using the actual post page and not the quickpost in my portal
uhh so it's been a while. Last i wrote was before the foo fighters show... i'll start with that.
Twas pretty kickass, got to work along side the foo fighters stage crew the whole time. Set up some HUGE lights and 4 video screens and did a whole shitload more. The show was kickass, i had the best seats in the house (inside the barricade with the sound and light operators with a clear unobstructed view of the stage head on. Walked backstage right by Serj Tankian before his band went on to play. Also walked right by the foo fighters room in the back halls of the event center and saw them all. I'm not much of a famous people person... i don't really idolize people so i wasn't as enthralled to be seeing these guys as others were, but some people thought it was pretty cool that i saw them so i figured i'd mention it.
after that is a blur and i have no concept of what happened when, but there were parties that ended in disappointment, a sudden week of extreme busy-ness, horrible experiences with C code, an 11 hour gig last nite that left me pretty exhausted and nobody was around afterwards (at 1am) to do anything. today i drove some peeps to downtown and we walked around and did random shit and then went to walmart (woohoo...) and then pretty much just sat around and were bums and watched movies and i passed up a party (for the first time this semester) because they've all been ending the same way for me... i sober up before anything good ever gets a chance to happen, i leave disappointed that i didn't meet ANY attractive girls, then i find out all the good things happened right after i left, and i go home and sleep in my empty bed in my empty room (like every night).
so i'm very active lately, been doings lots of lifting at work, plus i've been doing gymnastics everytime since the first meet, i'm learning some new stuff (latest is a back tuck, or a backflip from standing position basically). I bloodied up my face practicing those on the trampoline last time, pretty much got really tired from doing them and got lazy on one of them and didn't flip all the way and landed on my face and got trampoline burn on the top of my nose. Now that its trying to heal up it looks like an upside down horseshoe on my nose, i hope it doesn't scar, other than that i don't give a shit. My plan is to head straight for the trampoline next time and pick up where i left off, gotta get back on the horse when it bucks you.
most of my entries are friends only lately, not that it matters, hardly anyone reads this but its just a safeguard i suppose.
i'd really enjoy someone to fall asleep with and hold on to lately, its really irksome. I simply hate sleeping alone every night, and the roommate's pretty much always gone every night so its just a quiet dark empty room and no matter how much i do it i can never get used to being that alone.
i hate things that are complicated... i wish certain things would just be clear as day and there were no obstructions to the things we wanted. After awhile these things have a way of creeping in under my skin and i feel like i'm just being taunted and teased.
and another thing, its not my fault that i am not attracted to alot of the people in binghamton... i feel like everyone thinks i'm such a close-minded person but i have preferences and standards as everyone does and i don't believe in screwing around with people who i'm never going to really be into.
people make it seem so simple and give me suggestions like oh maybe you should just do this or that... i wish everyone could think the way i do for once or at least be a friend enough to listen just long enough to actually take in what i'm saying and understand it. anytime i ever have to explain something that i believe or a way i think (which i shouldn't have to explain at all but people can't leave me alone and not pick me apart all the time) it's like i'm being drilled, everyone knows exactly how i should think and aren't afraid to tell me so, i'm just simply not allowed to have those thoughts and also have respect, i'm sick of the lack of respect, show me a real friend and i'll bet your pointing 90 miles north of Binghamton.
i have my car, i enjoy driving, sometimes i just think about driving home on the weekend and spending the time with my pets. I miss indy and the ferrets so much. Animals were always my best friends because they are eternally loyal and its unconditional, find me that in a human and i'd be pretty damn surprised. Yeah my faith in humanity is that diminished, everyone keeps telling me i'm cynical and pessimistic, but then again, everyone keeps telling me alot of things and frankly i'm sick of listening when nobodies got anything good to say about me.
Twas pretty kickass, got to work along side the foo fighters stage crew the whole time. Set up some HUGE lights and 4 video screens and did a whole shitload more. The show was kickass, i had the best seats in the house (inside the barricade with the sound and light operators with a clear unobstructed view of the stage head on. Walked backstage right by Serj Tankian before his band went on to play. Also walked right by the foo fighters room in the back halls of the event center and saw them all. I'm not much of a famous people person... i don't really idolize people so i wasn't as enthralled to be seeing these guys as others were, but some people thought it was pretty cool that i saw them so i figured i'd mention it.
after that is a blur and i have no concept of what happened when, but there were parties that ended in disappointment, a sudden week of extreme busy-ness, horrible experiences with C code, an 11 hour gig last nite that left me pretty exhausted and nobody was around afterwards (at 1am) to do anything. today i drove some peeps to downtown and we walked around and did random shit and then went to walmart (woohoo...) and then pretty much just sat around and were bums and watched movies and i passed up a party (for the first time this semester) because they've all been ending the same way for me... i sober up before anything good ever gets a chance to happen, i leave disappointed that i didn't meet ANY attractive girls, then i find out all the good things happened right after i left, and i go home and sleep in my empty bed in my empty room (like every night).
so i'm very active lately, been doings lots of lifting at work, plus i've been doing gymnastics everytime since the first meet, i'm learning some new stuff (latest is a back tuck, or a backflip from standing position basically). I bloodied up my face practicing those on the trampoline last time, pretty much got really tired from doing them and got lazy on one of them and didn't flip all the way and landed on my face and got trampoline burn on the top of my nose. Now that its trying to heal up it looks like an upside down horseshoe on my nose, i hope it doesn't scar, other than that i don't give a shit. My plan is to head straight for the trampoline next time and pick up where i left off, gotta get back on the horse when it bucks you.
most of my entries are friends only lately, not that it matters, hardly anyone reads this but its just a safeguard i suppose.
i'd really enjoy someone to fall asleep with and hold on to lately, its really irksome. I simply hate sleeping alone every night, and the roommate's pretty much always gone every night so its just a quiet dark empty room and no matter how much i do it i can never get used to being that alone.
i hate things that are complicated... i wish certain things would just be clear as day and there were no obstructions to the things we wanted. After awhile these things have a way of creeping in under my skin and i feel like i'm just being taunted and teased.
and another thing, its not my fault that i am not attracted to alot of the people in binghamton... i feel like everyone thinks i'm such a close-minded person but i have preferences and standards as everyone does and i don't believe in screwing around with people who i'm never going to really be into.
people make it seem so simple and give me suggestions like oh maybe you should just do this or that... i wish everyone could think the way i do for once or at least be a friend enough to listen just long enough to actually take in what i'm saying and understand it. anytime i ever have to explain something that i believe or a way i think (which i shouldn't have to explain at all but people can't leave me alone and not pick me apart all the time) it's like i'm being drilled, everyone knows exactly how i should think and aren't afraid to tell me so, i'm just simply not allowed to have those thoughts and also have respect, i'm sick of the lack of respect, show me a real friend and i'll bet your pointing 90 miles north of Binghamton.
i have my car, i enjoy driving, sometimes i just think about driving home on the weekend and spending the time with my pets. I miss indy and the ferrets so much. Animals were always my best friends because they are eternally loyal and its unconditional, find me that in a human and i'd be pretty damn surprised. Yeah my faith in humanity is that diminished, everyone keeps telling me i'm cynical and pessimistic, but then again, everyone keeps telling me alot of things and frankly i'm sick of listening when nobodies got anything good to say about me.