Transformation : a change or alteration, esp a radical one

Change is inevitable in our lives most of the times. However, transformation is under a rather extreme circumstance — similar to but not the same as change. It’s often more difficult and challenging going through transformations. Why? Some may experience the good while some of us (unfortunately) experience the bad. Well, throughout my (almost) two decades, I’ve experienced both good and bad transformations. The process through these experiences weren’t smooth at all. Ask someone who’s had gone through these experiences in their lives and they’ll tell you so.

The best is yet to come.

Keep your faith!

Believe in yourself! 

Stay positive always!

Yes, I’ve heard these so many bloody times. And I do believe that many of us are tired of hearing these at the end of your transformation. A new beginning comes right after an ending. I’ve always thought to myself, “How long must I be suffering? When can this end? Should I do this? I just feel like giving up sometimes! How can I stay positive in these circumstances?” At times, I want to cry so badly, but I kept telling myself to be strong.

Look how far you’ve come!

It’s an absolute great motivation when we remind ourselves of how proud of how far we’ve come. Yes, that’s the way to stay positive, you guys! Keep up the great work thus far! I’m clapping for you in spirit!

But this wasn’t often the case for EVERYONE. Well, that includes me as well. Things haven’t been going the way that I’d expected it to be — not the smooth, miraculous & positive ones. Everything around me have been so depressed, uncontrollable, all scream & shouts. Yes, so how long more do I have to withstand all of these? I’ve tried so hard to be good, positive & keep the faith in everything. Honestly, I’ve done my best in everything I do but I just don’t understand what has been / is happening.

So, I’d like to ask again…

How long more should I wait till a miracle happen to me?