Writing
001. Six Days With a Princess - Gwen, Arthur, OC-who-would-become-Vivian
002. Second Kiss - Arthur/Gwen
003. Alone With You -
Part One / Part Two / Part Three / Part Four / Part Five / Part Six / Part Seven / Part Eight / Part Nine - Arthur/Gwen, Merlin, Morgana
004. Santa Claus Doesn't Visit the Cosmetics Department - Modern AU - Arthur/Gwen, Merlin, Morgana
005. And Old Lang Sang - Modern AU - Arthur/Gwen, Morgana, Merlin
006. Promise - Arthur/Gwen, Sir Leon
007. New Beginning - Gwen
008. Mending Hands - Arthur/Gwen, Sir Leon
009. Lost in Camelot - Lost in Austen/Modern AU/Canon crossover - Arthur/Gwen
010. Healing Heart - Arthur/Gwen, Sir Leon, Morgana
011. Hearts in Accord - Arthur/Gwen
012. Three's Company - Modern AU - Arthur/Gwen, Gwen/Merlin, OT3ness
013. Hold Your Terror Close - Arthur/Gwen, Merlin, Gaius
014. Crown of Love - Gwen, Arthur/Gwen, Merlin
015. Mouth Wooed Her - Modern AU - Arthur/Gwen
016. If You Rescue Me - Gwen, Arthur, Merlin
017. Good Morning Love - Arthur/Gwen, Merlin
018. Color of Gladness - Arthur/Gwen
019. Wild Frontier - Arthur/Gwen, OC
020. Your Heart is Phosphor - Arthur/Gwen, Lancelot, Merlin, Gaius, Uther
021. As Written for Strings - Gwen/Morgause, Gwen/Merlin, Gwen/Arthur
022. Awaiting Sunrise - Gwen/Arthur, Merlin, Gaius, Uther

(Ganked (sort of) from kepp0xy!)

well hello darlings ♥

it's been a while, so before i write the obligatory "this is my life post" i thought i'd start things off with a meme:

Comment on this post with a simple pleasure -- something small and ordinary that makes you happy. I will then ask you five questions. And you can either take them back to your journal and repeat, or just answer them here!

conversely, you can ask me five questions in the comments if you'd prefer not to open your journal up to such, and i'll answer them here. any topic, i don't really care; just trying to get my gears greased up and working again ♥

first i just want to say thanks to everybody who's been leaving really thoughtful and compassionate comments on some of my recent entries. idk what's up with me, because usually i can cope with revisiting and replying to everything, but lately it's been tough. so if i didn't write back, i am still beyond grateful for your positive thoughts and vibes for me, my family and my family friends. ♥

I MENTIONED a little while back that my mom just got engaged. well, she asked me to be her maid of honor, which is super cool ... even though her only other bridesmaid is the little sister, lol. the only two groomsmen are going to be my little brother and her fiance's son. i guess the idea is to make a cute little quasi-blended family up at the alter. i have no strong feelings about this and am mostly trying to be supportive of what she wants to do, but one distinctly positive outcome of this whole situation (beyond the impetus to get in [better] shape and also find a date for an event nine months from now) is that i get to wear an awesome dress ... and my mom seems not to mind me looking super hot and awesome in her wedding.

i went home two weekends ago and she took me to try on a couple bridesmaid dresses spur of the moment. olivia and i aren't going to wear the same thing since we're 12 years apart, but i found pics of the top two contenders ... and she seems to be down with me picking the one i prefer. they're both $200, which is completely reasonable, and both really pretty. my mom still has to settle on color, but we (livey and i) will both either be in cream or taupe.

( maid of honor dressCollapse )

and even if you have no thoughts i hope u well ♥

this is silly and braggy, so i am giving myself a smack on the hand already, but ...

i have talked (a while ago) about the fact that my aunt (my mom's first sister) is an actress/director with her own production company. she's had a pretty good career as far as people in film and tv go, and because she's been working so long she is good friends with a lot of actors and industry people, and has been an invaluable resource to me.

anyway, so one of said close friends is viola davis who has done a lot of great work over a long period of time, and was nominated for the best supporting actress oscar i think two years ago. i first met viola when i was super young, bc she and my aunt we're pals as soon as roz (the aunt) came out of yale, and she's come around to a lot of family stuff in the fifteen years or so that have passed. i haven't had a big interaction with her maybe in the last six ... but she's been off getting famous and making hella cash and being fantastic, so it makes sense.

ANYWAY, on my birthday last friday, roz made a little birthday video for me, my uncle mike and my mom (the uncle and i share a birthday, my mom's is the next day). she posted it on facebook, and viola commented ... which already had my heart a little fluttery. THEN, to my utter surprise, she friended me the next day(!!!).

OK SO i am so over facebook and basically only check it when it occurs to me to (ie every couple months/once a year), and facebook has become such a meaningless mechanism that i know this kind of shit is no big deal and we've known each other a long time, even if we haven't really talked to each other in a very long time.

BUT i still got all excited bc 1) i can see her friends, many of whom are a very big deal and 2) it's still cool JUST BECAUSE. between roz and my mom (who somehow knows a lot of actively working writers in hollywood through her last job), i realize i am connected to many more people that i might otherwise be and i am grateful and also a little star struck sometimes.

... so i missed my best friend's birthday a couple days ago. we haven't talked in a couple weeks because every time we do, she asks when i'm moving to LA (not soon) or when we're going to go party in vegas again (in a while). i get sick of having to answer every question in the negative, esp because these particular questions just remind me how cushy her job and how little money i have. however annoying that may be, i am still a shitty pal for messing up on this one.

since she does live way on the other side of the country, i figure i have a window to buy my way into an apology by getting her a really good gift and a well timed, very long catch-up letter. any ideas, flisties? she likes video games, food, science fiction & booze. my idea (a really good mixologist's guide) was already co-opted by her sister.

(apologies to those of you who i've already bugged for ideas ♥)

HOORAY, there is no greater excuse for updating my long-dormant journal ♥

according to both science and my mother, i'm going to be 24 this coming friday.

at first i met said news with the requisite angst; i don't dig the idea of getting older. i'm not happy that my career plans are basically non-starter at this point since i got distracted by all that "oh shit, i have to lead a real life" stuff, and when i permit myself, i get sad that my most recent potential relationship was derailed by a move to beijing. i'm not in the town that i want to be in (at least for now), i make less money than i would like, and i still get hung up in my family drama.

but i did realize this evening that, though there's a lot i have to do to change my circumstances, i am fairly content with entering this new ~mid-twenties phase of life. i think 24 is going to be a good year ... perhaps misguidedly. and tomorrow i can blame alcohol, good food and today's mood to listen to bounce-fest music. but today, i started to piece together how nice it is to begin to feel settled with who i am in a way that i certainly didn't when i was in high school, or a college freshman, or that moment when i graduated and all i wanted for an entire year was to be back in school.

i won't pretend that i am immune to constant insecurity and the deceptive sway of depression. every time i get into a rhythm of shit that makes me feel good (working out most days, on my meds, etc), i have a nasty habit of abandoning those elements since "i'm fine." i don't dare think that i am above or beyond pulling that same shit again since it's happened so many times before. but i think - in this middle-phase where i am right now - i can also see that i am growing in a way that, while criticism and the usual bullshit from the inside still hurts, the stuff from the outside does less. i'm not tripped up by external voices so much. and though while it sounds small, it feels big.

i don't mind attributing the positives to 24. and when it gets here at the end of the week, i'll keep chalking the good stuff to that number. better that than getting hung up on my one gray blonde hair.

I've been at work nearly an hour and a half now, and all I've managed to do (aside from arranging and rearranging the things on my desk) is spend way more money than intended on my little brother, whose 17th birthday is tomorrow and has every expectation of a bevy of presents under the tree on the 25th with his name on them.

Have you done your holiday shopping yet, flisties? Are you giving presents? Any suggestions for a dad? The only characteristics I assign to my pops are "doctor" and "nerd," and I am sick of giving him slippers every other year.


♥

Lil' Sis: So ... when do you turn 24?
Mig!: *collapses in a fit of tears*

it's just after 1 o'clock ... again

i wish i were doing something exciting with this time, but i think i should force myself to sleep right. now.

As though the clusterfuck that is now the House of Representatives weren't enough, I came across something deeply troubling ... in a very LOLWUT way.

The Pepsi Refresh Project is this excellent grant program which awards money on a monthly basis for ideas to fund great ideas. These ideas are aimed at ideas for making a positive impact in one's community, awarded on a monthly basis and voted on at the Project's website.

There's a write up at Unfunny Business. But short story short: Harry Potter fandom's Fiction Alley wants $25,000 to update their site and servers.

... Now I love me some HP, and back in the day I was all over FA. But. ... But.

But.

I just took five minutes to vote for some actually-community-oriented ideas at the $25,000 giving level (they award $5k, $50k and $250k) - like build a no-kill dog shelter to rehabilitate abused dogs on some lady's land, start an aquaponics program to grow lettuce for healthy school lunches, and bring art to children with visual and hearing impairment. If you have five minutes, I'd highly encourage you to browse and cast a couple votes as well.

Basically every idea on that site > getting grant money to run a fansite. :/ Prioritesssss~

So I accidentally hiatus ... ed. So much personal drama, so much lyfe. I will be much more attentive my darling friends. ♥

In apology, this (merci beaucoup pally). It's making me crack the hell up, but maybes I'm weird:



uno: fandom, quit exhausting me
deux: life, quit challenging me
three: everything else, please be awesome

Living in Washington usually ain't no thang, but when I rolled onto tumblr this morning i was most excited to be greeted by this:



Colbert | Stewart

I am so there.