My Year of Improvement
This is the year when I get better, back to my baseline, or at least a reasonable version of it. This is the year I stop having to use a fucking walker half the time in the house, the year I manage to get outside and walk farther than just to the bottom of the stairs. This is the year I can go to events and use the damn wheelchair FOR LONG DISTANCES ONLY! This is the year I get better at conflict checking devices as well as onomastics. This is the year I get back to bardic her and there, too! This is the year I finish programming that game I was working on before the flare, and publish it somewhere, maybe on a website where others can play it. This is the year I can do a full sun salute without falling.
THIS IS THE YEAR, for all that. Some I can work on in little combinations; like the SCA stuff, or the stuff with regard to exercise, the stuff with regard to work. But I can do it.
Because, I know myself(s), and I'm only about half of that just now. I also know that I *still* have two active lupus flares, the most challenging being the CNS one. For example, when I woke around 1pm today, I had barely any memory of a storm, or any of the events of the past few days, so I had to look them all up. So... yeah, I know that some of this is going to be really challenging. However, when I first joined the SCA I had an active CNS flare, and I managed to do bardic, and evntually heraldic, stuff. And the gods only know I was writing during that entire time.
I CAN DO THIS.
THIS IS THE YEAR, for all that. Some I can work on in little combinations; like the SCA stuff, or the stuff with regard to exercise, the stuff with regard to work. But I can do it.
Because, I know myself(s), and I'm only about half of that just now. I also know that I *still* have two active lupus flares, the most challenging being the CNS one. For example, when I woke around 1pm today, I had barely any memory of a storm, or any of the events of the past few days, so I had to look them all up. So... yeah, I know that some of this is going to be really challenging. However, when I first joined the SCA I had an active CNS flare, and I managed to do bardic, and evntually heraldic, stuff. And the gods only know I was writing during that entire time.
I CAN DO THIS.