crazy drama attention whore - emotionally retarded
it feels like my life is stuck in limbo. and when I say that I don't mean it in a bad way (sort of) but it feels like it's everyone else that has stuff happen to them, for good or for bad. and then anything that happens to me is kinda... meh?
like everyone has had emo moments. and everyone has probably had moments where they wanted to break and just end themselves, but each moment with each person is different. you have people who're like me who're kinda effed up in the head and confused and have no direction in life, and then you have people who have been put in mental hospitals because their uncle and evil aunt beat them and they tried to kill themself.
just want to say: I do feel bad for abuse victims. totally not ragging on them.
and it's like these extreme situations almost cheapen what people like me go through--the people who don't go through zomgz crazy emotional roller coaster insane news story lives--like, 'hey what you're going through isn't that bad, get over it.' but the thing is even if from an objective view on the idk... TERRIBLE SCALE it isn't as bad, it still feels terrible.
...IN THE END, I'm just rambling about this because other people seem to get sympathy and attention and hugs and all this stuff but I personally never feel like I do. >___> <---jealous, selfish bitch syndrome.
or even like.. I'm surrounded by graduation stuff at hallmark, and no one gave a shit about me graduating. I know I didn't. the hell were my balloons and cards and gift money from all my relatives? ORITE NON-EXISTENT. or birthdays, or christmas or any celebration really. none of that was ever made a big deal for me.
I FEEL LIKE I DON'T FEEL. or that what I feel isn't legitimate because other people have gone through worse, or better or w/e.
it feels like there's something wrong with me but then I'm like, maybe this is normal! and then I keep going back and forth and I DON'T KNOW.
ROAAAWRRR
like everyone has had emo moments. and everyone has probably had moments where they wanted to break and just end themselves, but each moment with each person is different. you have people who're like me who're kinda effed up in the head and confused and have no direction in life, and then you have people who have been put in mental hospitals because their uncle and evil aunt beat them and they tried to kill themself.
just want to say: I do feel bad for abuse victims. totally not ragging on them.
and it's like these extreme situations almost cheapen what people like me go through--the people who don't go through zomgz crazy emotional roller coaster insane news story lives--like, 'hey what you're going through isn't that bad, get over it.' but the thing is even if from an objective view on the idk... TERRIBLE SCALE it isn't as bad, it still feels terrible.
...IN THE END, I'm just rambling about this because other people seem to get sympathy and attention and hugs and all this stuff but I personally never feel like I do. >___> <---jealous, selfish bitch syndrome.
or even like.. I'm surrounded by graduation stuff at hallmark, and no one gave a shit about me graduating. I know I didn't. the hell were my balloons and cards and gift money from all my relatives? ORITE NON-EXISTENT. or birthdays, or christmas or any celebration really. none of that was ever made a big deal for me.
I FEEL LIKE I DON'T FEEL. or that what I feel isn't legitimate because other people have gone through worse, or better or w/e.
it feels like there's something wrong with me but then I'm like, maybe this is normal! and then I keep going back and forth and I DON'T KNOW.
ROAAAWRRR