Journal created:
on 29 April 2002 (#544403)
Updated:
on 25 May 2026
Name:
Kat Ad Victoriam
Just an American Xennial Dorky Housewife with a touch of culture, a ton of damage, and maybe even half a brain -- and that is a heavy "maybe".
I would highly suggest reading this in its entirety before you add me as a friend --
I'm a self-aware, observant INTP/5w4. I'm verbose.
It was imperative for me to express myself in a quieter corner of the interwebs.
I came back here as a way to write and document daily life and my inner world.
I don't use any forms of social media (except YT); this is a place to practice my writing skills and develop a writing discipline.
Random info about me that feels obligatory here because it's fundamental to who I am and what I'll write about sometimes:
- I'm an elder-Millennial who has been online since 1997. Started LJ in February of 2001 but deleted that original account. This one I've stuck with.
-I am a Writer. I am currently Querying my 5th novel for publication (Transgressive/Dark Lit) and writing my next novel (Gothic Historical Horror/Cosmic Weird Horror). I have dozens more left incomplete. It's my passion.
- I am a fan of Classic Films, Silent Films, and many classic foreign films, too. It's a vast array. You'd be better off asking me who my favorite directors are, as that would give a clearer picture. Namely, Stanley Kubrick, David Cronenberg, Catherine Breillat, David Lynch, Martin Scorsese, Francis Ford Coppola, Sophia Coppola, Francois Truffaut, Ingmar Bergman, and more...
- Music from the first half of the 20th century is a big love. Vintage records from before the 1950's are a geek topic.
-I read a lot of Non-Fiction and History books, specifically early 20th century (both World Wars are my particular niche) and the French Revolution/Georgian periods. I love Transgressive Fiction. The weirder, the more thought provoking the better. Weird Lit, Cosmic Horror are also up my alley evermore these days.
- I listen to a lot of Classical Music, and the music between 1600-1850s the most.
- I love Industrial/New Wave/Heavy Metal/Post-punk/Black Metal music.
- I am not a convert to Orthodox Christianity, but I would like to become a Catechumen in the future. I am a lover of the Mystical and Mysterious and Orthodox Christianity is very full of these. I keep to watching Divine Liturgy, I have an Icon corner and for all intents and purposes observe much of the Eastern Orthodox faith, but I am not part of a church. Yet. I am a Christian and Jesus Christ IS the Truth and Logos. I want to live out my faith, but I do stumble and my thoughts here may not reflect my faith all the time. I tend to be very raw and unfiltered.
- My politics follow along the Ron Paul kind. But, I feel very politically homeless these days. We live in a Techno-Feudalist Society and the issue is Class and the People vs. the Elites. I have thoughts. I tend to not discuss the politics here though. Haven't we all had enough of it?
- I am critical against the entire Medical Industry as a whole. I write Transgressive Fiction on this topic.
-I write because I don't know how NOT to write. I am a record keeper.
-I am intensely introverted and cerebral. I am a "seeker" kind of person, constantly trying to learn and be/feel competent in those things I find important and valuable. I am always trying to feed my brain with knowledge, mostly useless and not practical/applicable because that's just how I am. I like to observe people and places for a long time before I feel comfortable participating and joining in. It takes a lot of time and effort to build trust with me. I may overshare, definitely a fault in my wiring, however, trust takes time.
- I'm not here for you to Psychoanalyze me and my writing. As in, I don't want you inserting opinions into my comments, misrepresenting what I say and thinking you can be here to solve my problems. That's not why I'm journaling. We give thoughtful insight, share and relate, express interest -- I'm not here to have my life picked apart with your limited knowledge.
***** This journal is over 23 years old. No one from the old days is here anymore but the memories and friends I made here will be taken to my grave. This was my refuge for a long time. *********
Lastly --
I am on Goodreads and you're welcome to follow me I am pretty active there, updating at least a few times a month:
Kat's Goodreads Home Page
I would highly suggest reading this in its entirety before you add me as a friend --
I'm a self-aware, observant INTP/5w4. I'm verbose.
It was imperative for me to express myself in a quieter corner of the interwebs.
I came back here as a way to write and document daily life and my inner world.
I don't use any forms of social media (except YT); this is a place to practice my writing skills and develop a writing discipline.
Random info about me that feels obligatory here because it's fundamental to who I am and what I'll write about sometimes:
- I'm an elder-Millennial who has been online since 1997. Started LJ in February of 2001 but deleted that original account. This one I've stuck with.
-I am a Writer. I am currently Querying my 5th novel for publication (Transgressive/Dark Lit) and writing my next novel (Gothic Historical Horror/Cosmic Weird Horror). I have dozens more left incomplete. It's my passion.
- I am a fan of Classic Films, Silent Films, and many classic foreign films, too. It's a vast array. You'd be better off asking me who my favorite directors are, as that would give a clearer picture. Namely, Stanley Kubrick, David Cronenberg, Catherine Breillat, David Lynch, Martin Scorsese, Francis Ford Coppola, Sophia Coppola, Francois Truffaut, Ingmar Bergman, and more...
- Music from the first half of the 20th century is a big love. Vintage records from before the 1950's are a geek topic.
-I read a lot of Non-Fiction and History books, specifically early 20th century (both World Wars are my particular niche) and the French Revolution/Georgian periods. I love Transgressive Fiction. The weirder, the more thought provoking the better. Weird Lit, Cosmic Horror are also up my alley evermore these days.
- I listen to a lot of Classical Music, and the music between 1600-1850s the most.
- I love Industrial/New Wave/Heavy Metal/Post-punk/Black Metal music.
- I am not a convert to Orthodox Christianity, but I would like to become a Catechumen in the future. I am a lover of the Mystical and Mysterious and Orthodox Christianity is very full of these. I keep to watching Divine Liturgy, I have an Icon corner and for all intents and purposes observe much of the Eastern Orthodox faith, but I am not part of a church. Yet. I am a Christian and Jesus Christ IS the Truth and Logos. I want to live out my faith, but I do stumble and my thoughts here may not reflect my faith all the time. I tend to be very raw and unfiltered.
- My politics follow along the Ron Paul kind. But, I feel very politically homeless these days. We live in a Techno-Feudalist Society and the issue is Class and the People vs. the Elites. I have thoughts. I tend to not discuss the politics here though. Haven't we all had enough of it?
- I am critical against the entire Medical Industry as a whole. I write Transgressive Fiction on this topic.
-I write because I don't know how NOT to write. I am a record keeper.
-I am intensely introverted and cerebral. I am a "seeker" kind of person, constantly trying to learn and be/feel competent in those things I find important and valuable. I am always trying to feed my brain with knowledge, mostly useless and not practical/applicable because that's just how I am. I like to observe people and places for a long time before I feel comfortable participating and joining in. It takes a lot of time and effort to build trust with me. I may overshare, definitely a fault in my wiring, however, trust takes time.
- I'm not here for you to Psychoanalyze me and my writing. As in, I don't want you inserting opinions into my comments, misrepresenting what I say and thinking you can be here to solve my problems. That's not why I'm journaling. We give thoughtful insight, share and relate, express interest -- I'm not here to have my life picked apart with your limited knowledge.
***** This journal is over 23 years old. No one from the old days is here anymore but the memories and friends I made here will be taken to my grave. This was my refuge for a long time. *********
Lastly --
I am on Goodreads and you're welcome to follow me I am pretty active there, updating at least a few times a month:
Kat's Goodreads Home Page
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