and now to drop the professional bullshit and get onto my incoherent, immature ranting. I really need to let it out, homies.

my main issue:
"Even if it wasn't crystal clear from Oren's player that the torment was to be telepathic/psychological only, there's no excuse for getting physical without making absolutely sure."

um jsyk? it actually does matter. because I was not given any other reason to believe that a physical fight was out of the question. and idk about you, but I don't second guess every thread I'm in. when someone says, hey let's do this. I do that.

so bee-tee-dubs, your request was for kicking your character around. you mentioned telepathy, but you did not specify telepathy. sorry, but I'm playing the villain and I thought I had freedom with how he acted like a douche? I'm open for requests, but a waffle-y 'it would be good' doesn't do it for me.

if it was specifically what you wanted? um, honey? ---> my ooc post. post in it. request me.

further bee-tee-dubs: as far as I know? I'm the only semi-evil character in game. everyone else is a butt patting rainbow fuck. (mean that in the best way possible) it would not be difficult to locate someone to 'kick around' your character. cuz uh. there's like only one character who'd be open to doing it. <--- me.

which you should know, because um... 2/4 of your chars? have scened with my villain before. both times he has attempted to hurt them, physically, with a sprinkling of mindfuck. (like knowing their names because of their thoughts)

also please don't throw 'it's only RP etiquette' bullshit at me. you told me what was wrong, I fixed it, and then you went to the mods anyway without talking to me. if I can't even get the respect of, 'hey you're not doing this quite right' before you whine on me, then no. no rp etiquette for you. (also, uh. please don't make me sound like I wanted to spite you? because I have better things to do than spite people on the internet who I don't know and *originally* had no problem with)

second problem:
This doesn't devalue my opinion of them as a person, I'd just like it if from now on they asked me before they physically attacked my characters. It's RP etiquette and I deserve it as much as anyone else does.

hi, welcome to contradictory clusterfuck of a sentence.

if someone treated you in a way you thought was shitty, would -you- not have a lesser opinion of them?
my point exactly: please stop trying to act like the better person. because you're epically failing.
um should I ask if my characters approached you at all? 'hi my character is within a 15 block radius of yours, is that alright?' or maybe if they use the same street? are they allowed to eat the same breakfast brands?
reiterating my first point: you wanted to be attacked. I attacked you.

please go suck my dick and find out it's an ak-47.

and once again: you didn't give me the respect of a person that was worth informing, soooo... no?

third:
If I'd been asked about a physical attack, I would have had a chance to say no.

cool story bro. if I had been told this wasn't what you wanted, I would have had a chance to change it.

thanks for that.

fourth:
We are not trying to be harsh or unfair; rather, the rules are in place to ensure that the game is fair and welcoming to all players.

hi, i'd like a pairoducks.

so by putting one player's voice over the other, this is reinforcing the 'welcoming' vibe you want to send? sorry, can you redirect the satellite dish, I believe I'm in the deadzone.

and my last point has no quote but
jfc please don't make me sound like a child who doesn't know how to RP. this greatly offends me, especially since I took into great consideration -especially- not to godmode, and I try my very best to please the other player as well. I didn't want to spite you, or hurt you, or any of that bullshit, but thanks to all of this:

mods and player? you have lost a great deal of respect.

also if I were to meet you irl, I would punch you in the face.

ty for making me feel nauseous for the past 24 hours due to your extreme fuckery.

tl;dr: so tired of whiny pussies.

edit: ALSO DON'T FUCKING PRETEND TO NOT BE A MOD WHEN YOU'RE ON THE MOD TEAM AND YOU'RE "SAFE" BEHIND YOUR VEIL OF ANONYMITY

I had an issue in a game I was in very recently. Obviously the problem was with me, and of course I don't personally agree with the end result, but I wish to know others' opinions.

General outline of the events, followed by the specific emails that give more detail (Names will not be deleted out, because I am not getting anyone in the game involved with this, as I do not want to cause OOC drama for the game):

- Oren (the other player, a vampire) had requested for someone 'who'd be into tormenting an emotionally vulnerable vampire.'
- I volunteered my demon, Wolf.
- We started the thread.

Keep in mind, the next few parts are placed in the exact order the events happened. I personally find it important the way these events transpired.

- Some way into the thread, Oren-mun (the game is anonymous) had requested we stick to psychological torment. (In the thread, Wolf had been starting a physical fight.)
- I agree, and my next tag reflects this with no physical abuse.
- The mods respond to my tag, effectively closing the thread.
- I email wondering why.
- They email me back.

Now, to the meat of the post. Very long, but here you go (the mods link the OOC plot thread, but OOC is locked for anyone not a member. But they had highlighted the important points anyway.)

( Cut so I won't make my journal terri-longCollapse )

i have developed a fascination with toitles today. that zombie boy? he was onto something. i like toitles too.

http://www.squishable.com/pc/squish_tortoise_15/Big_Animals/Big+Squishable+Tortoise

yesss...

a day of work tomorrow, thursday off, friday off, then prerelease time!! I'M SO EXCITED AND HAPPY ILU POKEMAN CARDS. ILUUUU.

saturday must come faster so i can go and lick the new cards

and i hope tomorrow we don't have much shipment... and if we do it's something cool. like. like. WAGES.

*is soooo coooool*

FWARKJWIOJAGH EXCITED must wake up early tomorrow to rematch misty over and over and then jasmine and then chuck.

TOMORROW IS GYM LEADER BONANZA

i have a weird thing with names. being referred to as my real name is kinda weird to me, tbh. i'm used to hearing aliases like bap, or orvel or strigi, and if someone calls me otherwise it's a little strange.

i should so change my rl name to bap

sorry is a really hard word to say. you gotta swallow up summa dat pride and bend over for other people, and hope they don't stick a knife in your butt, but instead they tell you to stand up and that it's cool.

but even though it's a hard word doesn't mean you don't say it. life is hard. you gotta do difficult things. and sometimes you get the knife in your butt.

but some people are cowards and don't say it ever and it bites. because I know I've apologized to people, and I remember the occasions I got the knife in the butt very well. afterall, I got metaphorically knifed. ...in my butt.

it especially bites when the people who knife me in the butt are the ones who don't apologize to me.

I've said sorry on occasions, gotten yelled at, had an argument, and then later got yelled at again for not saying sorry when it was the first thing I said. that hella kicks your pride in the face I'm tellin' ya.

if you hurt someone, apologize. because it means you recognize the fact you hurt them, and that you want to remedy it. you're acknowledging the pain which is a good thing because that's what like... IDK GOOD PEOPLE DO?

look why am I saying this? I did something once, nothing bad at all, it was a normal everyday for-fun thing. I got yelled at, a person freaked out on me. now in the present? that same person is doing what I did to themselves. I'm sitting here like what I got freaked out on, but you're doing it now yourself.

another thing: flakes. stop flaking you flakers. flaky people piss me off. especially if they're hypocritical flaky people. you can't freak out about something and then turn into the thing you're freaking out about. that's not right. you owe a ton of people an apology. you know, all those people you flipped out on like a crazy cat lady?

so sick of people flipping out on me. I flip out jokingly a lot, but I honestly don't think I flip out for serious that often, if at all. (but if you think I do, pls tell me. I like to keep my facts straight.) so it really feels like the world keeps slapping me in the face when I don't do anything wrong, and also I don't fight back. >_>

tl;dr - WHINE WHINE WHINE

I need more icons ffff.

my life's been pretty boring the past few days.

I wanted to make a comic around this superhero guy I made up, but the setting and stuff ended up being all wrong so I was like *SCRAPS* RAWWRGHFFFF.

...I think I'm going to buy more pokemon cards tomorrow. I really should stop lol. ;____; but pokemon's like a huge part of my life. I've had it in my life since I've been in kindergarten. that's like... 13-14 years I've been addicted.

POKECRACK.

and it only gets worse as I become more self-aware. because I realize that yes I need this.

I remember in elementary school, we weren't allowed to have pokemon cards. which btw, is really stupid because yeah zomgz, grade school is so serious business that kids can't play around with some cards during recess. >_> at any rate, I remember the lunch monitor lady took my deck and I cried rofl. (she gave it back, but you know when you're eight, what happens in the present is life or death.) I remembered this today, and I'm like 'gosh sooo lame,' but then I thought about it. And I realized that if she did that to me today I'd verbally beat her face in. maybe literally too.

it is absolutely ridiculous what they don't allow in school, and while I'm like 'wow I can't believe I just dealt with all of that without complaining at the time,' I'm also like 'wow seriously kids can't put up with it and move on?'

if there's one thing I hated the most about school, it was the back and forth bitchfest between adults and kids.

zomgz let me listen to my mp3 player
zomgz no
zomgz yes
no
whyyyy
because i'm an adult
w/e *listens to mp3 player*

/facepalm

I think I'm a little adverse towards teachers now because of school tbh. >_> but no lie, I didn't like the majority of my fellow students either but... yeah. I think I just have a problem with authority atm. it'll probably blow over.

*SMASHES BUILDINGS*

ANARCHY!!!

loljk.

101 HOURS ON HEARTGOLD! FUCK YEA! SEAKING! (which I've seen a lot of because the past three hours have been me trying to fish up corphish, but instead I get goldeen and seaking.)

VICTORY MUSIC

oh jesus i'm so sleepy bye

it feels like my life is stuck in limbo. and when I say that I don't mean it in a bad way (sort of) but it feels like it's everyone else that has stuff happen to them, for good or for bad. and then anything that happens to me is kinda... meh?

like everyone has had emo moments. and everyone has probably had moments where they wanted to break and just end themselves, but each moment with each person is different. you have people who're like me who're kinda effed up in the head and confused and have no direction in life, and then you have people who have been put in mental hospitals because their uncle and evil aunt beat them and they tried to kill themself.

just want to say: I do feel bad for abuse victims. totally not ragging on them.

and it's like these extreme situations almost cheapen what people like me go through--the people who don't go through zomgz crazy emotional roller coaster insane news story lives--like, 'hey what you're going through isn't that bad, get over it.' but the thing is even if from an objective view on the idk... TERRIBLE SCALE it isn't as bad, it still feels terrible.

...IN THE END, I'm just rambling about this because other people seem to get sympathy and attention and hugs and all this stuff but I personally never feel like I do. >___> <---jealous, selfish bitch syndrome.

or even like.. I'm surrounded by graduation stuff at hallmark, and no one gave a shit about me graduating. I know I didn't. the hell were my balloons and cards and gift money from all my relatives? ORITE NON-EXISTENT. or birthdays, or christmas or any celebration really. none of that was ever made a big deal for me.

I FEEL LIKE I DON'T FEEL. or that what I feel isn't legitimate because other people have gone through worse, or better or w/e.

it feels like there's something wrong with me but then I'm like, maybe this is normal! and then I keep going back and forth and I DON'T KNOW.

ROAAAWRRR