because when i'm feeling like shit and i have no one to turn to

i write.

it's shit.

seriously! if i love writing so much, i should not relegate it to this. just a thing i resort to when i can't find any other way to vent my emotions.

no, i should have more respect for the craft.

i have always firmly believed that words hold insurmountable power and that writers have a responsibility to wield that power wisely. 

i am not doing anything with this so-called "power". except maybe use it for self-indulgence. ugh.

i should be more disciplined. i really should be.

okay, that settles it! 

EVERY DAY, I MUST WRITE.
write for something other than myself... for someone other than myself.

they did say that you have to create things for the people you love and the people you'd love to meet.

i think that's really nice... okay rule #1 as a writer: never use "nice" as an adjective. it doesn't mean anything.

but what i'm trying to say is that it... helps you envision your audiences more. it helps you connect with them more, especially if you hold them in great respect.

ok that's funny. i started this post hoping to vent about my life's frustrations and instead, i started to write about writing.

i feel calmer now.

still a bit depressed though.

but i think... it can be nice to take some time to write just for myself. so maybe i should write for myself every once in a while.

so i just finished writing a 2-column script for my audio-visual communications class.
it was the last thing i'll officially ever do for school. i only have my hours for my ojt left.

oh gosh. :( i am a bit teary-eyed now. i don't know why, or i can't fully articulate it
but i'll try anyway. that's why i'm writing this entry right now. it's been about 15-16
years of studying, and it will officially come to an end on may 2013.

it's... it's... weird. it's a weird feeling. i don't know whether i should be happy or sad.
i like learning. i like going to school - most of the time, because then, i would get to
see my friends and learn something new every day. at the college level, this is
challenged by idiotic and useless professors and difficult classmates, but i have
pulled through. i am seeing it through. and i can't help but feel some sort of
accomplishment for it, but i do feel some sort of sadness for i  know and i am
aware that a chapter of my life is closing, and another one - a scary and rather
unpredictable one - is about to begin.

i don't know. i am excited, however, to find my place in the "real world", to see
what else the world has in store for me outside of my campus grounds. i would
just have to wait and see what happens. 

Yay. Wow. Incredible.

Now I'm connected to the blogging world.

Meeh.. I have been blogging way before. I have been blogging since back then you would need some sort of code to make your own LJ.

It was way back.

And now I feel ancient, so sorry to bore you with this post.

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