I got my class schedule for September! It is actualfax the least exciting schedule ever, and if you don't keep in mind that these are all 5-credit honors accelerated track classes I sort of look like a slacker.

( and by all I mean 'all three of them because I only have four' and one of them is a first year experience courseCollapse )

Should have put something up sooner--I came through in one piece, and have been doing a lot of nothing for the past few days--sleeping mostly, and catching up on TV on my netbook. Yesterday I spent about half the day actually sitting at my computer though, and that's progress. I'm sore as anything and getting progressively greasier (I'm not allowed to shower until the 10th... they're gonna regret telling me that once they smell me) but all things considered I'm making good progress. No way I'm getting back to work until after the 10th, so I'll probably be taking the two weeks after all... here's hoping I don't run out of stuff to do in the meantime. Any shows I should check out, movies to watch, good audiobooks to look up? I've just finished catching up on White Collar, Criminal Minds: Suspect Behavior, and Community, and short of rewatching what I already have that's all I've got.

Thank you all for the well-wishes ♥ I'd share more about how it's going but typing is kind of an uncomfortable motion and so I'm trying to keep it to a minimum when I can.

I'm having surgery at 9am tomorrow. Wish me luck!

I cannot even begin to express how terrified I am right now.

First of all, I want to give a giant THANK YOU to everyone who has helped me out, whether it be by donating, buying stuff, or just general words of support. You are all wonderful ♥ the selling stuff bit is still ongoing if anyone's still interested--everything here and a Kindle, because I figure I can do without it and prefer actual books anyhow.

Speaking of money-related things, brandixcyanide is in need of some help right now, mostly re: rent--post with more info on that is here. Go help her out--it's a good cause, I promise.

So, I've managed to test my way into Calc 1 for next year, thereby dissipating about two weeks worth of stress. Said class will probably be a disaster and a half, but at least I made it in in the first place. Math has never been my strong point though.

Started watching Community! And by started watching, I mean I finished the entire first season in a matter of three or four days. I don't typically go for comedy shows, because my tolerance for secondhand embarrassment/the motts is virtually zero, but for some reason this one works for me a lot of the time. The only one I don't like much is Pierce, and that's... well, you're not really supposed to like him that much. Annie is basically a quarter of my class in high school, Troy and Abed's double act is flawless (I don't understand a lot of Abed's references but I like him a great deal anyway), I'm pretty fond of Shirley, Britta... I couldn't think of who she reminded me of until she said 'bagels' (~baggles), at which point I realized that I liked her because she's a lot like the one coworker I get along with, down to the funky bagel-pronunciation. Weirdly, I identify with Jeff, of all people. Not always, admittedly, his whole hangup about expensive things isn't my bag, but then he goes and does stuff like getting overly upset because someone else of the same age/skillset/general this-person-is-like-me is better at him than pottery and I go "OH." (I'm getting better about that, but I can't count on one hand the amount of friendships/casual friendliness I've wrecked because people were better than me at some given thing that I thought I could be Awesome At. It was reeeally bad when I was younger). I don't know. Point is, I like him. I don't really see myself getting fannish about the show--the only thing I really ship is Jeff and Britta (him with Annie kind of makes me want to burst into "Don't Stand So Close To Me"--how old is he supposed to be, anyway? I assumed 30+) and I like Troy and Abed but picturing them as anything but platonic kind of weirds me out. I don't get it.

Fic-writing mojo has been extremely weak lately--well, since the beginning of the month, when I quit smoking (since I had to be quit for at least a month pre-surgery and all that). Hoping the next few weeks will improve on that.

Oh yeah, and on a final and completely unrelated to the rest note, I need to contact the landlord of a place about coming onboard as a roommate of a person who already has a lease there (found her through craigslist). Anyone know what the general protocol of that is?

ETA: oh, and I did bandom podfic, actually! My pod_together fic is up here (I recorded it, didn't write it. I personally think the podfic's a little rough, but feel free to check it out anyway :D it's Frank/Gerard, short and sweet)

ETA2: Something brilliant you should read ASAP. It's Sherlock, set in the SPN universe, so Sherlock and John as hunters. Wonderful stuff.

As I may have mentioned, I have top surgery scheduled for the beginning of next month. If I pay for that with my current levels of funds I will have ~300 dollars left in my bank account, ~300 dollars of expected incoming medical bills (one 150$ one that I already have, and the facilities fees bill is always absurd), and I still need to order one of those post-op compression vests and somehow scrape together money for gas to get to work. If my boss doesn't let me take unpaid time off, which he may not, my last day of work will be my surgery date, and that means I'll have one paycheck between now and the time I move out and live on my own. I'm cutting things much, much closer than I wanted to. I was banking on having more left over, but sudden expenses being what they are, it didn't end up happening that way.

So, I'm going to sell as much as I can find and then generally throw myself on the mercy of the internet and hope something good can come of it. Please, please help if you can, or pass this along to someone else who might be able to.

Things I am selling (Prices are all pretty negotiable as I don't know what the going rates are--make an offer?):
Kimono/yukata from Japan (definitely authentic, was a gift from an exchange student that stayed with my family), cotton, pink, a women's medium-large, also has shoes (approx size 8) and accompanying accessories. Only been worn twice ever, if you're interested I'll take some pictures of it.
Denim jacket, women's large, also very gently worn
Fujifilm FinePix S700 camera--dusty, but entirely functional--and accompanying case(claimed)
Books:
Chuck Palahniuk - Choke (slightly used)
Norah Vincent - Self Made Man (only the first few chapters have ever been read)
Ally Condie - Matched (new)
Anna Swir - Talking to My Body (new)
Pride and Prejudice and Zombies Journal (new)
Michio Kaku - Physics of the Impossible (new)

If you're not interested in any of these but you have a little to spare, please donate a bit. Hell, even five dollars would help--it'd get me enough gas for a day and a half of commuting. For the record, I can do fic, fanvids, mixes, icons, banners, headers, tumblr graphics, whatever--if you donate and you'd like any of these just let me know and I'll be there--it's about all I can do at present since it doesn't involve money.

SO MY GRANDPA RIGHT




HE ELOPED.

OR MORE CORRECTLY HE GOT MARRIED ON FRIDAY, AND LET THE FAMILY KNOW VIA EMAIL TODAY. AND APPARENTLY WE ARE SUPPOSED TO WAIT 24 HOURS FOR THE SHOCK TO SETTLE BEFORE WE CALL HIM.

... I'VE NEVER MET HER (ALTHOUGH SHE'S A MEDIEVAL ART HISTORY PROFESSOR APPARENTLY SO SHE'S PROBABLY COOL) AND HE NEVER LET ANYONE KNOW HE WAS SEEING SOMEONE. HE NINJAED THAT SHIT.

SO I HAVE A GRANDMA AGAIN.

'THIS IS A SURPRISE' DOESN'T EVEN BEGIN TO COVER IT.

Something about late nights always lead to too much thinking. Right now, it's about ~The Future, as you do. Right now, my declared major for college in September is chemical engineering. Thing is, I was looking at the curriculum for the four years, and I realized that I am literally not interested in any of it, except for the couple of classes of straight chemistry I would have to take. No interest. Zip. Zilch. I only chose it because it pays well, I could probably actually be employed, and I could get away with only four years of college. On the other hand, I'd be absolutely miserable for four years, and probably for the years after as well.

I don't think I can keep it, but I don't know what other options I have. Things I am interested in: virology, criminology, chemistry, and writing. Writing's right out, for obvious reasons, and I know chemistry at least can require a good ten years of college, if not more, to make 40 grand a year. I'd have better luck sticking it out at my current job until the office manager leaves and then taking her job, with no education requirement necessary. Hell, with something like that, I'd be better off saying fuck it and being a trucker.

Somewhere along the line, I got it into my head that if I'm not in engineering or going to med school full-bore, there are literally no jobs that I can have. At all. Anywhere. Which actually might be true, if any employers discover the whole trans thing. I don't want to go to med school though, and I have no interest in engineering, and my brother is already doing nursing, and being a pharmacist would be boring as fuck, and I would be the worst lawyer ever, and I am sitting here going fuck, I am out of options and am unable to think of careers that exist that aren't professional tracks. As you do.

Honestly? I'd just like to go to trade school instead, but apparently I'm Too Smart and it's A Waste. And maybe that's true, but I like what I do right now--I like it a lot, I like working with my hands, and if I have to suffer through fifteen years of college and the accompanying debt, I am not going to come out the other side with my mental health intact.

Fuck.

Anyone else seen Criminal Minds - Suspect Behavior? I'm catching up on the first season right now--about halfway through. It got off to a bit of a slow start, but at s7 I am enjoying more than I expected I would, based on the first few episodes. Shame it's only got the one season, I'd have loved to see what else they could do with it.

And of course, inevitably, my mind is going to SPN crossover places. I've seen a crossover with regular Criminal Minds, but with Dean as the suspect, as you do. I don't know, I feel like this team could actually work with Winchesters & co rather than trying to lock them up--they're not part of the bureaucracy, the team leader is a religious type who at the very least believes in angels (and he seems the sort to believe in demons as well), they're more casual and meet in what appears to be a boxing club part of the time, a lot more physical and hand-to-hand rather than the stepping-back-and-straightening-your-tie type, and bringing in outsiders with experience seems like something they'd be willing to do, no problem. Also, I feel Beth and Sam would get along fantastically.

... Juggling seven characters would be a new one for me though.

When did that happen? I'm having top surgery August 1 so the anxiety of it being nearly July is definitely getting ramped up right now. oh god I need to sell some stuff I don't have the money for it yet

Been doing well, keeping busy, making a great deal of podfic and doing a bit of writing, as well as tooling around with tumblr graphics. (Admittedly, tumblr graphics and I don't get along very well. I'll spend half an hour selecting someone and then decide after the fact that I don't even want to use that image, and then I will just rage at the world for a bit. It's very exciting.)

Attempting to find my mom some new shows--she loves NCIS beyond all sense and reason, but she's seen all of it now. Tried White Collar, and she loved the first episode (I figured she would, she has a thing for Catch Me If You Can) but wasn't quite as sold on the rest. Any general suggestions? Mostly her thing is the interplay of characters rather than plot, and she watches a lot of crime shows (and before you say it, she's already seen Criminal Minds too~)

( WIPs of the momentCollapse )

have at! :D If you like, anyway. Might be something to do on a Sunday evening~