it's easy to hate yourself
the general problem with life is that it's difficult to define parameters of "success".
"success" for me, right now, with no large time obligations in the roughly 3 weeks until I leave for a semester in Korea, is doing something instead of sitting on my ass all day online.
something, though!
it could mean trying to navigate Yonsei's ridiculous online course catalog and try not to have a mental breakdown about it.
it could mean trying to teach myself a little more Korean because I've pretty literally forgotten everything.
even stupid shit most normal people consider leisure activities:
it could mean sitting down with a book, preferably a classic or something that I've been meaning to read.
it could mean setting up the Wii Fit, going for a jog (never going to happen) or something to facilitate this whole weight loss thing I've decided I'm moderately more serious about.
it could mean pulling up a recipe I've pinned on Pinterest and attempting to cook something, preferably of the healthy variety (see above).
it could mean actually finishing Assassin's Creed III or Pokemon Conquest - yes, even video games count, because they're something I've been meaning to complete.
it's so stupid. instead I find myself refreshing twitter all day, attending to Happy Street or Pocket Planes or one of my other completely mundane and mindless iPhone games.
the only thing I've done today that is beneficial to anything is play with my dog for maybe a half hour. and listen to some new bands on my Band of The Day app. and decide to eat carrots instead of more Chex Muddy Buddies. (I have an obsession with muddy buddies THEY'RE TOO GOOD. DIET RUINERS.)
the impulse would be to blame my inability for anything to hold my attention on my ADHD, but that's the easy way out. for now, I'll call January 22nd a "day off" and get my shit together tomorrow. right? TOMORROW. GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER DAY. (there is a running theme with my LJ entries. namely that I can't get my shit together.)
"success" for me, right now, with no large time obligations in the roughly 3 weeks until I leave for a semester in Korea, is doing something instead of sitting on my ass all day online.
something, though!
it could mean trying to navigate Yonsei's ridiculous online course catalog and try not to have a mental breakdown about it.
it could mean trying to teach myself a little more Korean because I've pretty literally forgotten everything.
even stupid shit most normal people consider leisure activities:
it could mean sitting down with a book, preferably a classic or something that I've been meaning to read.
it could mean setting up the Wii Fit, going for a jog (never going to happen) or something to facilitate this whole weight loss thing I've decided I'm moderately more serious about.
it could mean pulling up a recipe I've pinned on Pinterest and attempting to cook something, preferably of the healthy variety (see above).
it could mean actually finishing Assassin's Creed III or Pokemon Conquest - yes, even video games count, because they're something I've been meaning to complete.
it's so stupid. instead I find myself refreshing twitter all day, attending to Happy Street or Pocket Planes or one of my other completely mundane and mindless iPhone games.
the only thing I've done today that is beneficial to anything is play with my dog for maybe a half hour. and listen to some new bands on my Band of The Day app. and decide to eat carrots instead of more Chex Muddy Buddies. (I have an obsession with muddy buddies THEY'RE TOO GOOD. DIET RUINERS.)
the impulse would be to blame my inability for anything to hold my attention on my ADHD, but that's the easy way out. for now, I'll call January 22nd a "day off" and get my shit together tomorrow. right? TOMORROW. GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER DAY. (there is a running theme with my LJ entries. namely that I can't get my shit together.)