let it goooooo, let it gooooo, can't hold ME back anymooooore
I obviously update my LJ roughly never but as I tweeted earlier this year:
This means a lot of things.
This means body positivity - yeah I'm a little fat. So be it. I have lovely eyes and nice tits. Boom.
This means self respect.
This means recognizing when I can do better, and not settling for something that is degrading and painful - namely in relationships.
This means recognizing that it's just not worth fucking trying with some people - again, if someone is causing me pain and making me feel less than loved, they. are. not. worth it. If this means backing out of organizations or other activities that I used to love, so be it. Environments and situations can change drastically but people rarely do.
This means indulging myself, with some limitations - it is okay to love ice cream. It is okay to eat pizza. It is okay to wear a big slouchy sweater and worry less about impressing other people. They will be more impressed if I'm comfortable and happy.
Of course, I should really take the stairs, or walk to the coffee shop rather than drive. And when I do? I'm going to celebrate my successes.
It's a little strange, I kind of put America on hold when I was in Korea? which is how unresolved situations from 2012 popped up again, because I kind of forfeited half of 2013... to have my OWN. ADVENTURE. All mine. No boy trouble, a predictable amount of friend drama but nothing drastic, god. I am so fucking proud of myself for pulling off Korea, even though there were definitely times when I wanted to scream from frustration (usually involving a language barrier or my struggles with language classes). You can do it. Love yourself, treat yourself to some fucking adventures.
The friends I do have, and the surprising amount of love and care that comes out of Twitter, were a rock in 2013. They've continued to be so in 2014. OASIS has been totally exhilarating, mostly because I'm not the sort of person who usually reaches out and makes new friends, or joins new groups, or does something that makes me nervous or uncomfortable.
SO. In attempt to be more positive, more grateful, and less passive-aggressive, I think I'm going to take up journaling again. It's really cathartic.
For 2014, my resolution is to be respected and to have the courage to walk away from shitty situations and shitty people, and to love myself.
This means a lot of things.
This means body positivity - yeah I'm a little fat. So be it. I have lovely eyes and nice tits. Boom.
This means self respect.
This means recognizing when I can do better, and not settling for something that is degrading and painful - namely in relationships.
This means recognizing that it's just not worth fucking trying with some people - again, if someone is causing me pain and making me feel less than loved, they. are. not. worth it. If this means backing out of organizations or other activities that I used to love, so be it. Environments and situations can change drastically but people rarely do.
This means indulging myself, with some limitations - it is okay to love ice cream. It is okay to eat pizza. It is okay to wear a big slouchy sweater and worry less about impressing other people. They will be more impressed if I'm comfortable and happy.
Of course, I should really take the stairs, or walk to the coffee shop rather than drive. And when I do? I'm going to celebrate my successes.
It's a little strange, I kind of put America on hold when I was in Korea? which is how unresolved situations from 2012 popped up again, because I kind of forfeited half of 2013... to have my OWN. ADVENTURE. All mine. No boy trouble, a predictable amount of friend drama but nothing drastic, god. I am so fucking proud of myself for pulling off Korea, even though there were definitely times when I wanted to scream from frustration (usually involving a language barrier or my struggles with language classes). You can do it. Love yourself, treat yourself to some fucking adventures.
The friends I do have, and the surprising amount of love and care that comes out of Twitter, were a rock in 2013. They've continued to be so in 2014. OASIS has been totally exhilarating, mostly because I'm not the sort of person who usually reaches out and makes new friends, or joins new groups, or does something that makes me nervous or uncomfortable.
SO. In attempt to be more positive, more grateful, and less passive-aggressive, I think I'm going to take up journaling again. It's really cathartic.