Hello people that have probably forgotten I exist! So, I still have my website: http://silent-mind.org and a blog there, but I decided to also have a Livejournal. Mostly because I miss it, but also because I don't know if I'm going to be able to renew my domain this year.

I decided to create a whole new journal instead of returning to this one. I'm kind of a different person--sorta--and I'm not planning on writing fanfiction anymore (though I'm still reading it like crazy). Basically, I want a new journal for a new me.

So, if you want to re-friend me for non-fanfic writing purposes, feel free to go to my new journal:

wolfelements

Please comment on the Friend's Only entry and let me know that you were my friend when I was frk_werewolf. Thanks!

Hey, everyone. Just to let you know that I have my own domain now (yay!) and I'm hosting my blog/journal on it. Check me out:

http://silent-mind.org

So, I have a new website and it includes a blog: http://hecatomb.clockworked.org. I'll mostly be posting there now, instead of here.

comment to be added.

for fic: lupa_libri. for rec: del.icio.us

OMG, Livejournal you SUCK. It totally fucked up my entry and then deleted half of it. SO, yeah, you guys don't get the rant about mental disorders, sorry.

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Okay, I'm done. Feel free to comment on anything, whatever. ^_^

The day long sitting in line wait: time spent trying not to curl up into a ball due to my period. time spent talking to a group of adorable teenagers (yeah, actual adorable teenagers. go figure) time spent reading Scar Night.

First opening band, Phantom Planet: Had never heard of them. I liked her their music, though I didn't really care for the vocal style (it was a weird combo of american alternative and british punk). But Alex, the lead singer? CRAZY. Seriously, these people were fucking insane. So, yeah, I like them for that alone. XD

Second opening band, The Hush Sound: OMG GRETA!!! SQUEE! I love their music, I love the band members. I WILL find and buy their cd and stop just downloading their songs. lol. Seriously, though, watching Greta Salpepper play the keyboard and sing is like watching a thing of beauty. Seriously, it's just...*happy sigh*

Third opening band, Motion City Soundtrack: I had a headache all through this band, so all I can really say is this: keyboard antics. keyboard antics to the extreme. like keyboard handstand antics.

And finally, Panic at the Disco: Best concert I've ever attended, seriously. They had this whole floral motif thing going. The guys were all energetic and happy (then again, they had had the day before off, spending time at Six Flags and 16th Street Mall, or so Jon told me...yes, me. I'll get to that in a second.). I didn't get to see Spencer, my Spencer, on the stage cause his drum kit was hidden and I was at a strange angle to the stage. But that's okay, he talked. Hee!

And I've decided that Spencer is the leader and the most important member of the group. Because all three of them spent half their time over by his drum kit playing to him, especially Ryan. And then they ended the show by all facing him and doing this cool guitar riff-bowing thing. :P My boy's appreciated! And it gives me naughty GSF images with Spencer being a total dom.

Random things I remember from the concert:
+Jon announcing that Denver is cool because Spencer was born here.
+Ryan having learned the tambourine nine weeks ago and he's doing pretty well, only to have Ryan say. "don't tell them that, now they'll all be watching me."
+Brendon skipping around the stage for no apparent reason while Jon simply babbled into the microphone. XD
+Jon and Ryan insisting the crowd make noise for Spencer at least twice (seriously! Spencer is totally their dom, guys).

BEST CONCERT EVER. Though they didn't do my favorite song, When the Day Met the Night. Oh well. BUT BUT BUT AFTER!!!

Ray and I stood outside with other fanish people seeing if they'd sign stuff. I HAD NOTHING! ALAS! But then I realized I had my inhaler in my pocket and hey, that works! AND GUESS WHAT THEY CAME OUT!! ALL FOUR!!!!! And Zach. Who's fucking awesome, I should have gotten his autograph too.

I'm going to show you the signatures, if livejournal's scrapbook starts working.

1st out: Spencer. SQUEE. But I was SO NERVOUS because omgspencer! So I handed him the inhaler and said "really dorky thing to sign, I know." and he said, "hey, high altitude man. it can get ya." XD Hee!

2nd out: Brendon. He was so spazzy. Seriously, you could tell he just wanted to bounce off the walls but was trying to control himself. lol. when he got to my inhaler I said, "i'm almost embarrassed about having you guys sign this." he said, "nah, I had to use one of these for eight years." I GOT A RANDOM BRENDON FACT WOO!

3rd out: Jon. With a towel around his head. And he sounded high, seriously. Just so relaxed and he pops over and goes "hi. I'm Jon. I'm here to sign some stuff. And I just took a shower." with his adorable little lisp. When he gets to me he takes the inhaler and goes, "wow." and I say, "it saved my life at the My Chem concert and they didn't sign it so I figured what the hell." and Jon replies, "right on, hi five!" so I got a Jon high five. And then someone asks how he enjoyed Denver and, still standing near me he says, "it was awesome. we got to hang out and go to 16th street mall and six flags." Ray asks, "did you go to Coyote Ugly's at 16th street mall?" Jon turns back to us and says, "sounds dirty." and I reply, "well, girls do dance on the bar there."

last out: Ryan. He was so wee (as in small) and quiet. He smiled at everyone and didn't talk much. Ray got a video of him reacting to someone saying something and giving a big cheesy grin. Aww. So cute and adorable. You just want to squeeze his cheeks, seriously.

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WEE! SO HAPPY!! *bounce bounce* Even if I'm having the worst period of the past year and I'm coming down with a cold, I GOT TO MEET PANIC AT THE DISCO.

I really need some inspiration to try and finish some of my wips and shit. And, well, my obsession with my latest fandom: bandom is messing with that a little bit. SO, to give my inspiration for buffyverse & harry potter, etc. I'm doing this meme which I found at idyll's journal while fic searchin'.

Give me one of my own stories (located here), and a time stamp sometime in the future after the end of the story, or sometime in the past before the story started, or even sometime during the story that's not accounted for, and I'll write you at least a hundred words of what happened then, whether it's five minutes before the story started or ten years in the future.

I GET TO SEE PANIC! AT THE DISCO IN JUNE OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111!!!eleventy!!!!1



YES YES I'M SERIOUS OMG.

You see...I have this friend. Who's awesome. Her name is Ray. You may have noticed me talking about her, she's the one that's not avoiding me (so, she's not megan). And, like I said, she's awesome.

And she gave me the Panic! boys for my birthday. OMG BEST 23RD B-DAY EVAR. There is no beating this. NONE. All other gifts shall fail. FAIL. BECAUSE OMG.

....OMG.

*flail*

*squee*

*dies*

*is ressurected*

*flails*

...there is nothing more I can say, because OMG THAT'S ALL MY BRAIN WILL COME UP WITH.

........HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!1!!!

This is the BEST RESPONSE to the question "How are you feeling?" EVER:

“I feel like,” Ryan frowns, “I got hit by a car. Repeatedly,” he continues before Frank can say anything. “And then got thrown into a sewer, where my limp body rode down with the current until I got spit out into the ocean, at which point I got tangled in several boat propellers before being eaten by a whale and shit out onto a beach somewhere, where someone fed me a horse tranquilizer and shook me awake only to punch me in the face before taking me to the hospital.”

from from the corner to the block

so, i'm not friend's locking this post, because there is something bothering me that needs to be said to EVERYONE:

I'M NOT GOING TO FRIEND YOU BACK IF YOU DON'T COMMENT ON THE FRIEND'S ONLY ENTRY AT THE TOP OF MY JOURNAL!!!!
holy fucking shit, how hard is that? i assume you want to be on my friend's list so you can read my entries. if you can't be bothered to comment on one flimsy entry then why should i have you friended?

i'm bitching because i've had WAY too many random people friending me recently, without commenting.

guess what people, i'm not friending you back. i don't WANT to friend you back. because I don't like stupid people.

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now i'm going to go console myself with hot, sexy boys having sex with one another.

...

also? no.

eta this is directed more towards the people who have friended me without even saying hello to begin with, not the people who are already on my friend's list.

eta2 i'm not defriending anyone. the people i'm complaining about aren't on my friend's list, they've just friended me.

can I just say that bandslash is the only fandom in the world that has boys randomly turning into pencils and cupcakes. Seriously. THE UTTER CRACK!!! XD

If there are other fandoms that have this happening, point me in the direction of the fic, for the love of Hecate, please! because i need more crack like this.

ETA: oh and, um, they get turned into lamps, too.

Okay, so I'm doing a survey for my Sex in Society class. My topic: porn and the access of it. I was wondering if I could have some of you take the survey, so I have a larger base to draw my conclusions from. PLEASE?!?!

OH PLEASE TAKE MY SURVEY?!?! *BEGS*

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Thank you and hugs and puppies and stuff.

Seeing the Light (Yohji/Ken): Ken just scowled at Yohji from where he hung, suspended just a few inches off the floor, leather jacket caught on the forklift. His arms were pulled up over his head, the heavy leather glove that housed his weapon preventing one sleeve from slipping off, and the other seemed to have caught on his watch. He was just far enough from the ground that his feet didn’t reach, and his hands were at too awkward an angle to pull himself up or try to work free of the jacket.
Notes: Only Yohji/Ken fic I can read and love. MUWHAHAHA.

Embracing the Shadows (Schuldig/Aya/Crawford): Sequel to Seeing the Light. "Who do you have to kill in this damn country to convince them not to give you parking tickets?" the American demanded exasperatedly, glaring down at the scrap of paper.
Notes: I love it when people fuck with Aya's head.

Chocolate and Cream Puffs (Nagi/Ken): Startled, he turned. Nagi was standing in front of the cafe, Ken's jacket in his hand. He let go of it and pushed it with his powers, sending it to Ken. The nineteen year old caught it easily, and they gazed at each other in silence for several long moments.
Notes: Awwwwww. It's companion piece: Coffee and Biscuts.

Slippery When Wet (Yohji/Omi): Unfortunately, now he had a view of Omi's backside, and the towel couldn't hide the tight ass, as it clung to his wet skin, clearly defining the cleft and slipping lower; now Yohji could just see the top of that sweet ass, and just that glimpse tantalized him beyond belief. He nearly moaned out loud when Omi bent over, peering under the debris.
Notes: I never thought Omi was actually hot before this.

Coming to Terms (Aya/Yohji, Omi/Ken): Omi leaned against the machine, feeling as if he were on the verge of some kind of breakdown. The day he made his big discovery about sex… the day he had his hormones yanked out and thrust in front of him… was the day the sexiest of his three roommates was running around in his boxers.
Notes: Nothing is better than Omi torment. *cackle*

The Other Side Arc (Aya/Schuldig/Yohji, Ken/Nagi): He snuggled closer to Nagi, enjoying the feel of a warm body resting next to his. Ken was touched by the fact that the boy trusted him enough to sleep in his presence.
Notes: Ken, Aya, and Yohji have super powers! They are now Schwartz. Yeah, bitches.

Raspberry and Lime Shampoo (Yohji/Ken): Ken's mouth was dry, his mind blank. The supply of air to his lungs seemed to be rapidly depleting. Somewhere inside his scrambled reason, he registered that he was backing away from his rapidly advancing teammate. "What are you..." he choked, swallowing painfully. What the fuck was wrong with Yohji?
Notes: Ken is so clueless. hee.

Inside the Mind Cell (Farfarello/Ken): He was dangerously near to me and it was so much more worse. Now, I was aware of how attractive he was, how pleasing his mouth was on my own. To my utter mortification, I could feel my body reacting to him.
Notes: near non-con at first. Whcih makes it that much sweeter. mmmm.

Alice (Ken/Schuldig):
"Why am I naked?" he asked. Schuldich stared at him in incomprehension. Ken repeated himself. "Why am I naked?"
Notes: Through the looking glass and into another world. BRILLIANT!!!! :P

Temporary Peace (Crawford/Aya): For now, he was content to listen and watch. Ran was an interesting study, so different was he from Aya. Aya was cold, elegant, aloof, vicious. Ran smiled. Ran hummed. Ran had joked around and was now doing a small dance as he cooked rice balls.
Notes: SO much love for this story. SO MUCH.

Paper Mache Heart (Omi/Farfarello): Maybe Aya would understand. He knows what it's like to care so much and have so little given back. Farfie doesn't understand love, emotion or anything of the sort. He just kind of knows. He reaches out to me when I cry, holds me close to his chest and tells me stories he remembered from when he was younger. Those are the good days.
Notes: odd how this is my favorite pairing. not many people write it. *pout*

Seducing Omi (Yohji/Omi, Omi/Ken, Yohji/Aya): "Seeing as how you're both interested," Aya noted, with a brief look at Youji, "I'll call it a competition." He smiled slightly. "Whoever of you can first seduce Omi will get the second ticket to the game."
Notes: Plotting Aya is kind of creepy. XD

Here and Now (Crawford/Ken): Ken was left staring at a dripping-wet back, a small towel all that separated Ken's eyes from a feast of nudity. He stared at his blushing face in a mirror in the locker. Lusting after your enemy was not a good way to start the week.
Notes: God, Crawford is so hot. *happy sounds*

I'm a Jack/Daniel whore. It's official. :P

Thruth and Consequences: Loops. Fruit loops. Time loops. Going loopy.
Notes: I love this story more for the opening line than anything else. XD

Alter Ego: "I went with the flow for three days, Jack. I was going with the flow when those airmen bust in and found us naked in a Jacuzzi together this morning. Now, all you and I have done since Sunday night is get drunk and have sex."
Notes: Hahahahaha. this story is proof that the SG-1 team doesn't get enough fun/sex if aliens have to interfere for it to happen.

Alter Ego's sequel: Undercurrents: As Daniel got near enough to grab, Jack grabbed, pulled him down, and then kissed him passionately, reveling in the silky feel of Daniel's damp hair against his fingers, the soap-scented smell of his skin, the flavor of that delectable mouth.
Notes: I'm suddenly under the impression that amnesia fic is the best thing evar.

A Beautiful Nessecity: So what we're saying," he drawled, drawing some unflattering conclusions, "is there's a command structure which Dr. Jackson is basically at the top of."
Notes: I love fic that admits to Daniel being the big kahuna.

A Thousand-Petaled Flower: When they did finally speak at length, it was to murmur words of comfort. No more trying to figure out what Bast’s plan was. It was obvious. They were toys, truly toys to her, bright, shiny Tau’ri toys, somethings, not someones, to be played with.
Notes: torture, non-con, and you've got to love Bast.

Fate: "Although he really wasn't too pleased---Daniel that is, though I suppose the gazelk wasn't too pleased either," continued Jack then he shrugged. "That sucker gave us at least three weeks worth of steaks."
Notes: best part of this is Daniel and Jack naming the strange animals they find while stranded. XD It's a spam! XD!!!

He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not series: The weight against his spine lifted but the hold on his wrists remained as he struggled, and was soon joined by a hard and aching pressure on the side of his throat. Daniel gasped when he realised that it was Jack's boot.
Notes: I'm not one for evil!Jack. But. The development and psychological intake on this twisted relationship is just. damn. And, well, I'm a sucker for abused!Daniel. >_>

Tender Loving Care series: "Jack?" he asked and then snapped his head so quickly up again he felt his neck crack; eyes front and centre, Jackson. Dear God, if Jack knew he had been looking at his dick...
Notes: Again with my abused!Daniel love. And caring!Jack is so cute.

A Mad Wind: Daniel glared at the man. "Get a little closer, Makepeace. That way when I vomit this up I can douse you good." Daniel was disappointed at how raspy, how powerless his strained voice sounded.
Notes: I'm so sick in the head for loving this story. This takes abused-yet-strong!Daniel to the extreme. Warning for: slavery, bdsm, non-con, torture, and more.

Other Side of Me: "I know what you mean. When I first met Daniel on Abydos he was like that," she said, pointing at Danny, whose head was thrown back in laughter, the sun glinting off his messy hair.
Notes: i love the quantum mirror thing. it allows so many possiblities.

My iPod just flung itself across my room, towards me. That's at least four feet of flinging, off of my tv stand, which is had been placed securely between tv and clock, and onto the floor. How the fuck did that manage to happen?! O_O

Random HP Recs, because I've been a HP fic-whore these past two days trying to avoid finishing DH in all it's boring-ness.

Everything's Not Lost (Harry/Cedric, Harry/Snape). "You're worth fussing over," smiled Cedric as he leaned down and gave Harry a quick kiss.
Notes: Harry's protrayed as young, niave, and abused, which can annoy some. Presents the concept of anorexia/bulemia. Has MPreg, non-con, and a suicidcal attempt.

The Best Laid Plans (Remus/Sirius) Sirius swallows against the swirling mix of irritation, indignation, and hurt that's catching in his throat. "I can't- well, fine then. Fine, we can transfigure the bed into two, and put them across the room from each other. Roommates, right? In fact, maybe we ought to do that tonight-"
Notes: A coming out story with two very typical and realistic responses from Remus' parents.

Just Desserts (Remus/Sirius) Still, he's a girl. A bloody girl, with breasts and curves and soft, wet things and this is really very terrible, and dammit, there's only so much a man can take.
Notes: gender-fuck. Muwhahaha. On both sides of the pairing.

Death's Twilight (Severus/Bill) Many things Severus Snape might have been, but he was no fool. He knew when he was beaten. As it happened consistently with the headmaster, one would believe him accustomed to it by now.
Notes: Virgin!Snape (the best kind).

Firestarter (Remus/Severus) That skinny, greasy, awkward boy who had been poorer than Lupin himself had grown into this. "I..." Say something. "Fancy a shag?"
Notes: Young!Remus through a kinda sorta time travel. Woot.

A Change of View (Severus/Sirius) Sirius had the oddest sensation that a fundamental piece of him was missing. That was time travel for you, he supposed.
Notes: de-aging is fun, especially for these two.

Consideration (Neville/Bill)
Maybe it's because he used to imagine both Ginny and Ron, red hair and freckles, that he didn't jump and flush and stammer as he usually did when confronted with the possibility that someone was flirting with him, the someone in question this time being their oldest brother.
Notes: short and so awesome. one of the few short fics that I find perfect in its size.

Djet and Neheh (Neville/Bill) Bill's smile made Neville feel warm inside.
Notes: OMG IN CHARGE NEVILLE SQUEE!! And in charge, I'm the Boss Bill is so hot. These two should not work so well together, seriously.

Something About You (Bill/Neville) "Sounds just about right actually," he added before he did something stupid like snog senseless a man who clearly wasn't interested in him that way.
Notes: Awww. Crushing!Bill is so adorable.

Coming In Late (Remus/Neville)
He felt his face all but explode with heat. Having Harry twit him about sex was one thing, but here he was coming in obviously freshly-fucked, and tonight would be a night Hermione was staying over.
Notes: God. There is no way to describe how much I love this story. Mmmm, bruised and bitten and hickey-covered Neville is teh sex. And don't get me started on Dom!Remus. Some things are too good to be true.

First Date Jitters (Moony/Neville) Full moon had been early, and he hadn't been able to leave work until late, so he'd let himself in with the key Remus had given him four weeks after they'd started sleeping together. Well, not so much sleeping together as wild fucking.
Notes: bestiality. oh, and scroll to the next one and you'll find a HILARIOUS Charlie/Norbert the dragon drabble.

A Hard Bargain (Charile/Severus) He still had a ladle in his hand; as Charlie watched, it dripped something that sizzled as it hit the floor. A drop splashed up, caught the edge of Snape's robe, and set it on fire. Snape swore and extinguished the blaze with a word.
Notes: It's stories like this that makes me love Charlie more than any other Weasley. SO funny.

Babies and Bathwater (Severus/Charlie) Charlie tossed his messenger bag onto a chair and grinned, seemingly oblivious to the other man's hostility. "Well, I have to admit, when I came back from Romania because I wanted to help, I wasn't exactly expecting this to be my first assignment. How are you, Professor?"
Notes: most unique take on mpreg that I've ever seen.

Firstborn (Severus/Bill) "Oh, for heaven's sake. Do you think I'm going to hang a placard round his neck that says 'William Weasley's Homosexual Lover'?"
Notes: Molly is pure love in this. As is Bill. Hee!