Wow. Over a year has gone by since I posted! That is so sad... However life gets in the way sometimes, eh? Anyway, I probably won't be updating this journal anymore, but I'd like to keep it around to remember what I was like...

I have an encouragement blog I started as a sort of service to my church. That can be found at http://colossians2.blogspot.com. I really enjoyed my livejournal and the community that went with it; I just don't have the time to keep up with it anymore (and haven't for a year, obviously). I don't think this is the last of me returning to livejournal- I love this site! This might be my last post, though... never say never right?

My paid LJ subscription has officially ran out, and it's soooo sad. I only have 6 icons to choose from! And let me tell you, going from 100+ to 6 is almost devastating, lol. I just don't have the money to renew right now, though. *le sigh*

Anyways, there's not much else I have to say right now. Just wanted to post since I've been so bad about updating in the past. But I have to rant about a new obsession. I saw Hairspray last weekend with a few friends, and OH MY GOSH. It was amazing! As a lover of kitschy, cheesy musicals (or really any musical), I was so excited to see it. But it far exceeded my expectations. Nikki Blonsky, who plays the main character is amazingly talented and such an inspiration for full-figured girls. Zac Efron also gives a great performance, but I may be biased because I love High School Musical. So anyway, see Hairspray. That's my rant.

So, I rarely, RARELY feel like this, but I'm kind of depressed right now. Pretty much the fact that I've never had a boyfriend (or a real date, or a first kiss for that matter) is just really weighing on my mind tonight. You know, I've never been one to be jealous of someone else's relationship success, but tonight is just... different. I've been striving lately to let Jesus be all I need and find complete happiness in who He is (which should be insanely easy considering, how awesome He is), but sometimes I just don't feel that way.

And lately it just seems like EVERYONE is getting married or having babies. I'm 21 for crying out loud, too young for all of THAT! Yet, the said people are my age, sometimes even younger. Now I'm not ready for marriage, let alone kids (if I ever want those). But a little attention from someone of the opposite sex would be nice. I mean, the second I get a crush on someone these days, it's not too long before I find out he's attached. Not that I ever had a chance with said crushes anyway, but you get my point.

So, I guess I'll have myself a nice little sigh, a few journal entries, maybe a sweet snack or chick flick, and get back to living my life. After all, I'm a smart, strong, talented individual whose identity does not lie in the fact that I've never had a boyfriend. That doesn't define me. At least I know Who does. :)

As per usual my promises to update more consistently have fallen by the wayside. I don't know what is wrong with me, honestly. I'd really like to update more.

Anyway, my summer has been boring as it usually is. I had a small reprieve this week when my mom and I went down to the beach for a couple days, but even that was marred with a flat tire on the way down. It took up such a big part of our day that we didn't even get to go on the beach the first day down there. Now I have a little over a week until school starts back up and I have little to no ambition to do anything this year. I feel like apathy is my biggest downfall, mostly. It seems to get in the way of my spiritual, physical, and mental betterment. I just can't seem to find the energy to do anything! So... I've resolved to watch less TV this fall, work on my diet, reading my Bible, and get the house cleaned up. Hopefully, I will make good on some of it.

On another note, I am getting so fed up with my LG chocolate phone. Does anyone else have one? 'Cause mine keeps messing up with the touch pad thingy. Sometimes it won't work, and then sometimes it performs the wrong function for the spot I'm pressing! But, come the end of October I get discounted pricing on a new phone and I can't wait! I want one that flips out with a full keyboard, 'cause I'm a texting fiend.

Yikes. Let me tell you a little bit about my week. I got really sick last Wednesday night and am still just recovering (stomach virus-thingy... I'll spare you the details). So my weekend was pretty much shot. Now, I find out my car that I paid $2200 for needs over $1000 in work! It's pretty much not even worth it, right? I'm gonna try to get a new one, but in the meantime I can keep sharing a car with my mom. Our workplaces are pretty close to each other, so it's not too bad for now, except that her car has no air conditioning! And let me tell you, living in Florida, that's not a good thing. Anyway, enough complaining. I really want to update more this week and I'm going to try my best!

Just another quick note to say I'm not dead. I want to get back into that habit of updating regularly, even if it is just a couple sentences. But pretty much, that's it for now, because I want to read some more Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix before I go to sleep. I'm rereading that one before the movie comes out, then I have to reread Half Blood Prince before Deathly Hallows comes out. (If you haven't reserved your copy yet... what's wrong with you?!?! lol) G'night, all!

Yikes! I cannot believe it's been 4 months since I updated! To the handful of people who actually (used to) read my journal, I am ever so sorry. It seems LJ has taken a backseat to my uber-busy, yet somehow still uneventful life.

So update on yours truly? Been very active in my church that I joined in August of last year. I am now a permanent fixture on the praise team and am getting valuable criticism and stage-time experience weekly. I feel the pull of my heart lean towards music once again. Though writing is also my passion, and what I've been pursuing in college for the past 3 years, I feel God gently leading me towards music again. If I ever get this college stuff sorted out by the fall, I think I'll keep my major in mass comm and minor in music.

So yeah... I'm just trying to take it easy right now. Enjoy the summer, etc. I had gotten into a really good school, but then I changed my mind about going there. Odd how life turns out, isn't it? Anyway, I'm seriously lacking in my online life. I need to update more, I know. My icon journal needs a new layout as well as a few updates (I've got the icons on my comp, I just need to post). My website has been on hiatus for FOREVER! Yeesh- maybe I should take a semester off just to get it all done, lol.

So my head hurts in a major way right now, but a little update never hurt anyone. My church, (which I haven't wrote about yet but desperately need to), moved to a new building today. We were meeting in the HCC Plant City Campus Trinkle Building, but the rent was too high. We are now meeting in a purple dance studio, of all things. Although, as most people (including myself) has pointed out, purple is the color of royalty so it suits children of the King, no? Anyway, next week I'm going to be singing with the worship team and I am pretty nervous because the new building has an actual (albeit rickety) stage. *Trying so hard not to freak out*

Buuut... I am finally finished with my stories for the HCC newspaper. This week we're working on design and it's going to print next week. I'm pretty stoked. Plus, I am going to NY in March for the college newspaper conference (or something like that). I have mixed feelings about it, though. I'm excited to get on a plane again (I haven't been in years), and I'm excited to go to NYC again (ditto). However, I am a little hesitant about being cramped in a room and hanging out with people I barely know. I hope they aren't mad partiers, because let's face it... I am not. And NY is a semi-dangerous place. (Is it bad I want Veronica Mars's taser to bring with me?) But I digress...

I actually should work on some graphic design homework before I go to sleep. This collage project is killing me! If only he had given us some better pics to work with. Oh well. *Sigh*

Will someone please explain to me why girls go so crazy over slash pairings? Because I really don't get it. Especially with the whole Dean/Sam on Supernatural and the Petrelli brothers on Heroes. They're brothers, for crying out loud. I am the only one who finds something really disturbing about that? I mean I'm all for pairing myself with hot guys in fanatasies, but why put them together? I thought that guys were the only ones into that (and frankly I find the whole male fascination with girl on girl action a bit weird, too). I mean unless you're gay, why would you be turned on by that? I really just don't understand...

Speaking of Supernatural, though, good episode this week. I like that for once they didn't deny the existence of good (since they see so much evil).

So being sick really sucks. And I get sick a lot. Blech! I have been sick this entire past week and I started using that zicam stuff thinking it was going to help, but I'm still sick. I don't know if I started doing it too late or just didn't give it enough chance, but anyway...

My friend Abby got married yesterday. I still can't believe it! She's like the first girl from my graduating class (of '03 which was only like 20 people, mind you) to tie the knot. It weirds me out. lol. But a lot of girls I know are all about the getting married. Me? I wanna stay single for as long as possible (I think). Well, I wouldn't mind a boyfriend, but even those take up way too much of your free time, lol. But I digress...

I am like way obsessed with Veronica Mars now. I finished the second season (OMG!!!) And I just taped the 10th episode on Tuesday, which I haven't watched yet. I am set on getting the 9 other episodes of the third season regardless of how I have to do it. Haha. I talk about the characters like they're real people... my friend who got me into VM has started making fun of me, lol.

So, I guess that's it for now. I need to go have another coughing fit.