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| This song has held a special place in my heart for a good while now, and this seemed like the best time to have at it, what with all of the gorgeous footage that the last few episodes had given us in particular. When I first began working on it, all I could think of as the storyline basis was Cuddy falling in love with House. And while that seems very simplistic and commonplace at first glance, it really was the true, honest thought that was in my mind the entire time I was working on this video. I could go on about how much it means to me, but I think that would be redundant and the truth is I'd really rather have it just be watched and enjoyed for what it is. Because I let my feelings dictate the edit on this one, and that's always the best way to do these things. Many thanks to  katernater for her support in so many ways and for ticcyyy for beta-ing this one for me in parts. |
ticcyyy and now it might be my turn, too. In the event that anything happens to my account, I don't think I'll be dealing with the pain and stress of worrying about a lawsuit chasing at my heels.austen, welcome to the party!It's been awhile, hasn't it?
This video follows the events of Joy and involves Cuddy coming to terms with her loss, or trying to in the ways she is best able to. She is forced to face the decisions that she has made that have brought her to the point she is at in her life and confront the things she believed would make her happy to see if those deductions were still true, and if she is still leading the life that she thought she wanted.
I can't say too much about this that wouldn't be better seen than read. I've lost all skill when it comes to writing descriptions for these that are long and thought out, but this is the first House M.D. video that I've made on my new Mac, using the wonder that is Final Cut Pro. I also made it entirely while in a relaxed position, sitting on my bed with the laptop on my knees, two external hard drives humming a quiet protest at being used so much, my cat by my feet, and Mystery Science Theater 3000 playing three times on repeat for background comfort. It was emotional to make, one that had my heart in my throat for most of the time I was working on it, and when I heard the song it was the last thing I was expecting to have work out so of course it was the greatest kind of pleasant surprise possible. I thought a lot about experiences with this one, about choices and outcomes and the things we have to live with and what can change if we try hard enough, and what, sometimes, is out of reach - and in the end, very few things are really, ultimately, unattainable, if we make the right choices to get us to where we want to be.
Love to those of you (you know who you are) who encouraged me and my heart through this. This one is for you, as were the ones before and the ones to come will always be.
It's funny how good things come from the most unexpected situations. And right now, that's about all I can come up with words to say.