how I don't have access to email or cell phone reception at camp, that is not going to work out. Wonderful. And as soon as I get down there and meet the people I will be living with this summer, I get to meet the girl I will be living with next year and go apartment hunting and sign a lease with HER. All in less than two days. Yeah, you could say that the stress level is starting to rise a bit.
Some days, for a fleeting second, I wish I wasn't going to camp just so I would have more time to get ready for this summer. But mostly I just can't wait to get to camp, even if it means the rest is crazier. I'm sick of everything right now, and I really need to get away and rest (not that camp will be restful, but it will be quiet and isolated). Why do I feel like shutting out the world these days? I just don't know.
Ugh. So stressed.
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April 28th, 2005
11:09 pm - Broken Windshield
So, I wish I could say that my drive down to Blacksburg this afternoon was uneventful, but no. As I was driving south on 81, in the right lane, a car in front of me in the left lane decided that it would be cool to throw ICE CUBES out their passenger side window, directly into the right lane of traffic. I saw them bounce in front of me but there was nothing I could do. They hit my windshield and cracked it in multiple places, and scratched it up pretty much all over. WHO DOES THAT?!? Who throws ice cubes out their window directly into traffic? I am soooo mad. Now I have a new windshield to add to my list of things that I have to buy in the next few months. Terrific. *insert angry blow-job AIM smiley here*
Current Mood:  pissed off
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April 26th, 2005
11:34 pm - Madrigals
Well we just had our last Madrigals performance tonight. I wasn't prepared for how sad I was right after. I guess it just never hit me that this was the last performance I will be in with this group, and it's been a really fun group to sing with all year. I'm really going to miss it next year. I need to find another small a capella group to sing in at Virginia Tech.
So, yeah. Bummer. I have pretty much nothing to do tomorrow. Anyone up for something? I'm meeting Emily (and maybe Katie?) for lunch at some point, so that should be fun. I can't wait for this semester to be over.
Good and bad news about finding a job this summer: Good~I sent my application and resume to Anteon yesterday, with a little luck I will land this awesome internship and will make tons of money and can quit at the Picture People (sorry Dani!) Also good...there is a professor at Virginia Tech who works in Biomathematics who has offered to work with me this summer. Bad~ I won't get paid. BUT I would have a huge head start, probably get onto his research grant soon, and would be able to work on a dissertation, make connections, and just in general suck up to the math professors. So that would really be nice as well. I'm not sure what to do.
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April 24th, 2005
03:21 pm - Pat McGee Band rocks my face off
"Nobody told us
That love could break us
Now I see it all
And it's the last time
I'm begging for some
Some kind of love"
"I don't want
You to be over this now
I can't stand this pain anymore
You were the best of love
What was I thinking of?
I don't know"
Bad news: I just finished playing around on my guitar for over an hour and now the fingers on my left hand hurt so bad I can barely type.
Good news: I'm getting much, much better :)
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April 19th, 2005
11:01 pm - Thoughts
It's been a while since I actually posted about stuff that's been on my mind. Not in months, really. Since the summer. Well I guess it's never too late.
Things have been interesting the past few weeks, and not in a good way. I haven't been in good moods, everything has been bothering me a lot. Not sure how to get out of it, either. Hopefully time will be the cure.
School is depressing me because I don't really have anything to do. I'm taking two and a half classes, neither of which provide me with a lot of work. Choir is winding down and will be basically over by next week. My piano recital is over. My senior projects are done. I only have one real exam. It seems like everyone else around me is swirling in this busy world that I am not a part of, and I feel really lost. No one is around or has any time, and I have entirely too much time. I haven't heard back from any of the internships I applied for, which makes me sad and makes me appreciate even more what a great summer I had last year. Both money-wise and else-wise. I miss it so much. So it looks as if I will be spending the summer at home working at the Picture People which I both hate and love simultaneously (but after a month or so just plain hate) except for the awesome people that I get to work with (yay Dani).
And I'm scared about next year. My first real move away from home, 5 hours. Looks like I have some good potential roommates though, some days that is the only thing that keeps me hopeful.
*Sigh*. Too much thinking. Too bad I can't stop, ever.
Oh, and everyone and their mother is getting engaged/married this summer. What the heck.
Current Mood:  blah
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April 15th, 2005
12:53 pm - it's TONIGHT people
My piano recital is tonight for those of you who need a reminder. 7:30pm in Levine Recital Hall. Hope to see you there!
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April 12th, 2005
04:26 pm - Piano Recital
Ok all you LJ stalkers, I know you read this. So you are ALL invited to my piano recital this Friday, April 15, at 7:30pm in Levine Recital Hall. If you need directions add a comment and I'll get them to you. It should be about an hour, if that, and then there will be yummy refreshments afterwards. It would mean a LOT to me if you can be there, thanks!! =)
Oh, and there will most likely be some drinkage afterwards back at my apartment which you are all invited to as well. We have a living room with some couches if you want to crash here for the night. See you then!
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April 5th, 2005
12:43 pm - Graduate School
Well, I have done it. I sent in my acceptance today to Virginia Tech. It was a really hard choice, but it looks like Virginia Tech will be better for me for at least the first year of graduate school. They do a better job of preparing you for teaching, and of easing you into the level of coursework required than NC State seemed to. Of course, I will be much poorer at VT than I would have been at NC State. But hopefully it won't be too bad. I have accepted the fact that I am going to be poor for the next 6 years of my life. So, while I am excited about my decision, I am also a bit apprehensive. Those of you who know me well know that I worry all the time, and I am still worried that I made the right decision. I think I did, but the offer from NC State was so nice that it was really hard to turn down. I wrote them a nice letter expressing my thanks and telling them that I am still interested in attending their school for my doctoral work. Depending on how next year goes, and on how much I like VT, I may stay there to finish my masters and then move on, or if I don't like it I can always transfer after next year. But at any rate, for next year VT has definatley stood out as the best choice. Beyond that it's hard to tell. I'm trying really hard to take it one year at a time. That's not easy for me to do, but here's hoping. And of course, being with Joe next year isn't going to hurt either :) So...that's what I finally decided. Wish me luck everyone!
ANNNNNDDD....PLEASE come to my senior piano recital, next Friday, April 15 at 7:30pm. If you need directions just IM me or comment on here :)
Current Mood:  anxious
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March 22nd, 2005
09:33 pm - Help...
Ok loyal readers, I need your opinions. I am completely torn between going to graduate school at either NC State or Virginia Tech. Here's what I've got, tell me what you guys think:
NC State:
Large department, lots of variety +
Large department, so less personal attention -
Lots of applied math research w/ opportunities to get on Research grants in the first or second year +
Can go straight into PhD program + & -
But I also need to get some teaching experience, so -
In a city, so lots of stuff going on nearby +
In a city, so it's crowded, there's no parking, it's loud and noisy -
No luck in finding a roommate thus far -
They gave me a TA ($13,000 plus health insurance), plus a fellowship for an additional $2,000, plus lots of opportunities for summer support (teaching, research, etc) +++
Far from Joe and family (provided they don't move to San Diego...) -
Graduate students and faculty very friendly and helpful +
Math building is quite possibly the ugliest building on campus -
But they are getting a new building in the next couple of years +
Claim to have a good bus transit system, but I barely saw any buses running while I was there -
Parking permits cost $250/semester, if you're lucky enough to get one -
Virginia Tech:
Large department, though not quite as large as NC State +
Probably get more personal attention +
Lots of applied math research that looks really interesting, but master's students don't really get involved in that + & -
Everyone starts out in the master's program + & -
They really ease you into teaching +
Town is very small, basically consists of the university -
Town is pretty, relatively quiet, and the university brings in lots of events that otherwise wouldn't come there +
Campus is gorgeous, parking is not a problem at all, and the bus system is amazing ++
No luck in finding a roommate thus far -
But Joe would be there next year +++
But after that year he'll be leaving -
They gave me a TA ($13,000 plus 70% of health insurance) +
Some summer support available, but not for the whole summer and not guaranteed -
Closer to home (if that stays in MD) than NC State +
Graduate students and faculty very friendly and helpful +
Hmmm...am I forgetting anything? Let's add up to totals here:
NC State: 0
Virginia Tech: 8 +
So right now it looks like Virginia Tech is winning, but I still don't know. They seem so equal in my mind right now. I'm also toying with the idea of getting my master's at Virginia Tech and then going elsewhere for my PhD, maybe NC State. I wasn't really planning on that before, I was thinking I'd just go straight for the PhD. But the difference is basically just one year, if that. So I guess that doesn't really matter. Ok you guys, help me out here!
Current Music: Danny's Song
Current Mood:  stressed
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